So my job is on the computer.
I can tend to look at a screen all day, and my relationship with that and the internet has made me not feel so great recently.
And I've noticed, when I'm able to be aware of that, take a step back and do something that makes me feel like myself, that grounds me back in the real world again.
It's really rewarding and it's refreshing, and it's hard for me sometimes to get myself to that point.
I've been filming little moments throughout the past few months when i've been sort of in this weird insecure, depressive slump and just like how i sort of rip myself out of my everyday tasks and internet time to go live life even when i don't feel like it.
I wanted to welcome you guys into some of those moments, some of the things that i do when i am forcing myself to log.
I'm Nabila and I'm 31 years old.
You've got flair and the world needs to see it.
Do you mind paying your employees for all this time off?
So windy today?
It's so windy.
So no song request?
No, it's okay.
Okay.
The feminine mysteries live in our bodies.
Menstruation, birth, greed.
September 7th is going to be the day that your life drastically shifts.
This is not just another full moon, it's the blood moon.
There's a lunar eclipse happening in Pisces, and this is the last one for 2025.
And trust me, it's very, very significant.
This is where a lot of shifts are going to be happening in your life.
Eclipses are cosmic plot twists in your life.
They bring in endings, revelations, redirection that can feel a little bit terrifying.
It's actually insane that we all do this every day.
Tell me this is not how you start your day.
I actually want you to tell me because you will inspire me if it's not.
But most people I know, including my mom, like we all get on our phones right away.
It's not even just my generation, it's just this thing that we have that we can literally entertain ourselves with and get any sort of information from, so it's just like a body part.
At this point, this is failure behavior, Just kidding.
But if I wanted to be a failure in my own definition, in my own eyes, this is how I would start my day.
The first thing I have to look into when trying to solve this problem is how can I make this easy for myself?
Because we don't like doing hard things.
We can do hard things, but we don't really like doing it.
I can do.
I can do.
You're seeing me struggle with this because it hasn't felt easy, but something I can do is put my journal with a pen under my pillow.
I usually wake up with a racing mind, and that's usually what I try to silence and distract myself from by going on my phone.
So it's like, if I can just get that stuff out first thing, even if it doesn't make sense delusional, or just writing about my dreams or whatever just getting it out on paper.
That sounds like a good plan.
But Atomic Habits.
I remember a huge thing that he said in that book was just do a tiny bit of whatever you're saying you want to do.
If you're saying you want to go on a run every single day, just start by setting your clothes out every day and just do that for a few days and like become really good at just putting your clothes out.
Don't even, if you want to go on the run, you can if it motivates you to do that.
But the next day or few days make the challenge.
You have to put your gym clothes on every day and that will probably make you want to go to the gym.
But if it doesn't, that's fine.
Just make sure that you can do that for a certain amount of days.
And then finally, once you've mastered those two things you're putting your clothes out, you're putting them on you can most definitely start implementing the habit of going on the run.
The third step.
Even though that sounds kind of silly like, I think it really does work and most of the time it just motivates you to actually do the thing instead of just doing the smallest step.
But I try to overcomplicate it by, let's do our morning pages and go on some long 10,000 step walk.
Maybe we'll get there, okay?
Like I know I've done it before, we can do it again, but we don't have to overcomplicate things like that.
So I can make it easier by putting my journal right here and make sure that I'm starting my day as such.
And this is why I make these YouTube videos is because sometimes we either go all the way into discipline mode or we go all the way and to our feelings, and i think there is a balance.
To get through this life, we have to know what it is that we want and what it takes to get there, and having the discipline to do that it's the biggest part, like being able to apply that self-discipline and what it is that we must do in order to reach our dreams.
To make the impossible possible, we can do it through our action, but we're not always going to feel like doing that action.
We're not.
So how can we listen to what we are feeling and learn to sort of transmute that, or to honor that, or to use it for insight and information as to how to work with ourselves instead of against ourselves?
Oh, my God.
Oh my God yeah, grab them just in case, for like a table hidden beneath layers of silk, propriety of perfect manners.
Well, i'm about to reveal anxiety and depression.
But 1920s medicine had a convenient solution came in beautiful crystal bottles with handwritten labels.
Her unpublished diaries revealing entries about the pharmaceutical culture among society women.
In October 1925 she wrote The Most Sophisticated Ladies of Paris Society for discussions of literature.
The medical establishment enthusiastically supported this trend.
Is it?
Did you know that when you were filming?
No.
I can't believe we can hear it that well.
I can't believe we can hear it that well.
I don't know what to do.
Okay guys, i am currently at trader joe's and i am going to go buy some new florals for the house.
Trader joe's is my saving grace when it comes to flowers, because i don't really have good wholesale flowers in the city that i am based in, so trader joe's always saves the day.
I'll catch up to you all these wicks.
For the first time i need to do my eyebrows so bad.
I don't really like when my eyebrows get thick.
I like my thick eyebrows, but i kind of prefer when they're thinner.
I just do.
I know everyone has different opinions about that, but I like a thinner brow look on me.
That's just my personal preference, but it's kind of hard to maintain because my eyebrows grow so fast.
I feel like people might have to cut it in a quarter.
Yeah, let's do that.
I feel like a bigger bowl is also...
That was so loud.
Camera. happy birthday My stage.
I hear these human limitations are only that.
Lift the veil off.
Life is not a dress rehearsal.
All the world's a stage.
Enough consuming.
There is nothing more to be digested.
Just like the fall, the autumn.
Relentless.
Give it to them.
Feed them.
They are hungry for me.
Wow.
I don't know why that came out.
It's beautiful.
That's the easiest way to come in.
Sportsman and a shepherd, he will speak these words of wisdom like a sage, a man of vision, though he knows he's really nothing.
Shooting star and set far, far away to the realm of blind faith, are now lighting the way.
As I cling to a wavelength that rips me straight through the night, my DNA has tripled my strength in size.
Silk ribbons sewn tight right through my heart.
Every time it threatens to fall apart, a pearlescent promise lures my focus back to this glowing love.
I stopped looking at what's behind me.
I'm too busy with what's above.
Which one are you going to buy?
Are you going to buy this one?
No, no, no.
Don't do that.
You might drop it or something.
I pray that he holds me.
I pray that I have everything I want in him.
I pray he will love me the way he loves me.
Just one oil, right?
Okay.
One oil to...
Sorry, I just blew right off.
They're going to be cool.
They're going to be cool.
Thank you.
You're going strong.
Are you still hot?
I need to let you go.
I'm strong.
I love you.
I love you. think about them in the field as chasers trackers oh it's already begun wow and she fell on me and my leg was the swirl oh my god it seems thanksgiving day is upon us .
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I see success.
Taking the little guy, putting a nice little prayer intention in it, just pushing it well, closing her up so that it's not bent at all.
And then we're going to take some sleep.
Thank you.
And I has never had a warhead before.
Oh yeah.
So good.
I'm not a sour candy girl.
Okay.
Be brave.
I'm gonna be brave and not spit it out.
What do I chew it or suck on it?
Suck on it.
It's like hard candy.
Watermelon.
Oh my god, what makes it pleasurable?
It gets better.
It'll get better.
It'll get better.
What comes?
The sour goes away ah, it's not even like when you vomit and all this acidic reflux comes up.
Is what it's like?
And like with a taste, a hint of fruit.
It becomes totally sweet.
Okay.
I'm getting closer.
Does that not burn your esophagus?
It does, yeah.
I love it.
Then I chew it now.
I do, yeah.
If you can.
I see that it's like a journey.
Like it takes you, like you get you have to fight for that sweet.
Yeah, it looks better when you're holding it, like from my angle it was.
I mean i like it, but like further away it even looks better.
Yeah, it does something about the shape.
Yeah yeah, it needs to be a little further away.
Just about to eat, cigar was made.
Wow yeah, of course it might.
You might smell a little smoky smell because it did have a leak and they fixed it but, like the engine, the oil is still on the car and it has, to like burn off.
You know, because it was classified as totaled.
So what do you think?
So it's going to be burning.
Oh, yeah.
So you smell the burning?
Yeah.
I don't.
I don't.
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I don't understand that.
That is insane.
I'm so, I shouldn't have waited because I got this phone for the camera specifically.
And it is ass.
I know.
Visiting best team.
I'm making a vlog called Vlogging Off.
And it's about all the things I can do rather than be on my phone.
Yes, and then two potato bean and cheese.
Just the best breakfast taco in the world.
I don't even know how to describe this, because when i say like paper, that makes it sound dry or something, but it's just like delicious, thick and flowery flowery, some for the camera.
So i really like a perfect friend, like no, you actually, because like that is like someone.
I can bring up any topic that is as deep or as surface level and we can do the same anything, anything.
Chloe is the genius behind flowering philosophies.
No one knows.
No, but literally we can talk.
The manager.
The developer.
The investor.
The investor.
The flowering closet.
My face in the corner of every video.
This episode is brought to you by our investor.
Our top investor.
Chloe.
Breakfast at 1pm.
Hey.
Hey.
I swear.
This is so genuine.
You're looking right into the camera.
Right into the camera.
Like, look at that.
The dimple.
You have a little dimple, too.
You're just thrilled to be here.
You're just thrilled to be here.
I'm getting have to deal with the consequences.
So, me and chloe, we got breakfast and we got these large coffees and, as i said before, i'm really sensitive to caffeine, so i have no idea what a full this is a large cup what this will do to me.
So playing the game of what's gonna happen if anaya drinks this whole cup.
Walmart walmart, walmart at christmas time.
Oh, my god, i forgot about that.
Yeah, You heard the jolly music.
It started.
This is the coffee.
This is what happened.
Wow.
Camera.
Wow, it looks good on your outfit.
Carlos, what are you doing?
Oh my god.
Womp womp womp Womp womp womp Womp womp womp Womp womp womp okay that is 2016 2016 we were just talking about how chloe it was coachella with that's kid that's dolce k yeah so we were just saying she got the first drop of the kylie lip kit of the kylie that is i wore this on a camping trip i wore this camping in texas with my troy savant concert shirt that was the fucking time that was okay but my 2016 moment was connor franta no you remember the picture that urban outfitters posted i remember the video you got for me which was very kind i was really jealous i was like so sad that i was there and he's like hey chloe i was like like wow 2016 you're the biggest one in this bitch chloe oh yeah wow it was charlie poof Oh my, he was in O2L?
No, but he sang, he did the O2L song.
What?
Literally.
Oh, he was the one- He wrote the O2L song.
Yes.
Isn't that insane?
Was that his, like, come up?
He just needed a check.
Hey guys.
Joy in my heart because Chloe and I filmed everything we needed to and turned out really beautifully.
And we're just feeling the Christmas spirit.
Yeah.
And we saw a cute dog.
Very cute dog.
That was great.
Had a yummy breakfast at Jim's.
Is Jim's only a Texas thing?
I don't know.
That's what I asked you about.
Thank you.
