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Yeah, I wanted thatadventure.
I wanted thataction. I wanted that moment ofadrenaline.
I wanted that momentof...
Previously, oncereal.
We all felt like why are we uphere?
Youknow, you can't do anything but just keepgoing.
Going out and shaking handsand...
Oh,yeah, that's aclassic.
I loveit. And this is the one where Isaid, and I don't want to see more of this fucking Lawrence of Arabiashit.
And I said out loud andsaid, let's dothis.
The first thing that comes out of ourtime, Commander's mouth iswhat?
You couldn'tshave. There was a manipulation game goingon.
The whole entire army is justpussies.
Everyone's apussie.G-A-D-I-A-C-I-F-B-I.
And a false assumption that America doesn't leave America in hisbehind.
Your statement is 380pages?
Yeah. Excuseme. Can I talk tosomebody?
I need to report a missingperson.
From this American life in WB EasyChicago, it'sserial.
One story told week byweek.
I'm SarahCanig. If I were a soldier with somepride, withprinciples, and I had to come up with a reason for walking off intoAfghanistan, for causing a crisis on so manylevels, I might engineer something like Bose explanation that I was sacrificing myself for the team because I thought they were indanger.
It's a way to saveface, tosay, my intentions were noble andgood.
Over the months of reporting thisstory, I have wondered aboutthis, whether Bose was really telling the truth about why he left hisplatoon, or if he was telling the version he could livewith.
Mark and I have also debatedthis, ofcourse.
Once when we weretalking, Mark took the microphone and started to interviewme.
Well, I guess I meant just in a more narrowsense.
Do you think he'slying?
Imean, I'm justasking.
I feel like I'm going tosay...
The Gucci Tent still bothersme.
The Gucci's tent still bothersme.
Remember the Guccitent?
The Taliban said they first captured Bo when he wandered into a Guccitent, or near a Guccitent, which wasn't part of Bose telling itall.
It made me think if Bo had walked into a Guccitent, maybe he wasn't really headed to Fab Sharana to tell someone about leadershipproblems.
Maybe he was just trying to run away and looking forhelp.
Mark and I had that conversation back inSeptember.
I've since moved on from the Guccitent.
I don't think it'sverifiable, or that much of a discrepancy with Bose version of whathappened,actually.
So I let itgo. But all this is tosay, I can understand why some of the people Bose served with when I first talked tothem.
They didn't buy Bose'sstory.
They thought maybe he concocted it inhindsight.
When I put it to one of Bose platoonmates, ShaneCross, hesaid,quote, he had some years to work onthat,unquote.
There's a litany of reasons why someone could be skeptical of Boseexplanation.
First, his premise that leadership was dangerouslybad.
For the mostpart, the soldiers we talked to didn'tagree.
Infact, most of them said they actually loved some of theirleaders, but they weregreat.
And Lieutenant Colonel ClintBaker, the battalion commander Bo responded to sonegatively.
Again,overall, they didn't think he was putting them in situations that were crazy risky or that they couldn'thandle.
Then the notion that Bo'd have to do something so dramatic to be listenedto, also nottrue, theysaid.
Which is so moderatelyoutlandish, it'sinsulting.
Imean, it doesn'tmean.
Wait, why is thatoutlandish?
Oh,man, because of where theywere.
And a couple of daysprior, they were on FobShurana, which is huge and has all sorts ofofficers, any one of whom he could have gone and talkedto.
That's MarkMcCory. There's an open door policy that allows you to approach any officer at all with aproblem.
Doesn't have to be in your chain ofcommand.
Though whether an officer would have taken Boseriously, I have tosay, isdoubtful.
And Bo knewthat. A big one I heard from quite a few people was that Bo either was in cahoots with local Afghans or even wanting to contact theTaliban.
Here's Darryl Hansen and JohnThurman.
Imean, for him just to like walk out where hedid, like he wasn't afraid ofthem, he had to have had some kind of compassion forhim.
And didn't likeus, firm to walkaway.
Youknow,like, Imean,again, I have to go back to thequestion, where are you gonnago?
Because there's no other option you've either got our side or the Talibanside.
A lot of people pointed out that Bo hung out with the Afghan police who were also stationed at the outpost atMast.
He had tea withthem, ate meals withthem.
Other people didtoo. It wasgreat.
It was greatfood. But some people said Bo was there moreoften, seemed more interested in them than other peopledid.
Josh Korter said that Bo was once late for a guard shift and he had to go looking for him and he found him having tea with theAfghans.
Then the day Bo wentmissing, Josh says he heard that two of the ANP guys were also unaccountedfor.
Two Afghan police were missing aswell.
So that seemed very logical to me that all seemed kind of makes sense becauseokay, well now he may have two guides or he has two people he is looking to meet upwith.
Maybe Bo had made a deal with these ANP guys and someone betrayed him or sold him out to theTaliban.
I tried to check thisintel.
I called the former governor of Pactica Province inAfghanistan, a guy who'd worked pretty closely with the leaders inBose-Betalian.
But he wouldn't talk to me on a cellphone.
He did invite me to visit inperson, which was very nice but not immediatelyhelpful.
I did not see anything about the missing cops in the WikiLeaks reports or in General Gaul'sinvestigation.
The executive officer of Bose-Betalian told me he'd heard this rumor too about some missingAfghans, but he did not know if anything came ofit.
Sammy Yusuf'sI, the Afghanreporter, asked around about it aswell.
He told us there was a report of some missing Afghanpolice, but it was laterdiscredited.
Mark had heard this rumortoo.
He asked Bo aboutit. Then the idea was you had some A&P guys who were gonna help you out orno, or localpolice?
No, I knew I couldn't trusthim.
I knew enough of theculture.
I knew enough of the situation going on that you do not trust thosepeople.
And I was right because those are the guys who were turning onus.
And they have every reasonto,unfortunately.
Bo said the reason he hung out with the A&P sometimes was because that was part of themission.
Build a rapport in case they ever ended up in a firefighttogether.
He was trying to docoin.
He says that's also why he tried to learn a littlePashto, which some soldiers also said made themsuspicious.
The evidence people point to most oftenthough, to support the idea that Bo was simply deserting that he had no higherpurpose, was that he had talked about doing exactlythat, takingoff.
Several people told General Dal they'd heard Bo say things about walking into the mountains of Pakistan or heading toIndia.
He told one person something likethis, even before he deployed while he was still inAlaska.
Here's ChrisEngels, probably Bo's closest friend in theplatoon.
I'm talking about the mountains and how great they look and imagine he's just walking outthere.
I remember all thatstuff.
Imean, I was right there when he was talking aboutit.
Shame Cross said he'd had a conversation with Bo the night before he left theOP.
It wasevening. Some of the guys were sitting around in the shade of a truck just talking and the topic cameup, how would you fake yourdeath?
I don'tknow. Top off acliff.
He tells me that he'd fake his death and I can't say I'mwar, and that'd be the best place to do itat.
You could justdisappear.
And I want to assume you're acasualty.
And he says that hisgoal, that if he was to fake hisdeath, would they be then get through Pakistan and to India and join up with a gang overthere?
Austin Lantford was theretoo.
This was the first time he'd ever talked toBo, the night before he left theOP.
And Austin remembers the conversation about the same way Shanedoes.
Wanting to be a mercenary ofsorts.
And it was something along the linesof, he was gonna join agroup, go up in their ranks and then kill the leader and then he'd be known for being a mercenary or something likethat.
That's what youremember.
That's what the gist Igot.
He says Russian mob got big influence inIndia, put gangs and told me he spoke Russian that he worked his way up through the gang and then ended the Russian mob and began the hitman.
Bo also asked about aweapon.
He was issued asaw, a big heavy machinegun.
Shane carried a pistol andM9.
And he tellsme,hey, what would happen if you're not a millimeterdisappeared?
Allright, I'm not talking about gettingtrouble.
We'relike, that's a steveyquestion.
Like,yeah, ofcourse. And then hesays, no one was in yourfault.
What if someone took you fromyou?
Isaid, I'd get introuble.
He'slike,oh,okay. Bo didn't take a gun with him when heleft.
Looking back on it nowthough, Shane says it's like if an ice cream truck drove by and somebodysaid,hey, Isaid, I'm going to figure they went after the ice creamtruck.
For hispart, Austin was reluctant to tell me about this conversation because obviously he knows how itsounds.
It's a little extreme and I kind of don't want to make him seem like he was crazy or not in his right mind because we all had weird thoughts while we're over there isolated fromanybody.
In otherwords, wanderlusty comments likethis.
Maybe they didn't seem all thatstrange.
So many people told mefear, plusstress, plusboredom, plus war zonemeans.
You say some really awful allstuff.
Another platoonmate, JasonFry, told me he wrote letters to a friend when he was inAfghanistan.
He got them back yearslater.
And when he went throughthem, hethought, what was Ithinking?
Who wasI? Here's MarkMcCormick.
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Dad, it makes perfectsense.
When Bo finally sat down for an interview with GeneralDahl, he didn't just go back pre-deployment to explain what happened once he got toAfghanistan.
He went all the way back tohome, toIdaho, to his childhoodthere.
He'd done a lot of thinking while he was locked up in that cage with theTaliban.
He was looking atmyself, I was looking at thesituation,going, how did I gethere?
And that question took me back into my childhood because it waslike, I got here because I made achoice.
But that choice wasfollowed.
Youknow, that choice followed anotherchoice, which followed anotherchoice.
And it just passed their stepsbackwards.
Bo sorted through his upbringing and found itwanting.
I'll give you a bit of abackstory,literally, grew up by myself in the middle ofnowhere.
And growing up homeschooled in the middle ofnowhere, I grew up bymyself, taking care ofmyself, being completely isolated from humanbeings.
So you just grew up like fucking around in the woods and stuff likethat?
Prettymuch, Imean, I grew up followingcats.
Youknow, those usually like sixcats.
And you had dogs and horses and then you hadchickens.
Youknow, so I grew up wandering around the wilderness withguns, beaniesguns, theirguns,22s,shotguns.
And that wasit. I just wanderedaround.
Bo grew up on 40 acres down a dirt road in a valley outside the small town ofHaley.
His father worked at UPS and his mother homeschooled him and his oldersister.
Bo had a hard time with theschoolwork.
He couldn't read very wellthen.
He couldn't take in what was on thepage.
And so he wasn't good at his work or he wouldn't doit.
And he says he'd get punished for that and for other things in a way that he says felt unpredictable tohim.
Bo says he was scared all the time of getting in trouble and that he didn't have the greatest relationship with hisparents.
His dad is a strongpersonality.
If you met himpersonally, you'd probably likehim.
It's just thathe's, youknow, because he's a pretty coolperson.
I don'tknow. But it'sjust...
It's justcomplicated.
Bo's solution was the same one teenagers have used forcenturies.
Get out of thehouse. I started working officially when I turned 13 because I was a legalage.
And so I started spending more time atwork.
And the work turned intomy, youknow, saving grace basically because it got me out of the house for an officialreason.
So at age13, I kind of basically started movingout.
I spent more time at work and went home to sleep and eat maybe dinner orbreakfast.
And then go back towork.
When he was about15, Bo fell in with a family that was pretty different from the one he'd grown upwith.
Someone he met through his job convinced him to take fencing classes at a little performing arts school inKetchum, the next town over fromHaley.
KimHarrison, she's the one from episode five who told a story about contactingInterpol.
Kim was helping run theschool.
Her son also took fencing classesthere.
And her daughter Kayla tookballet.
Soon Bo was around all thetime.
He ended up becoming attached to ourfamily.
That'sKayla. A few people told me if you want to know aboutBo, talk toKayla.
She understandshim. Kayla says withher, Bo was watchful and serious and verysweet.
Like one birthday for my birthdaycard.
He went around our small little town with a card and just asked random people to sign it forme.
Oh,right. A littlemessage.
Yeah, it was the coolestidea.
And knowing Bo and how shy he is and how little he wants to be noticed and have strangers know who heis, that wasn't even bigger gesture than it seemed like because that's hard forhim.
He doesn't want to dothat.
I know he doesn't likethat.
Right. This is like teenagerBo.
Yeah, teenager Bo is superquiet.
He would blush veryeasily.
He's going to be very mad at me for saying that but he blushes reallyeasily.
So, youknow, he was really easy to embarrass and hejust, hedidn't, hewanted, I don'tknow.
He was thisgentlemanly.
He is a goodword. He is very much a gentleman andvery, very conscious about saying the wrong thing or being inappropriate or anything likethat.
The Harrison's opened up a tea place inKetchum, which is a skitown.
The tea bar was called Strega and they serve food and had a little boutique and helped moving nights or hostedperformances.
The hangoutbasically.
Kayla and her brother workedthere.
They were both homeschooled too and Bo workedthere.
He'ddo, he'd help me make craps sometimes or mostly he would hide weapons everywhere and like fit in a corner and watchpeople.
He was likesecurity. Like I remember wehad, we just had like random weapons like hiddeneverywhere.
Like there was likea, he felt like a flail like the spike ball on the end of achain.
Right. I think was like underneath a cabinet somewhere and there was like an ice pick hidden next to thecabinet.
Like as ajerk, tongue andcheeky.
No,no,no. I mean kindof, we thought of it as kind of funnybut, but him it waslike, youknow, you need weapons available when you needthem.
I never had to use them obviouslybut, youknow, he was in charge of being the safety guy and knowing that everything wascool.
He wanted tobe, I'm sure mymom, you heard my mom saythat, but he's theprotector.
I have heard her mom saythis.
Infact, all the friends I spoke to from that circle say the same thing that he wanted to protectpeople.
Ketchum was kind of far from Bo's house so Bo began staying at the Harrison's for stretches for while he even slept atStrega.
Kimsays, especially when he wasyounger, it was like Bo was studying their family to see how theyoperated, how they gotalong, how theyargued, what action would lead toreaction.
Other people wandered intoStrega, began working there and also became part of thefamily.
There was Chad andNick.
All these people loveBo.
They talk about how unusual heis, howsmart, howplayful, howcreative, and how totally annoying he couldbe.
He might argue with you unrelentingly just to see how far he could push or he'd tape his mouth shut for a couple days to see what wouldhappen.
Bo was a teenager who'd never been to school and now with the Stregacrowd, he was testing outideas, testing outbehaviors.
And maybe more than most people he worked on improving himself as if he were intraining.
His friend said it was sometimes a littleoverboard.
He might punch trees or bricks to toughen up hishands.
He wanted to get better atthings, at reading or dancing orwriting, throughoutstories.
Mostlythough, he was trying to figure himselfout.
It really mattered tohim, the seeking and knowing what kind of man he was going tobe.
Nick was about five years older thanBo.
He also worked atStrega.
He and Bo would talk and talk for hourssometimes.
Nick says it wasn't so much that Bo was searching for somethingconcrete, like aprofession.
He was wrestling with the big existentialquestions.
I really think so much about how to do with questions of virtue of what was right more thananything.
I think that's what he was really working on and focused on all the time was coming up with these values forhimself.
And he just did a lot of watching to see what everyone else did and reflected againstit.
And he didn't want it to be anyoneelse's.
Bo wasn't going to take anyone else's word for it about what wasright, what wasmoral.
He was going to forge his owncode.
And Kayla says the one he ended up adopting forhimself.
It was strict and it wasuncompromising.
I've had arguments with him about this many times and he gets really passionate aboutit.
And he'slike, you know there's a problem in theworld, but what kind of human are you unless you're doing something aboutit?
Like you're not a good person if you know that there's something wrong and you're not doing everything and you're power to fixit.
Really? He holds the world and everybody in it to unrealistic highexpectations.
And if you don't live by those expectations or by those morals and thathonor, that he thinks you should and he tries to live himself and he has no respect foryou.
And he just doesn't he doesn'tunderstand.
It just sounds sort of impossibly idealistic to the point where it kind of is sort of strangles how you move through the world orsomething.
Yeah, it's really handicapping tohim.
Like it's ahandicap. He's constantly struggling to understand how people are okay witheverything.
You know what Imean? Like he doesn't have an understanding of how differently they view theworld.
I think he's slowly understanding that not everybody can accept the way hethinks, but that's never going to change the way hethinks.
I getit.Yeah. Like his he has the least flexible systemever.
During his lateteens, early20s, Bo would work for a while in Idaho and then take off somewhere for a job or atrip, then come back and go offagain.
Kim, Kayla'smom, says Bo had a hunger and an urgency about him to see the world to gainexperience.
He wantedadventure. He lovedboats.
He lovedwater. He went off salmon fishing inAlaska.
I didn't like that toomuch.
He went down south to work at a military trainingcamp, a place where special forces guys would go for aweek.
An experience thatToppo, he'd rather be doing what they were doing than what he wasdoing.
And you listen to all the stories they have and they listen to all the places they'vebeen.
And then after the week isup, they disappear to go off and do things that are just going to give them more stories and take them moreplaces.
So heleft. He went to Florida to complete a charter boatcourse.
At somepoint, he left for France to join the French foreignLegion, which Kim says she knows he did arrive inFrance.
She's just not completely sure what happened afterthat.
Bo didn't really talk much aboutit.
They probably thought he was out of his mind for going there and what you knowthis.
Here's this cable blondehair, this young cute kid from Idaho with blonde hair and blueeyes.
I'm enjoying the foreignlesion.
Hey, sign meup. They probably thought he was completely bonkers for doing that because he was for doingthat.
That was just like a really badchoice.
And ofcourse, when he tells me aboutit, I think part of the reason he did it was to see my facelike...
Because he didn't tell you about itbeforehand.
Oh, hedid. And I waslike, are you kiddingme?
Well, that is the dumbest thing I'veever, youknow, that was the beginning of me getting incredulous at hischoices.
That was thefirst,no, maybe not thefirst, the first of many or one ofmany.
He trained on hisbike. Nick said Bo wore a lot of spandex in those days for a cycling trip down the westcoast, which like the foreign legion didn't panout.
A few daysin, he got hit by an RV and he wasokay, but his bike wasruined.
So he came back to catch him and started in on the nextidea.
Eventually, the next idea became themilitary, which wasn't a huge surprise to hisfriends, Bo's brother-in-law was in theNavy, and Bo had that strong protectorquality, a romantic version of it to besure.
He wanted to beinvisible, Kaylasaid.
Someone who'd be unnoticed in theshadows, looking out for theinnocent, swooping in when they neededhim.
And they knew Bo wanted to put himself in situations that would require courage andgrit, that would test hismetal, so that he could come out the other side and know what kind of man hewas.
So they understoodit, which is not the same as thinking it was a goodidea.
Please, don't dothat. That'sKim, who it should be noted is a pacifist to beginwith.
And he knew how he'dreact, it's totallypredictable, and I'm askinghim, are you sure this is something you want todo?
I think it's ahorrible, horribleidea.
Not justfor, not foreveryone, but foryou, for all the abovereasons, his romanticexpectations, his rigid coat ofconduct, hisjudgementalness.
She worried he wouldn't be able to just suck itup, join thecrowd, followorders.
Isaid,look, I know if you want to dothat, Imean, I'm not going to listen tome.
Ofcourse, you're over18, you can do whatever youwant.
But if you're going to look into the CoastGuard, because at least then you'll be helpingpeople, you'll be saving people'slives, savingvessels, patrollingwaters, being on theocean, those are all things that youlike, so if you absolutelymust, then that's probably a goodoption.
Had he thought of thatalready?
No. So hedid. He joined the CoastGuard.
In January of2006, Bo went to CapeMay, NewJersey, and startedtrading.
He was19. It lasted only a fewweeks.
Coast Guard boot camp is still kind of the traditional bootcamp.
Imean, they'rebasically, they put as much pressure on you as they possiblycan.
They're not supposed to swear atyou, but they can still yell andscream, and they definitely getthe, youknow, they're very good at keeping the pressure onpeople.
He didn't want to beweak.
He didn't want to not be able to participate in that system to achieve thosegoals, but his sensitivities and his way of pondering and overthinking things made it incredibly difficult in that environment tosurvive.
Those far-sizedconcerns, youknow, I've neveractually, youknow, succeededanything.
I've just been afailure.
And I got to the Coast Guard is likelistening, youknow, seeing what was going onthere, as well as the fact that growing up the way I grewup, I was always aboutmyself,men, but lay I'm in a room full of men and being yelled and screamedout.
It didn't take him long to realize he wanted to get out ofthere.
They've made amistake.
And in the communications that I had from him at thetime, they were becoming increasingly moreworries.
I was just in pain forhim.
Youknow, I'd read these littlenotes, youknow,they, they're only likethat.
And then it was a little spiral no-puxiflip.
Youknow, they're about the littleteam.
Three and ahalf,yeah, byfive.
Maybe this was a four byfive, four bysix, with the ripped off spirals at thetop.
And just writing reallysmall.
And the writing would changetoo, youknow, and as we stress levelincreased.
But at the sametime, seeing how important a Coast Guard's job is and seeingthat, youknow, it's not just the people who are out there who'slives, youknow,who, youknow, they're depending upon me to stay theirlives, but it's alsothe, youknow, the shipmates next tome, youknow,they're, they'relives, they're depending upon me being able to keep their backssafe.
And the home waschanging.
It was morerambling. It was moredesperate.
It was justrapidly.Yeah.
Youknow,eroding. I think I wrote a couple letters backlike, youknow, are youokay?
I'm getting reallyworried.
This needs toend. Youknow,what, what can Ido?
So Ijust, youknow, I finally got to the point where I just freaked out one nightbecause, youknow, it's too muchstress.
One day out of theblue, Bo shows up atStrega, theT-Bar, he'sback.
They're all thrilled to see him and alsoconfused.
Like, whathappened? Where are youback?
He told them something about a psychdischarge, which he said he pretty muchfaked, but Kim and theothers, they didn't really believehim.
According to General Dollsinvestigation, what happened is that on Bo's third week oftraining, he was found on the floor with blood on his hands andface.
It wasn'tserious. It was anosebleed.
Bo says now he doesn't remember how he ended up on thefloor, but that he was told later he was in a fetal position andshaking,crying.
He was taken to thehospital.
He told the intake people there he feltoverwhelmed.
He spent the next day there where a psychiatrist assessed him and according to Dollsreport,quote, observed that PFC Bergdahl's mental status is significant for situationalanxiety,unquote.
And he recommended discharginghim, noting he would need to receive stress management counseling andhave,quote, clearance by a psychiatrist prior tore-enlistment,unquote.
So Bo gets disqualified for continued service in the Coast Guard because of a diagnosis of adjustment disorder withdepression.
And he goes back toIdaho.
I got me washedout, but youknow, that didn't sit right withme, which is one of the reasons why I ended up joining Army was because I wanted to prove myself anArmy, youknow, to a family ingeneral.
Father,father,sister, inlaws, all the peoplewho,like,basically, I knew when I was inthere, youknow, because I heard things from people thatwere, youknow, we're just friends with afamily.
They basically thought I was the failure of the black sheep of the familythat, youknow, just went listening and went to the right thing and allthat.
And I figured I could do the Army because the Army wasmore, youknow, there was more of myfield.
The Coast Guard really wasn't because the Coast Guard's mission is more of lifesaving, whereas Army is more of a militarymission.
Obviously,yeah, the Englishmission.
And I wasolder, and I worked after the CoastGuard.
I saw what I waslacking.
And I needed that work on social skills and needed to work on a lot of otherthings.
Youknow, I set out to dothat.
So when I joined theArmy, I thought I was in a much betterposition.
I ended up being in a much betterposition.
Because of the way that Bo had been what's called separated from the CoastGuard, there was a code in his military record indicating he'd need a waiver if he ever wanted toreenlist.
In otherwords, the Army would have to waive its usual standards to let Boin.
In May2008, when Bo signedup, happened to be a good time to get awaiver.
There'd been a surge inIraq.
There'd be another one coming inAfghanistan.
The Army was hurting forrecruits, easing up on restrictions such as criminal records that might have disqualified people in thepast.
To give you asense, in2001, about4% of Army recruits gotwavers.
By2007, it was20%.2008, the year Boenlisted, it was about17%.
Because his Coast Guard discharge was labeleduncharacterized, it seems pretty much all Bo had to do to get awaiver.
It was right a paragraph explaining to the Boise recruiter why he'd been separated from the CoastGuard.
So he said he'd had a hard time adapting tochange, didn't feel prepared to be on hisown, had some family stuff goingon, alltrue.
Thestatement, which was typed up by the recruiter as he was speaking withBo,says,quote, I have matured and know that I'm prepared to go into theArmy, please do not allow my past record to prevent me from coming into theArmy.
A weeklater, Bo also showed the recruiter his DOD medical historyform, but apparently it didn't include any mention of his panic attack or his hospitalization or the doctor's note saying he needed clearance by a psychiatrist prior toreinlessment.
And Bo didn't mention this note to the Army recruitereither.
He says he didn't even know aboutit.
So evidently that note was never seen by theArmy.
It's not clear in fact if anyone ever took notice of it apart from the doctor who wroteit.
So Spring of2008, Bo is accepted into theArmy.
This time he hadn't told anyone inadvance.
He was being very evasive and I just was getting reallyannoyed.
He'slike, allright, what's goingon?
You'relying. I can tell you're lying tome.
You're not telling what's goingon.
And this went on for a couplemonths.
And then all of a sudden he shows up in hisuniform.
Yeah. Ilaunched, literally launchedmyself.
I'mlike, I grabbed his shoulders and shaking hisshoulders.
What are youdoing? Did you sign the thingalready?
It's just this a donedeal.
And he's like being really quiet and kind of got the smirk smile on hisface.
Like I knew you would react like this is why I didn't tellyou.
And I was just out of mymind.
I just freakedout. And this is becauseagain, you'd had these fears about his suitability before he went to the CoastGuard.
Those fears were bornout.
Yes. And now he was doing itagain.
Yes. And you just knew this is not this is a really badidea.
This is just the worst ideaever.
And it was theArmy. Setting aside the question of whether it was a good idea for Bo to join the army should the army have let bowin.
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He incorrectly interpretedevents, belief in sort of specialpowers, persistent and excessive socialanxiety.
It's something so huge and such a bigdecision.
I feel like you almost have to be God to make that kind ofdecision.
That's not something you can ever come backfrom.
I don't care where your headwas, but you still fucking didit.
It really does tell the story ofboth.