This thing is giant.
Doing it again.
My name is Billy Eilish.
Billy Eilish.
Billy Eilish.
Billy Eilish.
Billy Eilish.
Billy Eilish.
I think it's October 18th, 2017.
It's October 18th, 2018.
October 18th, 2019.
October 18th, 2020.
October 18th, 2021.
October 18th.
20, 22.
I'm 15.
16.
17.
18.
19.
20.
I have 257,000.
6.3 million.
40.7 million.
67.5 million.
94.1 million followers.
106 million followers on Instagram.
All right.
Billies.
Shoe, all right.
Speaking of Instagram, I got some ideas.
We're gonna do something new.
What do you want Vanity Fair to ask me?
Boom.
Ready?
Three, two, one, post.
As we wait for these little questions to come in, let's get to what we're here for.
I am feeling really good.
It's just so cool to get to do this every year.
I don't know.
I feel like sometimes people are like you're still gonna you're doing it, like you're gonna go back and keep doing it.
And I just, I love, I just like it.
It's just like a really cool, ugh, I just, they mean so much to me.
Every year.
I've watched these and I'm just like ugh, it just feels really really.
It makes me really happy.
I feel hopeful and I feel happy and I feel in a good spot in my life right now.
Nothing like that second year.
You know what I'm saying?
I made an album.
I did get two more Grammys.
Yeah, the documentary came out.
Bond movie finally came out.
See, I met the royal family.
I put out a book.
I did an Amazon special.
Put out a movie with Disney.
Crazy.
I finally got to tour again. accomplished and finished a full world tour.
Didn't miss one date, which was really exciting.
I headlined Coachella, which was so surreal and insane.
I headlined Glastonbury.
Don't let something current ruin the the future or the past.
What the fuck does that mean?
Like, what does that mean?
Play again.
Don't let something current ruin the future or the past, girl.
Don't let something current ruin the future or the past.
All right.
What's the most important thing to me right now?
Maintaining my happiness, which I've been experiencing for like the first time in many years.
I want to stay happy.
That's a big goal for me.
I love that I said that.
I was really scared too.
I was, like you know, had been really bummed out for a minute and I just Finally didn't feel like that and I was so worried it was gonna go away.
It's so weird that that's me, but that me doesn't know this me.
I don't know, life is weird.
The most important thing to me now is being in touch with myself and how I am actually really feeling and listening to my gut, trusting my gut, my family being good and healthy and happy and my relationship being really solid with them.
That's what's important to me.
Nah.
I don't feel.
Yes.
Yeah.
I feel that there is pressure on me, but I don't feel the pressure.
You know what I mean?
That first year, nah, nah, nah.
I've always found that question very interesting because clearly I've had really different feelings towards it.
And honestly, like I don't know if I ever know, because pressure is not something you can see and you can't touch it or anything.
Like it's just there.
Yeah, I would say, I feel that there's pressure on me.
I don't feel debilitated by it.
I don't feel controlled by it, but there's a lot of pressure that goes with all this stuff.
So yeah, there's pressure for sure.
There's a line in everything I wanted that I think about a lot.
It feels like yesterday was a year ago, but I don't want to let anybody know, because everybody wants something from me now and I don't want to let them down.
I just love that line and it kind of like breaks my heart every time I sing it and hear it, because That's really the truth is, I don't want to let people down.
I really don't want to let people down.
I ate some vegan, gluten-free stuff.
Some cheese, some fake cheese, some fake bread, some fake potatoes.
Sweet potatoes.
What?
I had a burrito with a gluten-free tortilla and then hummus with a gluten-free tortilla.
Okay.
I had a berry bowl, homemade acai bowl that my mama made.
And I came here and I had a bagel with cream cheese, a gluten free bagel with vegan cream cheese bagel.
So guess what I ate.
I have a big Louis Vuitton blanket above my bed and then above the other side of my bed it's a big poster that has all my friends signatures on it, and I have like lights above my bed and a canopy.
Uh, it's true.
Um, like hell.
It looks like hell.
Like really like dope hell though.
It's like, there's just red lighting everywhere.
I have a bunch of Gucci fabric hanging from one side.
It's so high beast.
I can't even believe myself.
It's like spooky and sexy as dope.
Well, literally shut the fuck up.
Bless my little heart though.
There's so much of me from that age that is out there that exists for people to go and look at and see.
And then there's footage like this that nobody's ever seen before.
And I'm like, fuck yeah, nobody's seen that.
But now it's gonna be out too.
Just more footage of me being a little idiot, that's insane.
My bedroom now is a different bedroom in a different house.
I had a show in New Zealand pretty recently.
Kind of all of the walls were glass and it was like so outside.
You could see everybody outside and I was like, I don't care.
So I like, ran away from the security guards and all the people and I went and I slammed open the door and I hugged all of them and just like was with them.
That was a really amazing moment.
Look at my little snaggle tooth.
Yeah, that was one of my favorites.
That was a that was a good one.
I felt I think about that one a lot, actually, to this day.
Right now, in this period of time, I feel so connected to the fans whatever you want to call them in a way that I just ah, it feels so good.
I can't even tell.
It feels so fucking good.
I just feel solid.
Sometimes people say things that really mean a lot to me.
Like at one point I was out there and somebody grabbed me really hard and it hurt, and someone else that was nearby kind of like literally like someone in the crowd and it was so loud.
But this person just kind of was looking at me in this way and I was like, looked at them and they were like are you okay?
And I was like, Yeah, good.
And it was just like such a small moment, but it was really, it was really nice made me feel good.
Oh my God.
Gosh, that's a great question.
Maybe trust me.
I'm in control.
I'm in control.
I'm in charge.
I know what I'm doing.
I'm okay.
I'm like, you can trust me.
I'm not going anywhere.
I'm not going to be gone, you know?
Unless I die, then I'm going to be gone.
So you're gonna have to deal with that if that happens.
But we'll see.
Yes, like my whole everything.
All of the clothes I have are free.
All the shoes I have are free.
I get socks for free.
Clothing, shoes. rings jewelry.
I was just so like I can't.
You know it's so funny that the people that shouldn't be getting free stuff be getting free stuff.
So what I kind of try to do is just give it to my friends.
I've been more in my life just like going and getting things that I actually really want, instead of just taking stuff that's free.
I don't have an entourage.
I would love one but I am 16 and Right now, it's just my family, which I'm okay with.
I'm okay with having that while I can.
You know, when I don't really need that, when I can't really have that anymore, I'll miss it.
So, I'm kind of okay with it.
In life, I don't have one.
I have one, you know, I guess that shoots and stuff, which is really just like my team, but I'm not, you know, going around the world with an entourage.
I'm like me pretty much alone with some person, right?
Whoever I'm with or my family.
I mean, truly that's never really going to change.
My family is like the most important thing in my life, so I'm with them a lot.
Or I'm just alone in my car.
I love being alone in my car.
That's my entourage is my car.
Um, I mean, he's obviously not around as much as he was when he lived when we all lived together.
I mean, we see each other all the time.
And also now we're, we're starting to make music.
Again, we just started the, the process of making an album, which is really exciting.
So now we have like specific days where we see each other, which is really nice because you know you get caught up in life.
I'm hanging out with my brother a lot, actually.
It's my buddy.
Definitely.
The homeschool one.
Just anything about being homeschooled.
And like people don't know anything about it.
How did you make friends?
What?
That, I mean, that question I've been asked my entire life before I had interviews.
It's all anyone would ask.
How do you make friends?
That one hasn't been asked in a minute.
That was annoying.
That was an annoying one.
Didn't love that one.
I just get tired of being asked like the same thing.
I guess I just want creative questions.
Like I think that I would ask really creative questions if I were them.
Speaking of creative questions.
Let's check this Instagram real quick.
Here's what you are asking me.
Oh, these are good.
Oh, these are really good.
Least favorite song of your own?
Watch.
What was your favorite show this tour?
Boston.
How many songs are you working on?
One, currently.
Favorite thing about doing this interview?
I don't know, I feel really connected to myself.
It's really cool to have these what five versions of myself to interact with.
That's just so insane.
It feels like I'm interacting with other people, but also it's me.
It's just really cool.
I don't know, I really like that.
Most growth between years.
I've changed more from the beginning of this year until now than I have in the last like five years.
I mean, honestly, your favorite band.
I think I gotta just say the Beatles.
Burritos are pooping.
Ooh.
I don't want to choose.
I guess burritos.
But pooping's important.
Sorry.
No.
Yes, I do.
No.
I don't know yet.
I think so.
Billy, Jesus loves you.
All right.
Thank you guys for the questions.
Back to the other questions.
I just wanna I wanna try to be really in touch with who I am, because there was a moment this year where I wasn't really aware of who I was.
I was just kind of following along with like who I had decided to be.
That's true.
I was still doing that in this moment.
I knew it too.
I knew when I was, I knew when I was sitting there. what was going on.
I have a couple other things that I like to keep to myself, that are aspirations for me, and we'll see how they go.
Hopefully next year me can, without me having to say it, know what I'm talking about.
That's so annoying.
I do that all the time.
Oh, I do that all honestly.
I've done that so many times in these fucking interviews where I'll be like well, I can't say that, but me and the future will remember.
I don't remember.
I would like to maybe skydive, maybe do like a big like a bungee jump off a cliff or something.
I really enjoy fear.
I want to get an electric car.
I want to rescue some horses.
I've had a very big transformation this year with my fitness lifestyle and it's been a really insane process and I feel better about myself than I ever have, which makes me feel proud.
I worked really hard on it and I just want to get really fucking buff.
I just want to be buff.
Yeah, so hopefully by next year I will be ripped.
Biggest rumor though now that I sold my soul to Satan.
Oh, that I'm in the third season of Euphoria.
That's not true.
I'd like to be Euphoria's fucking fire.
No, I don't like dating at all.
No, no, no.
No.
No, thank you.
No, I don't have a boyfriend.
I could not have a boyfriend that would just be mean to him.
I hate things that aren't exclusive.
Yep.
Yes, I do.
I feel extremely grateful for the relationship that I was in last year and I think he's fucking so much happier now, which makes me really happy.
Yeah, I do.
And it's really cool and I'm really excited and I'm really happy.
I managed to get my way to a point in my life, to a point where I not only was known by a person that I thought was the hottest fucking fucker alive, but pulled his ass.
Are you kidding me?
Can we just run with applause for me?
Thank you.
Jesse Rutherford, everyone.
I pulled his ass.
All me.
I did that shit.
I lock that motherfucker down.
My, whatever they say, love language is just physical touch.
I just need to be touching skin all the time.
Touching and cuddling and hugging and anything skin related is really a big thing for me.
And other than that, just like freedom, You know, I don't want to be controlled.
I want to be trusted and I want to be able to have space and I want love and attention, and equal admiration is really important.
I just am really inspired by this person and, you know, he's inspired by me.
It's really cool.
Judge me, please.
I don't.
And then one word, fucking no.
It's my style.
Billy Eilish parody.
Anything goes.
I was gonna say back to basics, maybe, or just like, back to me.
The old me, I don't know, something like that.
I don't know.
Sure.
Fruitville station.
Eye origins.
Ferris Bueller's Day Off is a solid choice.
I used to watch a movie that was a little kid, and it's still one of my favorite movies.
It's just so good, it never gets old, doesn't age.
I love that film.
Brock Hampton.
Tierra Whack Techno.
Arlo Parks.
The Doe.
Cake.
The Cardigans.
Dora.
You know who, and then also Me.
A while now, I've been really having an identity crisis a little.
I felt like I was pretending to be Billie Eilish.
I felt like a parody of myself.
Yeah.
That lasted for a bit.
Like we, the 2020 Billie was very identity crisis. overboard.
And then I was kind of freaked out by that and felt really distant for myself.
The biggest thing I'm struggling with now is a specific relationship friendship that I'm trying to figure out how to not be really angry.
I'm trying to learn to not hold grudges, not let it make me treat people weird because of a fear of abandonment a little bit.
It's pretty low.
I can say pretty low because I kind of have like a manly voice.
Low C maybe?
I don't know.
I can say really low.
Oh, it's so cool.
I mean, I don't know by heart or would assume I can probably sing lower because I'm older, right?
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I love you so much.
I love you so much.
Come here.
Join me.
I love you, Billy.
My sweet mama.
Love you dearly.
Come here.
Hi.
I love you so much.
I love you very much.
It's fun to be here.
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Brave and charming and weird, and oh mama, I love you, I love you so much.
