If I had to simplify my process for completely transforming my life and bringing to fruition all of the dreams and aspirations and visions that I had when I had nothing but kept me going.
The things that I would imagine at gave me goosebumps when I thought about them.
That gave me an adrenaline rush, made me excited to be alive, something to look forward to.
The process that allowed me to bring those things to fruition and be able to live them out in real time is, as such.
It is the process of understanding your true identity.
There is a identity that already lies within you and that is you.
You are not your body.
You are not simply your mind or your thoughts or your circumstances.
You are something much, much deeper than that.
And if you can manage to peel back all the layers, get rid of all the noise and the distractions, and connect with and observe and understand and immerse yourself within what is what remains and breathe life into that.
It will breathe life into your surroundings, into your lifestyle, into your perspectives, into the opportunities that come your way, into everything, into your environment.
And it is then when you begin to live in complete harmony, in synchronization with everything that surrounds you, and that is the most blissful peaceful fulfilling, prosperous form of existence that you can possibly have as a human being.
It took me a long, long time to understand my identity.
And I'm not sure that you ever fully do.
There's always a bit of noise that separates you, your conscious from your true identity.
But if you can minimize that gap and become closer to it, you begin to gravitate things into your life that resonate at the same frequency.
And what allowed me to get closer to my identity, to understand who and what I truly was, was isolation and immersion.
For years I would do weird things like take a shower, a hot shower, in the dark, at night, in the pitch black, and I'd play this music that shut everything out.
And I live in Jersey, so there's planes flying over all the time, cars honking, this and that.
So I'd play these sounds, they kind of just drowned out all the noise.
And what I was attempting to do and what I did was I deprived myself of my senses.
Not entirely, but I was working with what I had.
And what that allowed me to do was shift all of my focus and energy and my conscience to within.
It was no longer distracted by external sources, external factors.
And when you can direct your mental focus, your conscious, like a laser pointer, like a laser beam, to within and seek answers, to try and understand, to try and feel, to try to just be and observe.
It's really hard to put into words.
It's not really a logical thing.
This is very much a spiritual process we're talking about, so it's a little bit difficult to verbalize.
But the most profound truths are felt, not described, not put into words.
And so I felt that, I felt my identity, my energy, if you will.
And when you develop a stronger sense of self, you know your identity is what allows you to determine how to orient yourself in the world.
You know, when you come to a fork in the road and it's time to make a decision, we make decisions based off of what aligns with us most, or what we feel like aligns with us most, at least.
And so when you have a stronger sense of identity, you can be more sure of the decisions that you make.
And a lot of what causes people stress and anxiety and feeling of being lost is not choosing the wrong path itself.
It's the indecisiveness that leads to stagnation.
And stagnation is our worst enemy.
You know, as they say, an idle mind is the devil's playground.
And it's because when you become idle, you become vulnerable.
And when you become vulnerable and susceptible to evil, It gets really easy to fall into a dark mindset, to start to listen to those negative thoughts and begin to identify with them.
And what your conscience identifies with determines your behavior, your actions, your perceptions, your beliefs.
So it's a dangerous game to fall into.
So it's important.
What I'm telling you is very important and again it led to a level of transformation in my life that I it feels surreal still and I'm only 24 years old.
I started this process a handful of years ago.
At a point I was living in a terrible environment in a drug house, with strangers who were getting high and syringes and needles on the floor and pee everywhere you know, just dampened with pee.
And it was dark and cold and the walls were coming down.
I didn't have a room.
I slept on the couch.
And that wasn't that long ago, you know?
And that might be a bit dark, but it's true.
It's the reality.
And I want you guys to know that wherever you're at, you know, it's possible to turn it around.
Even if you don't have the resources, even if you don't have the support system, even if you don't have money, Even if you aren't born into something great or even a decent situation, you could be born into quite a terrible situation.
And God created you with the power, the capability to live a life of fulfillment and prosperity.
But you have to prioritize the right things, my friend.
And that is you.
You know, if you live in constant perpetual distraction, you lose sight of yourself.
And losing sight of yourself means you don't have a strong sense of self, a strong sense of identity.
And therefore you become indecisive and stagnant and unsure of yourself and lack of confidence and insecure.
And so you fall into the trap.
And that's why it's so important.
It's vital.
I can't stress that enough.
And so what happens when you develop a strong sense of self?
Well, you begin to learn more.
You unveil things.
You start to be more in tune with your feelings, with things that you like and don't like, things that you resonate with and don't resonate with.
You know I would find songs and music, and aesthetics and sounds and and different styles of architecture and design and fashion, all sorts of things that vibrate a sense of identity.
I was able to find these things and go, yes, that resonates with me very deeply.
And it gave me a sense of belonging in this physical realm.
A lot of meditative monk style people you know and I'm not getting on anybody you know people live their life certain ways and that's fine.
But there's this ideology that the physical realm doesn't really have all that much value, but it's extremely important.
Just as important as the internal self, as the internal world.
And that's because the physical realm gives us a canvas to paint on.
You know, it gives us the battlefield to fight this war.
To take on this beautifully treacherous journey.
You know?
It's the sandbox in which we play in.
And I wouldn't want it any other way.
Even though there are ups and downs and uncertainties.
But that's what makes it great, you know?
Any great story, any great epic...
They all have, they have it all.
Laughter, sadness, adventure, stagnation even at times.
Romance, tragedy, triumph, bravery, courage, uncertainty, has everything.
And the reason we resonate with these stories so much is because it directly resembles life itself.
So life becomes poetic when you embrace it for what it is.
And pair that with having a strong sense of self and finding your center and be able to look out and see what is for you and what is not.
Truly, I wouldn't want it any other way.
And of course, that's not to say it's easy.
And so, with time, you start to find more and more things in this world that deeply resonate with you.
Music fashion design aesthetics art, the way you decorate your room, you know the kind of cars you like, the places you want to live and travel to, the type of people that you associate with the hobbies that you have passions in.
And it all slowly starts to come together and you allow time to take place and just enjoy the process, and it will slowly morph into a life of complete harmony, complete harmony.
You know, and I find myself here in California, Los Angeles, my first time here.
And it was always my childhood dream to come to LA, because I would see all my favorite YouTubers and influencers when I was a kid.
And you know, just like the 2016 vibe, like you know, like the influencer era was the music at the time, it was all so euphoric man.
And I always wanted to come here, but we never had enough money.
And so we couldn't.
And I'm able to make that happen for myself now and be in this beautiful home And work.
And... And spend time with friends.
And eat and listen to music and just be in my space.
To be in harmony.
It all just feels right, you know?
And I live for that.
And you should too.
Because it's there for you.
So wherever you're at, my friend, I...
You know I hesitate to speak because I feel that my attempt at trying to describe how strongly I feel about, how confident I feel about the capability that you possess,
Because I know that wherever you're at, you can transform.
You can evolve.
You can better.
You can develop.
You can strengthen.
Whatever it is, you can do it.
I hesitate to describe how confident I feel about this because I think it will do it in injustice.
I really do.
So take my hesitancy as a signifier for how confident I really am.
Life's beautiful, my friends.
It really is.
Stop trying to reject the things that give you the opportunity to live it in its purest form.
Learn to love even the parts that you are told that you should hate the most.
Learn to be forgiving.
Learn to be accepting of yourself and your surroundings, your circumstances.
And continue to learn one step at a time and enjoy that process, because it's a slow dance with yourself and your surroundings.
Romanticize it.
It's an intimate process.
It's a lovely and poetic.
I'm excited for everything that is coming your way, my friend, truly.
Thank you all for your support and your kind words mean the world to me truly.
They really do.
I appreciate your time and I will see you soon.
