Feel like falling deeper Corona it's not I'm on my way to Yu Yan's bridal shower.
I'm frantically trying to get there as soon as possible to help set up.
The bridesmaids are getting there earlier so we can just kind of go through the plan.
I'm literally in flip flops right now.
Okay.
You guys look cute.
This is not the dress that you were showing us.
I got it.
It wasn't good.
Is that yellow?
I love this dress.
These colors are like... They're really good.
This is blue, I think.
I wore these.
Even like giving each other like...
Cheers!
Wait, do that again!
Okay, ready?
Cheers!
Oh my god, I'm never gonna get to eat this.
Cheers.
You wanna go stand over there?
Alright peoples.
So i don't know if you can tell, but my face is quite red.
But it's 1am And I've been on my head.
My head hurts.
I agreed to a panel.
My first speaking engagement since I started YouTube.
And my first public speaking since I graduated college.
So, um, my head.
Ow.
Ow.
Oh my god, it's slowly throbbing.
Why did I agree to this? now um yeah so i have my first speaking engagement i'm speaking on a panel i was invited by google to just talk about my youtube journey which i'm like let's i can talk about youtube all day long oh the anxiety is kicking in my head is hurting now i'm like why did i agree to this public speaking is one of my number one biggest fears i absolutely cannot do public speaking i wanted to really face my fears with public speaking this year and that's why i agreed i literally took a shower because i was sweating so much and I think I need to take another shower because I feel disgusting.
Can't even vlog this panel because there's just no filming allowed, but I'm just letting you know that your girl did public speaking and she faced her fears, so
First day of summer!
I'm so sweaty right now.
We were just out here doing a little some photos and we're gonna go head over to a Parfum de Marly event.
We're gonna get dinner first and then go to an event.
Just made it to the event, I just lost my camera.
We are sweating right now because we're just running rampant.
My camera no.
Oh my god, it's huge.
There's so many people.
We're going to France soon, so I'm gonna do a little bit of packing.
Before I do, I wanna do a therapy check-in for this month.
And thank you BetterHelp for sponsoring this portion of the video.
In my therapy session I've been talking about how I've just been feeling very stagnant in my personal life.
I've always been very fearful of trying new things and making mistakes.
So my therapist challenged me to do something new or do something that I am scared of.
So i decided to face one of my biggest fears, which is public speaking.
Like literally have a hard time breathing.
There was so much doubt and i even questioned myself like what was i thinking?
Agreeing to this, it was such a big accomplishment for me.
I feel like i made a small step forward in facing my fears of public speaking.
If you're in a similar position, take this as a sign and make that risk if you're interested in starting therapy.
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Oh no, Oh no.
Careful not to waste any.
We're going to be traveling to France for Yu Yan's wedding and we can't be sick.
I got sick in Korea and I wasn't able to do anything, so we're making sure to take good care of ourselves.
I came back from the gym and I'm washed up.
I'm also breaking out and it hurts.
I'm gonna use some of this like Red Correct CC cream.
I've been so sensitive all week.
I feel like I've been giving Blair Salsa Man kind of a hard time.
I'm just sensitive.
For foundation, I'm using this one I got from Korea.
It's actually really cool.
I've never tried like a cream foundation.
Let's go down and make some food.
It's finally summer in New York, and summer's in New York.
You know, you know, it just hits different.
Like, I'm thinking of something fresh, like a vermicelli.
I don't know if I have all the ingredients for a vermicelli, but I'm just gonna make something with the ingredients that I have, like mango juice.
I feel like i have been honestly gone like i haven't even.
I feel like i haven't been home and as much as i love traveling and whatnot, there's nothing i love more than being in the comfort of my house with my two kids.
I feel like we need to reset and just do what we do best What's delicious.
I love vermicelli.
What should I eat for dinner?
It is time to make dinner.
And I'm going to cook some Mapa tofu.
Wait, does onion go with Mapa tofu?
I don't know.
I don't think I actually saw Mapa.
Hmm, I love tofu.
Drink of choice is oksusu.
Oh, this is so good and so refreshing.
It just tastes like cold corn tea.
I'm gonna eat it with my radish kimchi.
I could make this at home, but I was feeling kind of lazy.
I eat so fast.
I need to slow down.
Because I eat so fast, I can never get through my shows.
I only really watch Netflix when I'm eating.
