Hey weirdos, I'm Ash.
And I'm Alayna.
And this is Morbid.
Do you remember when i was really vulnerable last week and i told you i did a foot mask?
Oh yes, and then i said i was like afraid that my feet weren't gonna peel, but i was afraid that they weren't gonna peel.
I'm gonna be really vulnerable again.
Why are my feet still peeling?
Yeah, they're gonna go for a while.
I also did one a few days ago because you inspired me.
I inspired you.
Oh my god, i'm an influencer and mine have also started and it's great.
Mikey, mikey did one too.
Debbie oh, Peel your feet.
Peel them off right now.
Peel your feet.
It's so good.
It is.
It's the best.
My feet are peeling so much that I almost, God, this is horrible.
Sorry for eating.
But like, I'm like, do I do one again to like soften the parts that like aren't peeling as easily?
Probably not.
I would.
I was met with a series of head shakes from across the room.
Yeah.
You don't want to overdo.
You always go hard.
You gotta pull this one back.
One thing about me.
One thing about me is that i go hard.
Yeah, you don't want to like start giving your feet problems.
That would suck, you know well.
Yeah, it's fun, though do it is.
I suggest you do it.
Do it you'll.
You'll feel brand new, It's true.
What's up with you, Red?
What's up with me?
You can pre-order my book, The Butcher Legacy.
Let's go.
It's coming out August 11th and you can pre-order it on butcherlegacy.com.
Or wherever books are sold.
Exactly.
You can get it anywhere.
I'm excited.
Pre-order it.
Pre-order it.
I'm going to start the series from the top.
Hell yeah.
Started from the top.
Because I haven't read.
Well, I should say she's read them.
Yeah.
No, no, no.
Imagine.
You're like, I'm going to start reading them.
I'm like I've actually just decided you're doing really good at this whole thing, so I should give it a shot.
No, I've read all of them.
And I was actually just about to say I'm restarting them to get ready for the third one, because I have the third one.
Ha ha.
Na na na boo boo.
Ha ha.
But I haven't read Butcher and the Wren in a long time.
I don't even know how many years because it was so long ago at this point.
You just keep writing books.
It's nuts.
Writing books.
I'm restarting and I'm going to read them back to back to back.
Yeah.
And I'm really excited.
I love that.
The next two are thickies.
I'm excited.
They are.
They get exponentially thicker.
It's funny because this book is released.
But I was with you yesterday and I saw you typing something.
I was typing something.
I saw you typing something.
I was typing a little something.
What were you typing?
I don't know.
Maybe just a little something.
Oh my God.
Oh my God.
Maybe.
I don't know.
That's crazy.
Once one's done.
Once one's done, you just type something else.
Just start.
Maybe something's brewing.
I don't know.
Just type until you die.
Exactly.
That's what everybody wants from you.
That's my motto.
Type until you die.
I will.
Let's go.
So somebody messaged me and said they liked the little.
You know how to make life feel a little less shitty how it is right now and a little more like romanticized or slowed down or just give you like little pockets.
Of course, we, you know, one person was like, glad you're having a great year.
Like, go fuck yourself.
And I was like, that's what you got from that?
Okay.
You won't be romanticizing your moments.
You're not romanticizing anything.
Because that's clearly not what I'm saying.
Romanticize your Instagram comments.
Exactly.
Clearly that's not what I'm saying.
Romanticize my DMs.
But for the most part, you guys have been digging it, which is awesome.
Because I'm telling you, it helps a little.
It does.
It helps a little.
It helps take a little bit of the edge off of all the fuck shit that is happening, because it is complete fuck shit.
Fuck ice.
Fuck.
But one thing I said I did was I watched Center Stage at like 5.30 in the morning the other morning.
And it really set me up for a pretty fucking great day.
So what did you watch the next day?
And then my little watch list was like, oh, girl, you like Center Stage at 5.30 in the morning?
And I said, yeah, I do.
And it said, here's some other little gems for you.
What do we have?
And of course, I mentioned this early, threw me, threw me, drive me crazy.
Oh.
And I said.
Banger.
All right, let's give that a shot.
Guys.
Banger.
That movie.
That movie.
I haven't seen that movie in a long time. long time.
A true underrated banger.
It's very of the time.
I need you to know that right now going in.
Super odds.
But that's just where we are.
I'm sure Center Stage is too.
Everything is of the time.
But Drive Me Crazy was great.
That was the other.
It took me like two mornings to get through that one.
Is Melissa Joan Hart in that?
Yeah, of course she is.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Yeah, she's great.
And the next one I watched after that that I started watching, 10 Things I Hate About You.
Oh!
Yeah.
10 Things I Hate About You.
The scene where they're in the bleachers and it... Oh, ruin me.
Heath Ledger forever.
No, I'll cry right now.
I'll sob on this podcast.
He is...
He is just a king in that movie.
And the next one I have on my list that I'm going to go to after finishing.
10 Things I Hate About You is Can't Hardly Wait.
Jennifer Lynn Hewitt.
What happens?
Big party.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
After graduation.
Carlisle from Twilight is in it.
What?
Yeah, he plays the jock.
Is fucking Seth Green in that?
Yes, okay.
He plays a wildly problematic character.
And I think that's why I was like, I remember that movie.
I was like, wait a minute.
That'll stay with you.
But again, very of the time.
So I know my watch list here is, it's like giving me a cue of like, oh, you like this.
Like you're in that era.
Yes.
I'm telling you the nostalgia in the morning of these movies, when I just am like doing things and I just put them on.
Yeah.
Don't have to sit down and like really like engross yourself in them.
It's working.
I love that.
It's making me feel good.
That's great.
You know?
Good for you.
I suggest it.
Perfect.
I highly suggest it.
I'm just starting my morning.
I'm on Chinese medicine TikTok.
I had no idea where you were going with that for a second.
I saw your face and you were like, what are you saying?
Because I thought at first you were saying my mornings like I'm starting with Chinese, like I thought you were going to be like Chinese food.
And I was like, this is different.
That would be, I wish I could start my mornings with Chinese food.
I was like, wow.
No, I'm on Chinese TikTok, Chinese Medicine TikTok.
And they're giving you all these like little like bullet points of advice.
And you should start your morning with hot water or something hot to like get your belly settled.
Oh, I think I have seen that.
Shit will change your life.
Oh, I like that.
I'm having a little hot water with lemon.
I don't know.
I rolled up here with my hot tea.
Oh, good.
I love it.
First I had a hot water with lemon, then I had a hot tea.
Look at that.
The hot beverages.
You know, it's the little things.
It is.
Again, it's the little things.
And you'll like this.
I'm keeping my feet warm.
Oh, yeah, as you should.
You should not walk around the house barefoot, according to Chinese medicine.
Never have been, never will be.
Always did.
Won't again.
There you go.
Look at these.
Look at these.
Yeah.
I ordered these little ditties.
They're grippy so I don't fall on my butt.
Yeah.
I'm saying.
It's good shit.
So that's wellness with Alina Nash.
Yeah.
So do those things.
Crazy ox movies, fuzzy socks, and hot beverages.
If I come up with anything else, little that seems to work and make me feel good, I'll let you guys know, because we're not gatekeeping happiness over here.
No.
Maybe I'll start eating Chinese food in the morning.
Yeah.
I'll let you know if it works.
Exactly.
We'll share it.
I like your movie recommendations though, so please continue watching your ridiculous movies and telling us about them.
Hell yeah.
All right.
I'm going to talk about something that is also nostalgic.
No.
No, it might be.
Maybe to you.
Yeah.
I wasn't alive.
No, I was.
I was.
I remember when this happened.
Do you really?
I mean, it was probably a pretty big deal.
We're going to be talking about having skates.
And if you were alive and functioning, this will be like me.
It will be nostalgic for you, I suppose.
I don't know if you'll long for this time, but I don't know your life.
So let's talk about it.
In mid-March 1997, 43-year-old Richard Ford finally spoke out against Father Doe, who was known to the rest of the world as 65-year-old Marshall Applewhite.
For over 20 years, he had been slowly building a following as the leader of Heaven's Gate, which was this religious cult.
Their beliefs were kind of a blend of Christianity, science fiction and like new age practices, but they were bonkers.
Wow.
Wow.
By the mid-1990s, Marshall Applewhite had attracted over 40 men and women who were basically just fed up with their day-to-day lives, fed up with society.
Ages in the group actually ranged all the way from people in their mid-20s to their early 70s.
Wow.
So this was like a vast range of people.
They all hoped that his predictions to finding a better life on another planet would come true.
Period.
Period.
According to Marshall Applewhite, their escape would be made in an alien spacecraft that was following closely behind the Hale-Bopp comet, which was expected to pass the Earth at the end of March.
I remember this.
Well, it was like a huge thing.
It was a big fucking deal.
It was like nuts.
Yeah.
I don't recall.
Yeah.
I don't recall.
I don't recall.
We went out on the front lawn and we waited for it.
Did you?
Yeah.
I think I was still in Hawaii at that point.
So I wasn't with you.
Yeah.
Unfortunately.
You were not with us on the front lawn.
I wish I had that experience with you.
I'm bummed.
It's pretty fun.
But the thing was, in order to catch their ride to the higher plane on the Hale-Bopp comet, the members of Heaven's Gate would need to slip the bonds of their earthly bodies prior to the comet's arrival.
So they had to figure that whole thing out.
Yeah, of course.
Now Richard Ford, who was known to the rest of the group as, I think it's Neody or Rio D'Angelo.
They got like different names.
When they went into the cult he richard, had been with heaven's gate for a while and up to the point that he spoke out.
Everybody saw him as a very firm believer in this ideology and the mythology that applewhite had built over the years.
But when it came time to enact the final plan to ascend to this new celestial form, he was one of a small number who just wasn't ready to take that step, because that step was literally ending your life.
Yeah, but like to move on to the next one with complete trust.
With complete and utter trust.
It's like in the circle, in the craft.
Yes.
With perfect love and perfect trust.
Exactly.
So his reluctance obviously caused a rift between him and a cult leader.
And by mid-March Richard decided that he was going to leave the group, but he let them know that he cared about them a lot and he wanted to, you know, keep in touch as long as they could.
And he wasn't going to intervene on their plans in any way.
He was being a real one.
Yeah.
He was like, I love you guys.
And like, I'm not going to stop you, but like, I don't want you to do this.
Yeah.
Like he was like, this is not my scene.
Yeah.
But you know what?
I won't mess it up for you.
He lived and he let live.
He did.
He didn't yuck other people's yums.
He didn't.
No matter how nutso their yums were.
Yes.
So Richard Ford was at home on the afternoon of March 25th when the mail arrived, and among the letters was a package that included a letter and two videotaped statements from the Heaven's Gate members informing him that they quote That fucks me up.
Right shed, my container is.
No, i hate it that.
You remember crazy.
We recorded an episode once and i still feel this way.
I think you were talking a lot about the brain, or i was, and i was like i don't like talking about my brain too much because i can feel container.
Yeah, i'm just a fucking container.
I mean, the truth of the matter is yes no, i know, you know, i know, but i like we're just a container for our inner, like insides, shut up.
I can't.
It's true, i mean, that isn't like shut up, like shut up, not like stop talking, just like shut up.
Yeah, But your skin itself is an organ.
So that is if you really look at it that way, though, we're not really a container.
True.
Because we're one giant organ.
But I think he I don't even think he was talking about organs.
I think he was talking more about like souls.
Oh, yeah, for sure.
Like I was talking about it like we're containers for our organs.
We are containers for our organs, but also kind of not really.
Yeah.
When you think about the skin being an organ, that shit will ruin your life.
So yeah, they were shedding their containers.
They let Richard know.
And Richard obviously knew what that meant.
But he didn't know exactly what to do about it.
So the next day, he just told his boss, Nick Matsorkas, about the tapes.
And they both decided to drive the two hours to the Heaven's Gate compound in Rancho Santa Fe.
To be like, did they do this?
Like, what's going on here?
So when they got to the house, Nick was like, I'm going to wait in the car, buddy.
You can check that out.
He's like, you seem to know about this.
So I'm just going to stay here.
He said, I'll fly.
You do everything else.
So Richard made his way around to the side of the house and the door was unlocked.
Oh, yeah.
Oh, man.
Oh, man.
Mind you, even anywhere like that would have been fucking gnarly.
This is in California.
Oh.
So it's hot.
Yeah.
And putrid.
How did he even walk in there?
I don't know.
But it didn't take long for him to get like forced out of the house, basically by the smell of everything.
Just to be blunt.
So since he'd already explained to his boss what he thought had happened, there was really no need for him to explain what he had just walked into.
So he just got back in the car and said, they did it.
Oh, that is so chilling.
It's haunting.
So Nick, his boss, was shocked, but he was like, I think we need to call the police now.
So fair.
Hello?
Such a fair statement.
Super fair.
Good person in a leadership role.
Love to see it.
It's good you had your boss with you.
That was like, we should call the police.
Yeah, he said, here's what we do when things like this happen.
So once they got back to Beverly Hills, Richard called with an anonymous tip to 911, basically saying that he needed to report this tip.
And when the dispatcher was like, okay, what's this regarding?
He said, this is regarding a mass suicide and I can give you the address.
Which like, Holy shit.
That dispatcher was probably like, what?
Yeah.
So, assuming it was only going to be a well-being check, the San Diego County Sheriff's Office only dispatched two officers to the address.
It's always good to underreact, you know?
We tell so many cases where they're just like ah, it's probably we'll check it in four days, or like we'll send one and a half people.
Yeah.
It's like underreact.
I don't know about that.
That's what I always say.
So they sent them to the house which the Heaven's Gate, like members, by the way referred to as the monastery.
So it's like, it's just so, it's so spooky.
It's so spooky.
It's very spooky.
It's metal.
And it's such, it's very much an amalgamation of so many different ideologies.
Like the monastery, it's like that, it's just so many different things put together.
Like we'll get a little more into it and like.
What the belief started as, what they evolved into, it's all over the place.
But so they got to the monastery and the deputies again found the side door unlocked, just like Richard had.
And inside they were immediately hit with a quote pungent odor that basically forced them right back out of the house.
They didn't even get to be in there as long as Richard was.
The scene inside the house was unlike anything either of them had ever seen before.
Yeah.
Ooh.
Ooh.
On their arms there was a custom patch that read Heaven's Gateway Team, which was a reference to like the teams on Star Trek.
Yeah.
The planetary exploration people.
Yeah.
In the pockets of each.
For some reason there's so many chilling details about this, but for some reason I don't know why, this is the thing that really gets me.
In every person's pocket, they found a $5 bill and a roll of quarters.
And at the foot of each bed or cot, whatever had you, there was a suitcase or a bag fully packed.
Because they fully believed that they were going.
Yeah.
And they literally had their fare in their pockets.
That's really sad.
I think that's what gets me so much is just how fucking sad that is.
So the two responding officers did their best to just conduct a search of the crime scene.
But the home was massive and the conditions inside were unbearable pretty quickly.
So they had to head back to their vehicle again and just wait for additional resources.
Yeah.
Dan Christ later told a reporter from the LA Times they lost count at 10, referring to the responding officer's attempt to determine how many victims were actually inside.
When backup finally did get there, a little bit later the two officers were sent to the hospital the two original officers because everybody was so concerned that these deaths could have been caused by some kind of exposure to like a toxic gas or something that they needed to be checked out.
Yeah, that's a valid theory.
So it didn't take long for the medical examiner, Dr Brian Blackburn, to confirm the cause of death and dispel any rumors of toxic gas.
I guess luckily.
A few days after the bodies were discovered.
He reported that all 39 individuals discovered in the house, which was 21 women and 18 men, they had all died from ingesting a mix of phenobarbital and vodka.
Holy shit.
Investigators also found several plastic bags and elastic bands that were scattered around the house.
So, as far as the medical examiner could tell, it seemed like the members had died in three waves over the course of three days.
What the fuck?
So this wasn't, I don't think I've ever heard that before, actually.
I haven't either, actually.
I thought it was just like everybody took it, laid down.
Like Jonestown, you know?
This was over the course of three days and it started on March 22nd, he believed.
So they watched people die.
They helped people.
And helped people and then did it.
Yeah.
Yeah.
So it was later learned that when one among the first wave died, one of the living members removed the bag from around their head, positioned the body neatly on the bed, placed the purple cloth over their face.
And they realized this because only two of the bodies were discovered without the purple shroud across their face.
Because they were the last two.
Because they were the last two.
So they had like plastic bags on their head, like they were suffocating as well.
Some of them did.
I think it was just to ensure that if, if what they took didn't take effect, that they would still make it on their trip.
That's even whoa, and they, like people, were just ensuring this for each other for three days, just being in that house with helping people die yeah, and like the last people were just fuck.
Two waves of people had already died and were just laying right there next to them.
Oh my God.
Yeah.
Now, according to the medical examiner, there was no sign of violence, no sign of resistance, but eight of the 18 men, including Marshall Applewhite, who again was the head of this, all had been castrated at some point, long before their deaths.
Actually,
Oh, as, like, part of this whole thing?
Yeah, it had to have been part of the beliefs.
He said this is not something they did themselves and added that it also had not been done recently.
So I don't know if that was also something that they...
Helped each other with or if they had some kind of surgery.
The way that I remember hearing about this is that it was a surgical castration.
Yeah.
It makes sense because like he said, like they didn't do this.
Yeah.
So they opted to have that done.
Mm hmm.
So in the days that followed, investigators learned that the members of Heaven's Gate believed that quote sexual organs were unneeded in the next world and could actually be a hindrance to gaining admission into that world.
Oh see, because I was before that second part.
I was like well, you know, just carry them in like an appendix.
You don't necessarily need it.
Yeah.
You know, you can always, but I guess if it's going to be a problem getting in.
It would be a hindrance.
You don't even need to carry it with you.
You don't want to.
So, regardless of their philosophy, the castrations were still obviously like one of the more confounding aspects of the case.
Yeah.
Dr Blackburn said it's not something a legitimate physician would do on an individual person upon request.
That was going to be my next thing was like, what doctor did this?
I don't know.
Was it a doctor who did this?
I have no idea.
Or someone else who surgically did it without surgical experience.
Right.
Or maybe they had surgical experience at one point.
Yeah.
Because the fact that the doctor was like, it didn't look like they did this, like it wasn't.
Yeah, like they didn't do it themselves.
You know, it looked professional.
Yeah.
So while the medical examiner's office worked day and night to process all of these bodies because this is so many 39 bodies the San Diego Sheriff's Department started processing the scene inside the house.
It was clear that the deaths were obviously part of some kind of religious ritual, but as they made their way through the house, they couldn't help but notice that there was a pretty big absence of anything even resembling religious material or symbolism in any way.
Instead, the house was mostly full of computers and other electronics.
And it turned out that while the group's main focus was on their religious beliefs and, you know, moving on to this next world or planet, they actually spent most of their time on their company, which was called Higher Source Contract Enterprises.
And that was a web development company that they operated to fund Heaven's Gate.
Oh.
So Higher Source had been founded and registered two years earlier in Arizona, where they had lived before they moved to California.
And, as far as investigators could tell, almost all of the members of Heaven's Gate were experienced in IT or web design in some way.
Interesting.
Yeah.
Which is also like, that's like a very intelligent group.
Well-educated people.
Yeah.
Yeah.
According to one higher source client, they were very professional.
We got more for $1,000 than other companies who paid a lot more.
Hmm.
That's very interesting.
It is.
Like you said, these were smart people.
Yeah.
So, while the inside of the house didn't provide a ton of information about the group or what would have motivated them to take their own lives, fortunately the neighbors proved to be a little bit more insightful.
The owner of the home, Sam, I hope I don't mess this up.
I looked it up.
He had purchased the house in 1994 and he wanted to flip it for a profit.
But after a few years passed without any buyer for this massive home, he was like you know what?
I'll just rent it out.
And Heaven's Gate ended up renting out the property, and they moved in in October of that year.
Since then several realtors had shown or tried to show the property, but all the prospective buyers were kind of put off by the members of Heaven's Gate.
Yeah, I mean, when you are looking at a place...
And a cult lives there.
Weird vibes.
It's at least going to make you think.
I would say, you know what, I'm going to buy some sage, probably.
Yeah, like the vibes may be a little off.
Get a few crystals.
Get a little new agey myself, in fact.
There you go.
Just a different kind.
Just a different kind.
One realtor said I tried to show the home to buyers but there was always some sort of religion meeting going on.
Oh, yeah.
That would send me away.
Yeah, I'd be like, bye.
Other realtors had, like, similarly strange interactions with the members.
Local agent Bob Dyson said, there were computers everywhere.
There were men and women.
All had crew cuts, including the women.
They were very android-like.
They referred to each other as brother and sister.
Yeah, no way.
It was just very, like, it almost sounds like a cartoon movie.
You know what I mean?
Like a futuristic cartoon.
It sounds like how somebody would write a cult.
Yes.
You know, like a fictional cult.
Very on the nose.
And that would definitely send me past.
I'd be like, you know what?
You do you here, but I don't want this property.
I don't think I'm going to be living here.
I don't think I want the energy that comes with this.
So the realtors definitely thought they were strange and so did the potential homebuyers.
But the neighbors who had a little more like interactions with them had positive memories of the group.
Oh, that's nice.
Next door neighbor Shelby Strong told a reporter they could not have been quieter, nicer neighbors.
Well, that's just great.
And her husband Bill said they certainly didn't disturb any of the neighbors here.
There was nothing to object to.
Wow.
So it's nice that they weren't sacrificing any animals in the backyard.
Yeah, I mean, it really is a thing.
They're just doing their thing.
Yeah, and it sounds like their neighbors let them.
Seemed like it.
Yeah, you know, what are you going to do?
So another man who owned a car wash in the area.
He had gotten to know a few of the members in the months leading up to their deaths and he described them as very loving and the nicest, sweetest guys you could ever meet.
Well, that just makes me sad.
It's super sad.
This whole thing is very sad.
Yeah.
I think, like, the belief system that they really thought... They weren't ending their lives.
They were beginning new lives in their minds.
And it's like...
And cults are always really sad, like these kind of cults, especially when they end like this.
Yeah.
Because it's like people who, like these people were lost.
Yeah.
And obviously looking for something.
And very much done with whatever they had here on this planet.
To find it with this kind of situation and then have somebody tell them like I can get you somewhere.
That's going to be amazing and away from all these problems that you have or these worries that you're dealing with.
And all they're doing is, you know.
Going to the farthest lengths possible.
Yeah.
Yeah.
It's very sad.
Yeah.
So, no matter how they were described, the group still had pretty much all the obvious hallmarks of a cult, like we were just saying.
They were insular, they were reclusive, they all dressed the same, they didn't demonstrate any kind of individuality and, most importantly, they were very devoted to the bizarre teachings of their leader.
From the moment the deaths were reported, all anybody could think of was something I mentioned earlier the mass deaths that had taken place in Jonestown two decades earlier, because it sounded very familiar.
Yeah.
And both events were entirely incomprehensible to anybody on the outside.
Undersheriff Jack Drown said, Damn.
Because... who's there to tell you anything, you know?
I was just going to say they're really just trying to derive things off of a scene of 39 dead people.
And one person who called in and was like, I knew they were going to do this.
Like, here they are.
So whatever answers came in the weeks and months that followed weren't really likely to satisfy anybody who was curious.
But there was an explanation for what had happened at the compound and it turned out that the key to understanding the deaths was in understanding the leader himself, Marshall Applewhite.
Yeah, who's this guy?
He's got an interesting story.
So Marshall Herff Applewhite was born May 17 1931 in Spur Texas, to Louise and Marshall Applewhite Sr, a homemaker and a Presbyterian minister respectively.
As the child of a minister.
Obviously, religion played a pretty significant role in Marshall's life from the time he was born and he participated actively, and actually enthusiastically, in the church that his dad ran.
By high school his enthusiasm for religion had kind of diminished, especially when he got more involved in student groups and extracurriculars.
But it didn't deplete entirely.
Yeah.
According to his sister, Louise, the family led a kind of nomadic life during their childhood.
As one of the leaders of the Texas Presbyterian community, Marshall Sr uprooted his family every few years to move from one small South Texas community after another.
Like they were just constantly moving around Texas.
That must be tough.
He would establish a new church.
He'd build up the congregation and they'd move on.
So after his graduation from Corpus Christi High School in 1948, Marshall enrolled at Austin College in Sherman Texas, and he pursued a degree in philosophy, which is kind of on the nose.
I was going to say.
His former roommate said that Marshall was religious, but not fanatically at that point.
He said he was an extrovert.
He was popular.
He was very smart.
He wasn't pushy.
And that memory seems to check out.
During this period, Marshall's religious activities definitely took a backseat to his other school activities.
He was on the Judiciary Council and he was the leader of the school's a cappella choir.
Wow.
So it wasn't like he was running around spreading all his views at this point.
No, and he wasn't like isolating or, you know...
He was very much involved.
Hyperfixating on certain things, yeah.
Yeah, like he had some kind of faith that he followed, but it wasn't necessarily the focal point of his life.
Yeah, like he was varied in his interests, it seems.
So once he got his degree from Austin College in 1952, he enrolled at Union Presbyterian Seminary in Richard Virginia.
And that was when he planned to follow in his father's footsteps.
Wow.
But by the end of his first year, he missed being involved with music.
So he actually dropped out of the program and took a position as the director of music at the First Presbyterian Church in Gastonia, North Carolina.
I think it is.
Former choir member Edith Warren said, he had a beautiful voice.
He was a very personable person and he was a strong leader.
Oh, that'll give you goosebumps.
Yeah.
Especially like hearing that in this context.
Yeah.
Hearing that otherwise, you're like, oh my God, good job.
Good for him.
Look at you.
You're like leader vibes.
Yeah.
Now you're like, oh.
Yeah.
He took that to a dark place.
Yeah.
So it was during this time, which was around 1953, that he met and married Ann Pierce.
They became friends with actually that woman, Edith Warren, and her husband, who were also newlyweds.
And they just started spending a ton of time together as couple friends.
Unfortunately, Marshall's new life in North Carolina was disrupted when he was drafted in 1954.
For the two years that followed, he and Anne lived in Salzburg, Austria, actually.
And then he was relocated to White Sands, New Mexico, where he served as an instructor in the Army Signal Corps.
Two years later, after he was honorably discharged from the Army, he and Anne moved to Colorado.
He finished his graduate degree at the University of Colorado.
He actually got a master's in music.
And then his plan was to pursue a career in musical theater.
Wow.
So he went all over the place pretty much.
You wish he had followed that path.
Yeah.
Well, during that time, he and Anne actually had two children.
Oh, wow.
And Anne basically just spent most of her time focused on raising her family, while Marshall was looking into his musical theater career.
Huh.
After he got his degree, they moved the family to New York City.
Obviously, that's the best place where you can pursue your music professional singing career.
Yeah.
But it didn't take long before he realized that his dream of fame wasn't very practical and it wasn't going to be financially sustainable for a family.
Yeah.
It's a lot of hit and miss.
Yeah.
So the family went back south where Marshall bounced from one short-lived job to another.
He just was kind of doing whatever he needed to at that point to try to feed his family.
His sister said during those years Marshall was really devoted to his children.
Which is nice.
It is for the time being.
While he may have been devoted to his children, by the early 1960s, the relationship between Marshall and Anne became strained.
What Anne didn't know, and really what nobody knew at that point, was that Marshall was struggling with his sexuality and had been from a young age.
He was finding it more and more difficult to deny that he was gay.
And obviously, this was a very tough time to struggle with that.
Yeah.
So while he was working at the University of Alabama, he started having an affair with a male student.
And when the relationship was discovered in 1965, he was obviously fired.
As he should be.
Yeah.
The reasoning for his firing inevitably made its way to his wife, who was devastated.
So they separated that year, but they remained married for three more years before they finally divorced in 1968.
Wow.
Yeah.
So that same situation actually went down a second time in 1970.
He was fired again, this time from his position as a music professor at the University of St.
Thomas in Houston.
And that year school administrators discovered he was having a relationship again with a male student.
Oh, so he's like being a predator.
Yeah.
Yeah.
But the school's official reasoning for terminating his employment was listed as health problems of an emotional nature.
Oh.
Which is very telling.
Yeah.
So no good.
No.
That's very predatory behavior, my friend.
Yeah, definitely.
So, even though his being fired from a Christian university was almost certainly related to one, being predatory and two, his sexuality, this was the first time that anybody had actually addressed his poor mental health.
He was really going through it.
Yeah.
Around this time, Patsy Swayze, the legit mother of Patrick Swayze.
Oh, I was like, Swayze, you said?
Correct.
Wow.
She was in a local theater group with Marshall Applewhite.
What the fuck?
And she actually started noticing a change in his behavior around this time.
Mama Swayze?
Mama Swayze.
She said he was normally well-spoken, but suddenly she and a lot of others in the group noticed that he started to quote act strangely, talking about UFOs and preaching this strange religion.
Oh, then that's like, that's so unsettling to just have such a switch conversation.
And personality.
And it was so marked.
Yeah, that's the thing.
Even, I mean, Mama Swayze noticed it.
Mama Swayze noticed.
Yeah.
I trust Mama Swayze.
I do too.
RIP Patrick and Mama.
It's true.
So what Mama Swayze and the others in the group didn't know was that, in addition to Marshall's having been fired, he also came out to his parents and was immediately and aggressively rejected by his father.
Nothing about that will ever make sense to me.
No.
Ever.
No.
On any level.
You shouldn't have kids if you're afraid that they're going to be gay.
If you're not going to love them no matter what.
Exactly.
Anyway, not long after he was hospitalized with or I should say he was allegedly hospitalized with a blockage in his heart that he supposedly almost died from,
Yeah.
His sister believed that it was that near-death experience and the influence of one of his nurses that really led to the profound shift in his personality and his lifestyle.
Oh no.
She said, one of the nurses there told him he had a purpose, that God kept him alive.
She sort of talked him into the fact that this was his purpose to lead these people and he took it from there.
I can't imagine being that nurse.
That's rough.
You definitely can't imagine being that nurse because she becomes a huge part of this story.
Oh, no.
She is like, she gets lost a lot.
She's like kind of one of the founding members of Heaven's Game.
Because I was going to say, I thought you were just going to say she was this nurse who helped him.
Just like a sweetie.
And then innocuously said to him, like, you're here for a purpose.
Like, lead people.
You know what I mean?
Like, trying to be like, you're here.
Like, you have a purpose, a destiny.
Just like that sweet lady that you see in the movie and you're like, aw.
I thought that's what that was going to be.
And then he became Marshall Applewhite of the Heaven's Gate cult.
And she was like fuck, I just meant live.
Like i thought she was gonna be like damn it, i didn't mean that.
I i thought the same thing when i first started learning about this, but then uh, i found out very quickly that they essentially like merged brains.
Whoa, it's crazy.
Okay, so we'll get into that.
Yeah, So it turned out that Marshall had actually lied about the health scare and that he had actually checked himself into a psychiatric hospital.
Oh.
In part for the treatment of his declining emotional health, but also and this is really sad in search of a cure for his sexuality.
That's so sad.
Because this was a time where people literally believed they could be cured of being gay.
That it was an issue that needed to be cured.
Yeah.
So the rest does seem to be true.
He did meet a nurse at the hospital.
Her name was Bonnie Nettles.
And she did convince him that he was special and that God had a plan for him.
And she told him that God's plan was for him to lead a new religious movement in America.
Now, she's a nurse at a psychiatric hospital, correct?
Correct.
Okay.
Don't do that.
Don't do that.
If you're a nurse at a psychiatric hospital.
Step one, don't do that.
Don't do that.
Step two, don't tell your patients that it's their job to lead a new religious movement in America.
Yeah.
Write that down.
I'm going to blanket statement that.
I think that's fair.
Someone will disagree with you, but I think that's fair.
100% someone will tell me I'm being an asshole for saying that.
I stand by this stance.
11 toes down.
With my whole chest, I'm saying it.
She literally motioned.
Literally.
She said, here it is.
All of it.
All of it.
All of it.
Don't do it.
Don't.
I request of you.
Don't, because this will happen.
Yeah, I don't.
And we're not even halfway through.
No.
So that wasn't all.
That wasn't even it.
Whatever plan God had for Marshall Applewhite, she said, I'm going along with you.
Oh, yeah.
She said, God wants me, Bonnie, by your side.
No, Bonnie.
Me, Bonnie, you, Clyde.
Bonnie, how'd you get this job?
We, religion.
For real, Bonnie.
I don't think they were really doing lots of background checks back then.
Apparently not.
Because what the fuck?
She's leading them into the fire.
Yeah, she sure is.
Holy shit.
So even though it's been 30 years at this point and a ton has been written throughout those years about Heaven's Gate and its founders as well, a lot of the group's history and their evolution is still kind of a mystery.
Obviously, a large part of that is the fact that most of the main members, if not all of them, died in 1997.
But also, according to historian Benjamin Zeller...
Because the group changed their name, their beliefs and their organizational structure a ton of times over two decades.
Mm-hmm. yeah which is very interesting i was going to say for a cult that's not yeah the commonality with other ones so the group that would eventually become known to the world and us right now is heaven's gate started when marshall was discharged from the hospital and decided to just completely abandon his old life because bonnie told him to yeah he was already divorced he had already been disowned by his parents so he really didn't have a lot to hold on to in texas He did have his two children.
Thank you.
But I don't know.
I was like he does have these two things.
I don't know.
Usually I'm very quick to be like fuck you if you abandon your children.
And I don't know what the case was if he like wasn't allowed to see them.
Yeah.
Because of everything that was going on.
That's a valid thought.
Who knows.
Yeah.
He may very well have abandoned his children.
Yeah.
But I don't know.
So one day in the mid 70s he just abandoned his life and he showed up at his sister's house to say his formal goodbyes.
His sister Louise remembered he told me he wasn't going to see us anymore.
I said to him, what's the matter with you?
That's not the real you.
And his response was, you just don't know the real me.
And that was the last time that she or anyone else in her family would ever see or hear from Marshall ever again.
That's really sad.
It's heartbreaking.
Like, to have that be so unceremoniously disappearing.
And the last words ever spoken to his sister is, you actually don't know the real me?
That's so sad.
Because she's probably like, well, I'd like to.
Like, I'm...
What the fuck do you mean?
And I'm worried about you.
Like, I care for you.
I love you.
That's so scary.
Yeah.
So by the time Marshall and Bonnie met, which was in the mid-70s, at this point Bonnie herself had dabbled in various forms of spirituality, but she hadn't really found the one that fit for her.
She had been raised Baptist, but she was never devout.
And she spent her adult years exploring things like astrology, telepathy, theosophy.
Is that how you say that?
Sure.
Cool.
Cool.
And that was actually a kind of spiritualism that became popular in later 19th century England.
Okay.
If you want to look into that.
Give it a shot.
Even though she hadn't found anything that felt authentic to her at that point, she was still searching for something most likely to distract herself from her failing marriage and deeply unsatisfying home life.
She was overwhelmed caring for four young children.
I'm going to stay quiet.
Yeah.
In 1972, Bonnie divorced her husband, abandoned her children and embarked on a more deliberate journey of spiritual seeking.
I feel like any higher level that you're going to connect to, like, I don't know what's out there.
Who am I to say?
I feel like any higher level out there that you want to connect to will probably want you to be connected to your children.
Yeah, I mean, if I was a higher level, I would be pretty judgy if you abandoned your children.
Facts.
Put that on a shirt.
That's hypothetical.
If I'm a higher level, I'm judging you for abandoning your children.
That's if I became a higher level of being.
If.
So when Marshall's sexual frustrations and declining mental health merged with Bonnie Nettle's growing interest in spiritualism, what emerged was what they both called the human-individual metamorphosis.
But their belief was that by pursuing mystical experiences, a person could transcend their human existence and become a more evolved being.
Like beyond human.
Okay.
So that new religious framework gave them both a worldview that was definitely a lot more hopeful and exciting than the lives that they had been living for sure.
Yeah.
But at the same time, their spiritual bond created a mutually supportive relationship that met all the emotional needs that you would typically find with a romantic partner.
There just wasn't the sexual component that had caused Marshall so much psychological stress in the past.
So it's kind of perfect for what they wanted.
Yeah.
In a 1976 interview, Marshall said of Bonnie, It's like, no, you walked away from them.
Yeah.
Yeah.
This reminds me of the Amy character in True Blood.
Yes.
It is very that.
She absolutely would have been a part of Heaven's Gate.
Yeah.
100%.
Like the way they talk and everything.
Yeah.
That just reminds me.
She may have founded Heaven's Gate if she was a real person.
Yeah.
Go watch True Blood.
Oh, so good.
And listen to the rewatcher.
Duh.
Where we talk about True Blood.
We're almost done with the first season.
You better go check it out right now.
It's just reminding me of her.
True Blood, sorry, True Blood is also coming up a lot in my life lately.
I was listening to Sup the other day and Laura was saying that she needs to start watching True Blood again.
Yeah, she does.
She was like, I want to rewatch it.
Rewatch it.
But then I fast forwarded because I didn't want any spoilers.
Ah, smart.
But I was like, damn, that's weird that that randomly came up.
Yeah.
Anyway.
Throughout the next few years.
They both decided to set out to share their new beliefs, because everybody wants to hear about everybody else's beliefs.
And not long after meeting they founded the Christian Arts Center, which was kind of like a combination bookstore slash spiritual center.
That was in Houston.
The store failed after just a few months.
Wow.
So they moved and they opened up the No Place, K-N-O-W Center.
The no place.
The no place.
Be in the no.
You come in and they're just like, no.
No.
Do you have a bathroom?
No.
No.
But K-N-O-W.
You should know, man.
You should just know.
It was essentially the same store just in a different location and ultimately lasted about as long and then failed.
Weird that that happened.
It's crazy.
When the no place the no place closed its doors, they decided to leave Texas and travel the country to spread the word even more about their beliefs, because it was working out so well for them.
And here's the thing.
Why don't you just have them?
Yeah.
Just have the belief.
If you meet people and they ask you, by all means.
But if you're just like going around being like, hey you, I got to tell you about this form of spiritual higher living.
You're going to be evolved and shit.
Stop.
Just stop.
You want to have them?
Have them.
You want to talk about them?
Talk about them.
Don't go knocking on doors telling people about it.
Don't intrude into people's lives to tell them that they need to be part of your beliefs.
And maybe be sure, before you tell a bunch of people that they can evolve into a higher spiritual form.
Just saying.
Yeah, you should really do your research.
Double check that.
Yeah, for sure.
Run that through a few schematics before you go saying that that's like a sure thing.
That's just our recommendation.
The morbid rec.
Yep.
Wow.
Excuse me.
Ash just transformed into a higher life form.
You should leave that in.
I approve it.
Sorry that you had to hear that.
She just transcended.
I was just testing it.
Yeah, she was double checking.
Before I tell you about my beliefs, I have to test them.
Just kidding.
So after leaving Houston, they spent years traveling around the U.S.
They gave interviews at this point.
They were just speaking wherever and whenever they could find an appearance or an audience.
At first, their message didn't appeal much to the masses, if you can believe it.
But by the end of... They can't.
Yeah, and by the end of 1973, they had only attracted... one member to their movement.
To be honest, that's more than I thought they would get.
One.
It just reminds me of that Full House episode where Jesse invents that thing and he's like 3000 and one.
They're like, we're a spiritual movement with one.
So they found one.
But soon their beliefs started to find some traction.
As you know, the New Age movement grew in popularity.
The 1970s, man.
Free love, baby.
Movements.
Yeah.
Movements.
By the 1970s, they amassed more than 200 followers.
That's way more.
It's 199 more.
By that time their identities had also kind of solidified into what they would be for the rest of their lives.
Yeah.
They were the two.
The two.
The two, who were two figures described in the book of Revelations, who would witness the end of human civilization and then be born again.
This is so much work.
Also, that's as far as I know it.
Please don't tell me all about it.
Yeah, this is so much work, it feels.
Yeah.
That's the thing with these cults.
It's a lot of upkeep.
And that's why I know no way, no how.
Do you know?
Would I ever be involved?
Because I'm like, this is too much.
You're working harder, not smarter.
My favorite part though, of cults is they're like, we're the two, whoever the higher form has told us.
But eventually they become something else, too.
Of course.
Like they are the two, but then they become this and this and that and that and that.
But they've already indoctrinated everyone.
So they're able to change like that and people just go, yep.
Yeah.
It's like how Mother God was like 45 different people.
We see it happening all over the place.
If you guys, speaking of cults. and this is like a little bit old but if you haven't watched the love has one documentary you've got to watch that but i think be warned be super warned it's graphic and it opens up with a graphic like there's there's a body being shown yeah just so you know ahead of time it's different But it's a really, really interesting documentary.
But anyway, back to this cult.
Benjamin Zeller noted.
In pinning their religious identities and missions on this passage from Revelations, the two had veered from their initial New Age forays into the apocalyptic millennialism that characterized the conservative evangelical Protestantism of the time.
So basically they were like aligning themselves with some other religious things going on.
Yeah, in layman's terms, let's go.
So essentially, they would go on to blend their apocalyptic vision with their belief in aliens and all these unconventional concepts and the core of their belief system definitely hinted at the dark outcome for heaven's gate.
Yeah, no matter how joyous and transcendent a rebirth might be, it still required death.
Okay, That's the deal breaker.
Yeah, that would be my deal breaker.
If I hadn't already felt like there was many along the way.
Yeah, there's a few before that.
That would be the biggest.
But that's what's so sad about this is like the people who are getting roped into this that's not a deal breaker, because they're that unhappy.
Because they're so lost and sad.
And that's really sad.
Down on their luck and like that.
That is not something.
If that's not the deal breaker, then you have been through it.
Yeah, you've got a lot going on and somebody shouldn't be preying on you.
Exactly that sucks, exactly.
So while the two continued building out their spiritual belief system, marshall applewhite's grandiose sense of self and his psychological stability continued to shift, change and decline and, As Marshall Applewhite, Texic music teacher and closeted man, he didn't feel that he was anybody special and his future was basically bleak as far as he was concerned.
But as one of the two, he felt he had been chosen by the divine for something more important than whatever was happening on Earth, and so he started acting like it.
In the summer of 1974, while they were traveling to spread their message, Marshall and Bonnie were both arrested multiple times on charges including credit card fraud and automobile theft.
Jeez.
And when he was arrested for failing to return a rental car, Marshall or one of the two explained the incident by saying that he had been divinely authorized to keep the vehicle.
That's honestly just dickhead behavior.
Can you imagine just trying to get away with all your poor behavior?
Yeah, that's fucked up.
Just saying, I'm divinely authorized.
I can steal this because I've been divinely authorized to.
Like, come on.
Come on.
Also, that's not going to hold up in a court of law, baby.
Nobody cares about the divines.
It is.
So the late 70s was definitely transformational for both of the two.
They abandoned their previous moniker though, of the two, and they started referring to each other as Bo and Peep.
That's for real.
That's when you know people were really fucked.
Under this?
Oh, I thought you meant the two of them.
It's almost like they changed that to see how strong the hold was.
I think that, and I think they were getting so lost in all of this that there was no tie to reality at this point in time.
Clearly.
And at the same time, and this is how I know that, their mythology and beliefs were also evolving.
They seem to include like.
Especially now, at this point, all of their ideologies seem to include a more like science fiction based concept.
For example, in 1975 they convinced their small group of followers because people had dropped off at that point in time that a spaceship was coming to Earth and it would only take 30 of them.
So they all camped out in Oregon waiting for the ship to arrive, but it didn't.
And then so they were like, oh, we had our calculations wrong because cults do that a lot.
And then they repeated the claim a few months later.
And again, the ship didn't come.
This is definitely where they got the cult from Parks and Rec.
The one who changes the time that the spaceship's going to come or Zorp is going to come.
I don't know if I made it that far in Parks and Rec.
I got it.
Aren't they called the rationalists?
The rationalists.
There's something like that.
And they name themselves that so nobody could argue with it because it's rational.
That's incredible.
I'm making sure.
And they change the time.
No, they're the reasonablest.
The reasonablest.
That's what it is.
Because you can't argue with somebody who's reasonable.
That's actually brilliant.
And they change the date.
Of the time when Zorp is going to come and destroy everybody or take everybody into... Of course.
Because they, like, are going to be, like, risen up and ascended.
Yeah, yeah.
They change it, and they just keep changing it.
Yeah.
Like, every time he doesn't show up, they're just like, well, Zorp is coming next time.
That's the same thing as, like, the...
What was the thing that just happened?
The rapture?
The rapture.
Yeah.
That changes all the, it's always rapture season.
It's all about moving the goalpost, you know?
Yeah.
And that's, this reminds me of it though, that they're like, well, they didn't show up.
It's next month.
It's actually next month.
That's literally the reasonableness.
Yeah.
They're just not reasonable.
Yeah.
Organize it, Zorp.
That's what, he wrote a book about it.
Oh, I've heard that before.
I got to finish Parks and Rec.
You do.
It's great.
I love Parks and Rec.
So when the spaceship failed to arrive, a lot of people among their followers started to feel like this was all a bit more larky and they left the group.
Good for them.
And that dropped Bonnie and Marshall or, excuse me, Bo and Peep's numbers from over 100 to just a few dozen at that point.
I hope those people like went to get help and like got... I hope their lives got better.
Yeah, exactly.
I hope this was an experience and they can just go, wow, that was crazy.
I hope it was like when Mr Matthews saves Sean Hunter from the cult and Sean realizes that You can't have Sean.
And I said, oh my God, Mr. Matthews.
I said...
Mr. Matthews.
I was like, whoa, Mr. Matthews.
I think every time we talk about a cult, we're like, Mr. Matthews.
And...
It's that, this really is like, I hope it was like that for them.
I hope it was.
And I hope Mr Matthews showed up on the spot and was like the spaceship didn't come and you're coming with us, baby.
They can't have you.
No, we're going to feed you dinner tonight.
But I really do.
I hope they all like lived happier lives.
I do too.
I hope this was like a growing moment.
Yeah, I'm sure it was.
So in addition to the mass exodus of people who I definitely know lived a happier life.
Yeah, I'm going with that.
Things took a turn for the worse when the press got involved and started accusing the two leaders of brainwashing.
Yeah, a grift.
Sparkle, sparkle, sparkle.
A grift, exactly.
At a time when concerns about the danger of cults was beginning to spread around the US, nothing could have been more harmful to their movement.
So in response, Bonnie Nettles announced in 1976 that the group would no longer hold public meetings.
And instead, they shifted their focus to giving private lectures.
Oh, okay.
I said, wow.
You know what?
That'll teach everyone.
Yeah, how cool of you.
So the human individual metamorphosis movement continued into the 80s, with the small group of followers expanding and contracting year after year.
They picked some up, they dropped some off.
They picked some up, they dropped them off.
But they never reached more than 100 members.
During that period, Bonnie and Marshall, who had rebranded yet again and were now going by the names of T and Doe.
They developed a kind of paranoia that grew out of their apocalyptic beliefs.
Okay.
Among other things, they worried that either they or somebody amongst their group was going to be assassinated.
Obviously, that fear was influenced by Jonestown.
But the group continued traveling around the US for a few years, living off whatever money its members had picked up and picking up new members here and there.
At first the structure of the group was informal, but over time it did start to take on a more rigid form.
Marshall demanded that if members were going to travel with them, they had to cut themselves off entirely from their families and fully abandon their previous lives.
That's the red flag.
Yeah.
That's it right there.
And here's some more.
Oh, no.
In time, they dictated what people ate, what they wore and, most importantly, what kind of relationships they could have.
And they informed everybody that if they wanted to ascend to a higher plane quote unquote they could not engage in any kind of sexual relationship with another.
Okay.
Yeah.
Okay.
So the first sign of like... This doesn't seem healthy.
No, it's definitely not.
The first sign of real, real trouble came in 1985 after Bonnie Nettles died from liver cancer.
Oh.
For over 10 years.
At that point, she and Marshall had been codependent and fully expected to receive their celestial rewards together.
But Bonnie's death obviously caused Marshall to spiral even deeper into his delusional thinking and he had a full-blown crisis of faith.
In the years that followed, the group bounced around the Southwest, occasionally adding new members, but mostly losing them.
And all at that time, Marshall's beliefs and expectations got much more rigid.
By 1993, the members of HIM just so we don't have to say the full thing every time had dropped to just a few dozen.
So in June, Marshall placed an ad in USA Today to try to recruit new members.
I actually had no idea that that happened.
I didn't know that.
Dave found this piece of information and I said, quoi?
Excuse me, Dave?
I said, Dave what?
Dave what?
Yeah.
Well, that marked the first time the members of Heaven's Gate used a computer to grow their organization.
And it turned out that not only was the incorporation of technology a useful and convenient tool, but it also fit very well within their science fiction adjacent belief system.
Oh, yeah, it does.
So in the fall of 95, the remaining members of what eventually became Heaven's Gate rented a property in a remote part of New Mexico.
But for some reason, they abandoned that compound.
And then in that October, they moved to the San Diego County area.
Oh, okay.
At first they lived in various homes, and that was before the remaining 40 or so members finally settled at the 7000 a month ranch.
Holy shit.
Mansion, excuse me, in Rancho Santa Fe.
I wonder why they abandoned that other one.
Yeah, I'm not sure.
Who knows?
Maybe the ship wasn't coming there.
Yeah, maybe.
I wonder if it had anything to do actually with the Hillbop Comet.
Oh, maybe.
Like the path.
They were following the path.
Yeah, but $7,000 a month back then?
I mean, yeah.
That's huge.
$7,000 a month is wild.
Yeah.
So it was during that period that they started their web design and IT business that I mentioned earlier.
That was Higher Source Contract Enterprises.
And it was also during those last years, as news of the approaching Hale-Bach comet started making the rounds on the news programs, that Marshall started planning the quote-unquote final phase of his mythology exiting Earth for the next level.
Oh, you just wish everybody could have seen.
And you wonder how many people knew this is complete and utter dog shit, but they literally just wanted to die.
And felt like this was like a more community-based moment of everybody doing it together, which made it not as scary.
Yeah.
That's what I always think of is like, how sad is that?
That's the thing.
And maybe just like almost let themselves believe it, but like somewhere in their minds knew that this was just not it.
Like if some of them it just this is what they wanted to do and it made it less scary.
Yeah, like it's just really sad.
It is really really sad.
Well, in the wake of the deaths in rancho uh, santa fe, like at the mansion, two other members, who had already left the compound by that point, also ended their own lives.
Wow, one in may and the other in february of the following year.
Because I can't imagine, knowing that these 39 people who basically were family,
Yeah.
Because they live together.
They live together.
They work together.
They eat together.
They do everything together.
You do form human bonds.
Of course.
You find out that 39 of the people who you were closest to over the last few years all died at once.
Like, I don't know how you digest that.
And that they all continued believing this thing so much that they went through with it.
Right.
So one part of them, if they've been indoctrinated and brainwashed enough, are probably thinking wait, am I missing out?
Right.
Right.
And can I go with them?
Yeah.
If I do this?
Absolutely.
It's just fucked up.
But that meant that of the 42 members of Heaven's Gate who followed Marshall Applewhite to California, the only one who remained alive was richard ford holy shit who i started talking about in the beginning.
That's wild one member.
So within a few weeks of the discovery at the house, the medical examiner's office had managed to identify all but one of those who died in the heavens gate compound, and eventually they did identify the 39th person.
Um, we'll post everybody's name, yeah for sure.
So the families were all notified of the deaths by the sheriff's department, obviously.
But by then this is so sad most of them had already received letters, of videos from their estranged loved ones explaining what they were going to do or what they had already done at that point.
That's chilling as hell.
Which is similar to the letter and the video that Richard received.
In almost every case, the members of Heaven's Gate were excited about what they believed to be the next phase of their lives too.
According to Benjamin Zeller, members understood their actions not as deaths but as graduations, cutting aside the decaying matter of Earth so as to free their true selves to journey to the next level in the heavens.
Wow.
As far as they were concerned, to reject what Marshall believed was the final phase actually would have been the real tragedy.
Wow.
Which is just... That's unthinkable.
That's exactly what I was just going to say.
In a video message on Heaven's Gate website, Marshall Applewhite insisted that those left behind shouldn't feel sad for the members of the group.
He said that they were excited to be shedding their containers and leaving this planet for a more evolved existence elsewhere.
Wow.
Which like gives me goosebumps.
Goosebumps.
Now obviously, members of Heaven's Gate throughout the years were pretty frequently dismissed as being crazy or having been brainwashed by Marshall and Bonnie.
But Benjamin Zeller said that's honestly far too simplistic of a reaction.
He wrote, it's just too easy to dismiss them as nuts.
Members joined not because of some sort of magical, psychological or spiritual truth that the leaders conjured, but because they were looking for something and believed they found it in Heaven's Gate, which is exactly what you've been pointing out this whole time.
Which is so fucking sad.
He said, Ugh.
He said, Wow.
Wow.
Luckily though, in time he did manage to put his life back together and he ended up reconnecting with his family.
Oh, see, I'm happy.
And he eventually reflected and said, I'm a regular guy.
I'm trying to be more of myself and a better person in every way that I can.
Well, that's the best outcome.
What's the best outcome?
For the one surviving member.
For the one person.
Holy shit.
And that is the tragic story of Heaven's Gate.
That's unbelievable.
It really is.
I knew like the basics.
I did too, yeah.
I knew, like the Hale-Bopp comment, and that they were all found with Nikes like the more salacious aspect.
Yeah, the things that people really like attached.
Right.
But I didn't really know about Marshall Applewhite, or but I didn't even know that there was a Bonnie Nutt, Yeah.
I remember hearing that word, that word, that name.
Yeah.
But I didn't know the details.
I didn't know she played such a significant role.
Yeah.
And just, wow.
How far back this all dated.
These kind of cults, they're scary.
That's why we haven't covered Jonestown.
I know.
That's actually crazy that we haven't covered Jonestown.
It's because it's such an upsetting one.
We will eventually, but like... Jonestown is so... It's so upsetting.
People gave their kids the drink.
Babies.
But it's also so interesting that there's political...
Yeah, this political shit and that, like that one goes in many different directions.
Yeah, I think we briefly talked about it on a crime countdown.
We did, yeah.
But that would be an interesting one.
This one always fascinated me because it was such like a...
I remember it being talked about on the news.
I remember those kind of things.
And I remember seeing the Nike shoes.
And I remember like those like iconic pictures of you can just see the feet.
And I remember being like, and it was all science fiction-y and like mysterious and weird.
And the comet was involved.
And that was such a big thing when it was happening.
And it was like so shrouded in all this, like weird of the time stuff.
Yeah, that that's all i knew of it, but hearing all the details, it's just fucking sad.
It is just sad.
It's just like literally like the somebody who was involved with them just said i was looking for answers and purpose in my life.
And you know, that's all anybody else that was involved in this was looking for purpose and answers and exactly like something better.
Yeah, it's just really sad, damn.
But it makes me happy that the one member who really got away before everything happened like figured out his life and he feels like he's trying to be more who he is and a better person, and that he like reconnected with his family.
Yeah, i'm happy for that, i know damn.
Let me find a fun fact before we end this.
Find a fun fucking fact, man.
I better find the funnest facts.
Find the most fun.
Funnest facts ever.
I'm Googling.
It's not the funnest fact, but it's a fun one.
The bumblebee bat is the world's smallest flying mammal.
Shut up.
Yeah, they weigh between 005 and 007 ounces.
Oh my god, it's the cutest thing i've ever seen.
Oh, i love them.
Their head to body length is literally between get away, get out of your ad.
Their head to body length is between 114 to 129 inches.
Oh, he's just a baby.
Oh my god, I love them.
Oh my god, I want a bumblebee bat.
I love them.
That's the most fun fact.
Okay, I'm so glad.
You're welcome.
Especially when you put it together with a picture.
We'll post a picture and it will be so confusing to anybody who doesn't stay for the fun fact.
But we will post a picture.
I'm screaming.
I'm screaming.
They're also known as Kitty's hog-nosed bat.
No, I know.
I love them.
I'm literally obsessed with them.
He is doing his best.
He is.
He is out here doing his best.
I want one.
Oh, I love him.
Oh, all right.
Go look at those and don't tell other people how to live their lives.
Yeah.
Okay.
Okay.
But I'm going to tell you how to live your life.
We hope you keep listening.
And we hope you keep listening.
Weird bye oh, but not so weird that.
Um, i was like what?
Not so weird that cults, because don't cult, don't cult, cult bad.
Yeah, bumblebee good.
Yes, bumblebee bat better.
Oh, my god, i love them so much.
