I was wrong.
I never believed in accountability and I thought it's stupid because, for me, if you want to truly achieve something, you won't need anyone else.
All you need to do is focus on your goals solely, disappear from the crowd.
Put a distance between all the people who don't agree with you.
You know like live like a monk.
And I did it for the last three years.
I only focused on my goals and nothing else, and during those times i think i didn't have much fun.
Actually, my dad got scammed by my uncle two years ago and we almost become homeless and all of my family's savings vanished and we didn't have any way out.
But luckily at that time, because i already built my youtube channel to a couple hundred thousand subscribers, i was making my own money.
If you're familiar with my story, you probably know that all the shit my family went through and I went through basically,
And two years ago when my uncle scammed us, that was the last straw for my family.
I've never seen my parents that desperate and I still cannot forget how they were looking to the wall like blank.
I blame myself actually a lot, because i thought if i would have a bigger channel, if i would have monetized more effectively and if i would be a more interesting creator and if i, would you know, had more people watching me, following me, i could easily repair the damage that my uncle caused.
If i was so successful, i could have paid hundreds of thousands of dollars in depth in cash.
But i couldn't because i wasn't that successful and in my mind i thought because of me, my family got hurt and i promised myself to get my family out of the shit loop and give them the life they deserve, because my family struggled a lot and they fight their whole life for my brother and i just to give us a good life right, and I decided to go all in on my channel.
All I was thinking was to grow my YouTube channel, get sponsorships, make as much money as I can so that I can protect my family.
And I disappeared from every social circle I was in and I wasn't checking my phone.
So it was almost impossible to reach out to me because I isolated myself so much.
I literally forgot how to communicate with humans.
And by doing so, I got everything I wanted.
I made a lot of money, I grew my channel, I got in shape, I got into one of the most prestigious schools in Italy Sapienza, and I became super productive.
But at what cost?
I was freaking miserable every day.
I was so lonely and even though, you know, going into monk mode allowed me to get the results fast, i didn't enjoy it and for the last seven years i've been struggling with depression and that shit got worse.
I didn't know what to do.
I left my youtube channel for a long time and that was the reason i was super inconsistent, because i lost my peace.
I literally lost my mind during that time.
But now, looking back, i was so wrong.
Yes, you don't need accountability.
You don't need people to support you to achieve your goals.
I think you can still do everything alone right to a certain extent.
I still believe that, but it's not fun.
It's freaking lonely and they say it's like lonely at the top.
But if you're lonely at the top, Are you even at the top?
It's 4th of April today and it's my birthday.
And I'm 23 now.
Every single year when I hit my birthday, I feel super proud of myself that I survived another year.
I didn't **** myself, right?
And I also get depressed the fact that there's so many years probably I need to live.
That's because I built a life that was miserable.
Like it's not normal to think that way.
I conditioned myself to think that this is what... people go through if they achieve their life.
No, but it's not.
And I want to change that.
And you know there's so many people, especially in like self-improvement community, glamorizing this.
And I think it only causes mental issues, to be honest.
And they also say like mental issues don't exist.
Okay, it's kind of like denying cancer.
Your perception of reality doesn't change the truth, right?
You can believe everything you want.
I believe in freedom of speech.
You can say anything I want, but it doesn't mean that it's true, right?
But when those voices get so loud, you started to believe that thing too.
Because I believed in it.
Even though I'm not really a person that follows red pill content.
I'm into self-improvement.
I want to improve myself every single day.
I want to achieve a lot of goals.
I have so many things I want to achieve.
And I work hard for them.
But it got to a point where I stopped enjoying it.
If I'm not enjoying it, there is no point.
And...
I want to change this.
I want to change this mindset of telling you that you shouldn't enjoy it, but it's fine because you reach your goals or something you know, something that I also used to believe.
But I will change that, not only for myself, but also for you, because if you're watching this video, I know you also have big dreams.
So do I, And it's so freaking hard to get in shape.
Make money online, retire your parents, be social, manage your ADHD, if you have it like me.
Be productive while being social and enjoy your life and not burn out.
I know how hard it is to be consistent and enjoy the process because I've been through that.
And I know you're struggling too.
But I made a promise to myself that the next 90 days are going to be different, because I will be no longer alone.
So do you.
I'm building something that i need to achieve my goals and not lose my mind, and you know that can help anyone who has goals and dreams to make them come true.
And it's almost done.
And don't worry, it's not going to be like thousands of dollars or even hundreds of dollars.
It's not going to be like that.
It's going to be quite accessible, because i'm not trying to rip you off, to sell an expensive course like oh, transform your life or something.
No, not that way.
No, i just want to build a safe place where you and i won't feel alone, get encouraged, get motivated, feel connected and go over the problems we have in our lives together.
No, i want to create a community where we're going to push each other, cheer each other on and pick each other up when we struggle, because i don't want to cry no more lonely and i don't want you to do that same thing too.
We're gonna take on our goals together and make the whole damn journey a hell lot more fun, because the journey is so freaking long.
And i will announce it soon and i promise i won't disappoint you and i'm sure you're going to find it valuable.
So If you want to get notified when I announce it, drop your email to my waiting list so that I can reach you out.
And don't worry, I'm not going to like spam you with marketing emails or something.
I'm not doing it really.
And we got this.
And since it's my birthday, I would appreciate if you wish me a good birthday so that we can raise the engagement and we can reach out to more friends and create a bigger movement.
See you soon.
I love you.
