Good morning, guys.
It's Syd.
🎵 I woke up just wanting to talk a lot today.
You already know what I'm about to do first.
Get coffee, so.
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The mornings are my favorite part of the day now and they never used to be.
I feel like I have the most mental bandwidth and mental capacity in the mornings.
So I try to knock out the harder stuff first usually.
I also have been trying to drink less sugar.
I have been getting like half vanilla sweetener instead of like a full vanilla sweetener.
Leftovers for lunch with my current fixation meal.
This is a sweet potato chicken bowl with tzatziki.
So good.
My roommate got me on this.
I probably talked about this way too many times on here.
So I'm sorry.
It's so good.
And I've been really trying to like widen my palate.
So there's zucchini in this.
I used to not like zucchini, but after eating this a few times, I've like acquired a taste for it.
I get overwhelmed when I have like a busy day with work and leftovers are just the easiest for me.
I've been feeling sort of stagnant and it's like one of those things when you put so much work into something and you like do all this work behind the scenes that no one sees and then like nothing comes to fruition yet because it's a long process.
I'm really referring to my jewelry brand and how i've kind of had some struggles as like a small business owner.
Of course there's going to be like ups and downs just one of those days, so it's always worth it in the end.
Next meeting is in five minutes, so i'm gonna prep for that.
Thought they were knocking at my door but turns out it's for my neighbors, so I'm off the hook.
Packaging orders for Ophelia, my jewelry brand, has kind of become like therapeutic for me.
Sometimes I have help with it, sometimes I just like do it on my own, which right now I'm just doing a couple orders.
Sometimes I throw a podcast on, sometimes I put music on, sometimes I just listen to nothing.
So we got new order insert cards.
When I open a package, I want like a full experience of what I order from a brand.
So when I started my brand, one of the biggest points I had right away was how can I like make this packaging not only sustainable, but also like a great experience?
And I just have so much fun like packaging it, putting it together for you guys, because I know you're going to receive this in your hands.
And it's so fun for me.
The first order has the Cecilia necklace and some of the Juno earrings in pink.
I love these, but I think these are the last pair.
So I think we officially sold out of these.
All right, I have the Ophelia orders in my purse and then I also have a return to do.
Oh, someone's filming.
Just like me.
I'm just staring, looking at this.
I don't know why this is like satisfying and so beautiful.
This looks like a painting almost.
All of these people, I feel very mesmerized right now.
This is like the ultimate people watching spot right here.
And that's one of my favorite things to do.
So ignore this, okay?
Look how cozy it is in here.
I just love my apartment.
I'm so happy.
I feel like the luckiest girl in the world.
Ignore the TV.
I was watching a vlogger in Russia.
I am very interested. in Siberia.
You would think that at nighttime being so cozy would be relaxing, but ironically for me, I kind of feel the opposite.
I get really anxious in the nighttime.
I've always been like this.
I've been like this since I was really young.
I think it's because I have a lot of time to myself without any distractions.
So I started thinking about things like, overthinking about things and kind of just ruminating.
I just like know myself at this point.
So one of the things I like to do is just like stretch at night.
It kind of makes me like get out of my mind and feel better.
I watch them on YouTube, on my TV.
So Russia vlog is over, stretching vlog is starting.
I am in bed.
I love getting in bed.
There's no better feeling.
We're late for a very important advice segment.
What has happened to this series?
I don't know.
If you guys don't know what the segment is.
I kind of came up with it because I wanted someone to go to for advice myself.
I really value opinions from like my close friends or very specific people.
And it's always just like something I value.
To get a second opinion from someone, you should be careful who that person is.
And I'm not trying to say I'm qualified, i'm really not i do keep this very anonymous hi i feel weird asking this but i'm 26 and my friendships are changing so much some people are drifting some feel forced and i don't know if that's normal or if i'm doing something wrong love you i'm surprised honestly that more people don't talk about this because i remember going through a couple like friendship breakups not a ton but there were a couple instances where i felt so alone during that and i felt almost like i was doing something wrong or maybe like this isn't normal i just like to think about it as the person that i was when i was 17 18 is a totally different person than who i am now at 25. i also went through such different phases during that time and i think there were certain people that i was friends with when i was 17 18 that i'm so grateful that i was friends with them and i'm grateful for the time i had with them but i also i'm grateful that we're not friends anymore friendship breakups don't even need to be messy either i think sometimes you just grow out of them you know sometimes you just realize i don't think we're maybe as compatible as i thought that we were or like we're growing in different directions sometimes when i was younger i felt like i can't not be friends with this person i've you know built this great friendship with them and we have so many memories together but sometimes like you just fade and sometimes you grow into different people and that's also after you're like late 20s things start to settle out more and like you really grow into yourself so I think it's really just pivotal and just kind of like an instrumental time from your late teens to your early 20s I don't think it should be this like horrible thing to outgrow friends but it also makes those friendships that you do have and you carry on for so long so special the friends that I've had from ages like 17 to now would say i have and those are some of my best best friends and i'm like so thankful for them and we grew into people that were like compatible and like we kind of like grew into ourselves but also like grew into the friendship i think my point is just like don't be stressed about it and it doesn't mean you need to have this like horrible fallout with a friend i i don't think that's always necessary maybe the friendship dissolves a bit and you just see them A lot less, but not never.
I really am the type of person that I have found how much I value my friends.
Like I love my friends and I wouldn't want to have like way too many friends to where I can't like cherish each friendship that I have.
I value them so much and I don't want to just be friends with everyone, because they say a friend to everyone is a friend to no one.
It'll make the ones that stick feel just that much more special.
All right, bedtime.
Love you.
See you in the morning.
I feel dead inside.
I don't know why I'm having so much trouble this morning.
This is really sad to post.
Like, why is it so hard for me to get up right now?
Something's off.
Something's in the air.
Ever since my alarm went off this morning, I've been out of it.
So I really clearly need these eye patches.
It's going to be a tough one.
But I have a hair appointment, so that's exciting.
Unfortunately, I'm gonna have to put this off till later.
And we're gonna revisit this situation when I'm back.
Guys, I wish you could be inside my head right now.
I woke up from an insane dream.
And I kinda hate when people talk about their dreams, because it's like, who cares?
Sorry, is that mean?
I feel like I'm not even in real life still.
I'm not okay.
I'm not doing much there anymore.
All right, my indecision always tends to take over at this point.
No matter what I say going in, I feel like I always end up going more conservative than I want.
And this time I didn't.
I'm so proud of myself.
I kind of stuck to my original goal.
If you follow me on Instagram, you may be annoyed with me, because I have been going on about this and asking you guys for a while.
Clearly I'm just indecisive.
But I did cut, I want to say like four to five inches off.
And I feel like so refreshed.
I don't know what it is about cutting my hair.
I feel like kind of just like sets me up for a new chapter.
Maybe I'm being too introspective about this, but it does make me feel a lot better.
And I am so happy.
I feel so refreshed.
My hair i feel like i kind of chopped it.
I kind of chopped a lot more than i thought that i would.
I don't know if it's because it's curled right now that it feels like extra short, but i really like it.
Also, like the gloss toner that she did.
I am so glad that she did that because i really just trusted her with what she recommended.
I do feel extra pale, really need to self tan like immediately.
This is so good.
These crackers you guys already know, but now i've added something new to the rotation this sauce with it.
I could eat this for breakfast, lunch and dinner if that was possible.
All right, smoothie time.
In the winter i don't really drink smoothies as much because i'm just so cold, but i'm really craving one today.
What happened?
Where did it go?
That was really fast.
I swear I only took like two sips of this in my head and then I looked and it's completely gone.
I think I perfected my new smoothie recipe actually.
I've been trying to like switch up my content on Instagram and be more creative with it.
And it's actually made it like a lot more fun.
So I'm going to film a little video.
This is so sad and disappointing, but it's also very exciting and satisfying.
I finished my eyebrow pencil.
I love finishing my products like that because um, why is that satisfying?
I don't know why i really need an eyebrow pencil.
I like this one.
I got this from sephora.
I bought it like two months ago.
I liked it.
If you guys have any brow pencil wrecks for me, please let me know, preferably quickly, because this is gone.
As much as i like love giving my wrecks to you guys, i really look to you guys for a lot of wrecks too.
Makeup is done.
We got ready.
I'm with olivia.
We're almost at the hotel where we're going to take some content.
All right guys, i think olivia and i really killed it.
I think we did a great job, and it's always easier to take photos when you're with someone who also does it and like wants to take photos.
I kind of get a little bit i don't know if the word's insecure, but doing social media as a job, especially for so long, i just i know that a lot of people can see it as like very conceited because you're your own brand and like the campaigns i'm shooting and stuff for clothing brands or whatever brand it is.
It's like centered around me because i am my brand.
I know it's something i've become very hyper aware of, especially as i get older that i just like don't want to be that person like taking selfies 24 7.
You know like there's so much more to life.
Like an Instagram photo, but obviously like what this is, without saying I love my job.
I feel like the luckiest girl in the whole world.
I'm gonna do some work now on my monitor.
You guys know, I recently got a monitor.
I never thought I would have a monitor. but I kind of love it though.
I really love having like such a big screen.
It's something that I like never thought I would ever use, but it's been really nice.
So I'm going to sync this up now.
And it also gives me some structure to like work at my desk, have like a whole keyboard setup.
It gives me like sort of like an office structure space that I don't have.
Just realized I forgot to make my bed.
At this point, it's too late.
All right, clearly I just got ready to go get dinner.
Kidding.
I'm going to the gym, obviously.
I like this little shrug moment, something different and fun.
So I can't stop looking at my hair.
I really like it, I think.
Especially for the first day.
You know, that's usually when I panic after.
I feel like I did something horrible and I have kind of like a freak out about it.
But for some reason I'm like not freaking out at all.
I love it.
It was also like not that drastic of a cut.
So I'm just procrastinating at this point.
Like let's just go to the gym.
I showered and dried my hair because I really wanted to see how my hair looked just straight, natural.
And it's so short.
But I love it.
Do you guys like it?
I hope so.
If you don't like it, can you just lie and say that you like it?
Because there's no going back.
Oh my gosh, my ponytail now is so short.
Best way to end the night is with great skincare.
And you guessed it, I did forget to do an outro because I immediately went to bed.
But I love you guys.
Thanks for watching another vlog and I'll see you soon.
Bye.
