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Hey everybody, this is Connor and you're listening to episode 197. of the Listening Time podcast.
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I hope that this podcast has really helped your listening in English and I hope that you're getting better, you can see improvement and that you enjoy these different episodes and the topics that I talk about.
And in today's episode, I'm going to talk about my failed dreams.
What I mean by this is I want to talk about some different dreams, distant goals that I had when I was younger, that I failed at.
That did not come true.
I've had plenty of dreams throughout my life that I have abandoned.
And I thought it would be fun to talk about this and kind of make fun of myself, because it's kind of fun to look back and think about what goals I had and see that some of them were not that realistic.
And now it's kind of fun to look back and make fun of myself, laugh at myself a little bit.
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Okay, let me talk about some of my failed dreams from the past, some things that i dreamed about doing.
I had the goal of doing one day, but i failed or i abandoned these dreams.
So the first one i want to mention is my dream to become a filmmaker.
I have talked about this a few times throughout the years, in different episodes, so some of you might remember this.
But I went to film school when I was 18 years old.
I moved out of my parents' house.
I moved to Los Angeles.
I lived in the middle of L.A.
And I went to a film school that was located on the Universal Studios campus.
So every day.
I had to go onto the Universal Studios campus to attend my film school.
So it was pretty cool, actually.
And when I was a senior in high school, when I was in my last year of high school.
This is really when My dream to become a filmmaker was at its strongest.
And I spent so much time watching movies and getting inspired, trying to watch the greatest movies from the past and learn from the story, the cinematography, the acting, all of that.
And I had the goal, the distant goal, of being a director one day.
Now that I talk about this, it sounds ridiculous to me, because there is no way that I ever would have been a film director.
But for some reason...
I had that dream.
And so I thought that if I watched a ton of movies, I would learn a lot.
And of course I thought that if I went to this film school I would establish some connections in the film industry and I would learn to make movies well.
And so I went to that film school And I'll say that that film school was very good in the sense that you actually get a lot of experience making movies.
It's not like completely about the theory of making movies.
You're not just in a classroom for hours.
You're actually making short films from like the first week on.
When we say the first week on, that word on there means from the first week and after that, like starting from the first week and continuing after that.
So from the first week on.
I was making short films.
So it was a great experience in terms of actually making movies, learning how to do everything, because I learned everything.
I filled every role, every position on different film sets.
Like sometimes I was the cinematographer.
Sometimes I was just the person doing the lights, the sound person, the director, the actor.
So I did a lot.
And so someone who really wants to be a filmmaker.
They would probably learn a lot and get a lot of valuable experience there.
However, I realized very quickly that filmmaking was not for me.
I hated the film industry.
I hated the culture of this industry.
I just knew, I think after a month or so, that I was not going to do this.
I did not want to be there.
I did not want to be in that world, in that environment.
So I dropped out, meaning I abandoned film school after six months.
It was supposed to be a one year program.
And I did half of it and said, I'm done.
And I left.
So that is one of my failed dreams.
I don't even watch many movies nowadays.
So I've completely abandoned everything about movies, filmmaking.
The art form of making a movie is still pretty cool in my opinion, but it's not for me and I will never do it.
So that's my first failed dream.
The next one is my dream to become a professional athlete.
This one sounds maybe even more ridiculous than my first one, because I was never nearly good enough in any sport to have that dream realized.
But when I was young like many young kids, I think I had the dream to become a professional athlete, and not just in one sport, believe it or not.
It's not like I just chose the one sport I was good at and I made that my goal.
No, I actually thought this way about more than one sport.
And I will say that I was decent at most of these sports.
So I was a decent athlete growing up.
I played a bunch of different sports.
So I was always pretty decent.
I was never like terrible at anything. these sports?
Well, at one of them, yes, I'll get to that in a minute.
But first of all, let me mention basketball.
So basketball was the one sport that I actually played kind of seriously.
When I was 8, 9, 10, I definitely was better than most kids.
And one of the reasons was because I was tall.
So the height that I am now, I was this height when I was 13.
So I was fully grown. at a young age and so I had an advantage over other kids.
But when I lost that height advantage and the other kids caught up to me, meaning they became taller and some of them passed me, then I kind of lost my height advantage.
And I was always decent, but I definitely wasn't anywhere near as good as I needed to be in order to think about playing professionally.
So that didn't work.
For a brief period of time, I thought that I wanted to play football professionally.
This is never something I said before out loud to anyone, but in my mind I thought I could do it and it's funny because I never even played football on a team before, so I don't know where I got that goal from.
But I thought that I would be really good and I really liked watching football.
I never even ended up playing football on a team.
So I failed with that one pretty quickly.
And I also, for a brief period of time, wanted to be a baseball pitcher the person who pitches the ball and throws it at the batter who hits the ball.
And I was pretty bad at baseball.
This was the one sport that I just was not good at all at.
I was not good at hitting the ball.
I could never hit the ball well.
But I thought that maybe I could be a pitcher.
So I went through this phase where I would practice pitching and to my dad or to my neighbor.
And I loved trying to throw the different types of pitches.
My dad even built this net that we put in our side yard, on the side of our house, where I could pitch into the net and it would catch the ball for me.
So I really liked doing that for a certain time period.
And then just like the other sports that kind of faded out and I dropped that goal.
So that's another one.
And then one more sport that I played, and I would say that I didn't ever really think that I would be a professional at this sport.
But I thought that I was pretty good and that I could have become a professional if I had wanted to.
And that is tennis.
And I don't think I could have become a professional now when I look back.
But I will admit that I was pretty good at tennis, and that was probably my best sport.
I was better at tennis than I was at these other sports and I remember that I could serve really fast.
Serve in tennis...
This word refers to when you throw the ball up and you hit it to start that point.
That's serving.
So I was able to serve really fast compared to other kids.
And I think I could have gone pretty far with it.
Like I might have been able to play in college maybe.
But I stopped pretty early because I wanted to play other sports, so I Didn't continue with tennis.
So who knows how far I could have gotten with that sport, But I wouldn't have become a professional Okay.
Another failed dream that I had was to be an author and, And technically I am an author because I have published a book.
I published my short stories, my short mystery stories that are for English learners, specifically Spanish-speaking and Portuguese-speaking English learners who want to read in English with a translation in their language.
I actually did publish a book, and you can still find that book.
I don't usually link it down below anymore, but if you go back to some of my older episodes you'll hear me talk about it, those short stories.
So if you're a Spanish or a Portuguese speaker, that might be interesting for you.
But I'm not talking about that type of book.
I wanted to be an author of a fiction book specifically like literary fiction, really deep writing with significance and meaning symbolism, the kind of books that we read in high school right.
I've always loved reading fiction.
I've always loved classic literature, those books that we read in high school.
I actually have always loved that.
And I had the goal of writing Books like this at least one and I started several different novels Throughout the years, but I could never even get close to finishing one.
I think the farthest I ever got when writing a novel was probably writing one quarter of a book, so I never even got close to finishing one, and And I love writing still today.
I love creative writing.
I don't do it nowadays how I did it in the past, but I do still like writing songs and stuff like that.
So I think I'll always love writing, but I don't know if I'll ever write a full length novel.
Probably not.
And that's why I'm including it here.
I don't think I have it in me.
When we say you don't have it in you, it means that you just don't have that ability.
You don't have the capability to do something.
So I don't think I have it in me to write a full novel, to be honest.
I might write more short stories in the future.
I've written several short stories and That's fun and it's a lot easier than writing a novel.
But I don't know if I'll ever realize that goal of writing a full-length novel.
Probably not.
It's a lot harder than I thought it would be when I was younger, and I don't think I'm super talented at that type of writing.
I think that in the past I thought I was talented, but now, if I'm being honest with myself, I'm talented at writing, but in other forms, not the form of a full-length novel.
So I'm including that here in this failed dreams episode.
And And one other failed dream that I wanted to mention is opening a language school.
So in the past I actually wanted to open a physical school where many languages were taught, like Spanish Portuguese Greek French, etc.
And I have studied at a couple language schools before and I liked that environment.
I always thought of it as a language learners paradise, where language learners can go and learn all these different languages and interact with other language learners and teachers.
And that was a goal that I had in the past.
But now I'm glad that I didn't end up pursuing that goal, because I probably would have run into all the problems that people run into with language schools in the sense that it might have become too much of a classroom experience where it's not optimal, where there are too many learners in the class and only one teacher and the learners aren't able to talk a lot, and you know if you've been to that type of language school before, there are a lot of downsides to it.
I still think they're great and I will always kind of have a soft spot for language schools, which means that I'll always have some positive feelings about language schools.
I met my wife at a language school.
So I'm not here to talk bad about language schools, but I don't know if I would be able to really apply my philosophy regarding language learning 100 if I were running a language school.
There would be some complications, I would say.
But at least this goal kind of led me to my current career.
I pursued languages and teaching languages and I eventually came up with the idea of doing the different things I do now.
So that original goal kind of led me to my current career.
So that's great.
It wasn't a complete waste, right?
And lastly, let me include one bonus dream.
I call it a bonus dream because I still kind of have it, but it's a very distant dream that I don't think I'll ever accomplish.
But I still dream.
Think about how cool it would be to do this in the future.
So I won't say that the chances are zero.
I might at some point in my life somehow find the opportunity to do this, but I doubt it.
And that unrealistic, distant dream is that I don't really plan on accomplishing is opening a breakfast restaurant.
I love breakfast.
It's my favorite meal of the day.
I love eating breakfast out at restaurants.
I don't really do it nowadays in the U.S., unfortunately, because it's so expensive.
But when I was in Mexico...
I ate breakfast at restaurants all the time, and I think that my taste in breakfast is pretty good.
I think I could put together an amazing breakfast menu by taking different ideas from my favorite restaurants, taking ideas from my favorite dishes I've had, and I would need to hire an amazing chef who could transform those ideas into a reality.
Of course, I cannot cook, but I think that I could give a very good chef the ideas to work on.
And I think I could also make like a really cool environment for for a breakfast restaurant.
I have a lot of experience eating breakfast at restaurants.
So that's why I say that I think that I could be successful in that, and I'm passionate about good breakfast food.
So that's a distant dream that I talk about with my wife sometimes, but I don't think it'll ever happen.
But maybe, I would say there's maybe a 1% chance that this one happens.
So it's not failed yet.
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