Hey guys, it's Syd, welcome back.
Let's cut to the chase.
I feel like a wreck.
I have never felt so out of control of my own life than I have the past week.
Mostly because I came out with like a new launch for my jewelry brand, so I've been so busy.
This morning I woke up and I was like, I need a reset day. especially like a spring reset.
I think spring is the perfect excuse for me to do a whole reset day.
First, I need to get out of my apartment before I spiral about everything.
All right, guys, I'm here.
I'm basically back home.
It feels so weirdly empty finishing something that you've been working on for so long.
I've been working on this jewelry brand launch for a year and now that it's out and done, obviously I'm so happy, but I don't know what to do with myself.
So I'm here to kind of like get myself back on track, to kind of just write out what I'm going to do today.
I feel like my mind is so all over the place.
If I don't write stuff down, I get distracted with things that I really don't need to be doing.
I think I need a grocery shop a little bit.
I also need to desperately clean and deep clean my apartment.
I really just needed to leave my apartment though, and be around people, and I already feel much better.
Forgot to film my coffee before I drank it.
Sorry about that.
As I was out and about walking, I remembered the crucial part of my self-care routine is getting a bagel.
Not really, I just saw a pop of bagels and had to have some.
I love bagels and this place.
And then headed to the grocery store to get just a few things I needed restocks of.
I made a pit stop for bagels.
I ended up getting a couple groceries just to restock some things.
I just threw those in the fridge.
Wow, I look pale.
Okay, so I need to self-tan as a part of this reset.
Anyways, now that I'm home, I'm gonna stop procrastinating and get to business.
I need to clean.
I'm considering blurring out my bed because i don't want you guys to be concerned about the stains.
Um, it's my self tanner, i swear.
I swear it is the girls have self tan out there, you understand.
It's kind of just like you have to accept it.
Uh anyways, i do need to wash my sheets.
I'm gonna wash my duvet cover too, which i hate doing.
I didn't make my bed this morning because i knew that i was going to be washing my sheets, not because i was lazy.
Actually, you know what i'm feeling vulnerable.
This is what my pillow looks like.
How does this happen and why is it pink?
Update laundry is in.
Now i have to tackle my bedroom floor.
Um, things just start to accumulate.
The problem is once there's a pile, it's gonna grow.
I cannot like start and form a pile, because then at that point i'm already doomed and unfortunately, i've been having a lot of piles um, recently.
I hate these piles.
I hate going through piles.
Because then I have to be decisive.
Like, is this something I'm keeping?
Is this something I'm donating?
What am I doing with it?
I don't know.
So...
The past two weeks, since I've been working so much on this jewelry launch, I have not gone to the gym.
I don't think once.
Not that I'm a gym rat at all, but I definitely usually go a few times a week.
I will go to like a class or something.
And I haven't, because I've just been like too overwhelmed and like busy to even think about going to the gym.
It's kind of funny the things that you cut out when you're stressed.
And the gym is usually like one of the first things to go.
So I was like thinking I should probably make a comeback today.
I really don't wanna go, but I know I'll feel so much better after.
So I figured while my laundry's going, I should use this time to my advantage.
Delayed gratification is a amazing thing.
I did not want to go.
And now I'm so happy that I did.
Anyways, I had a little snack.
I jumped in the shower.
I have my comfy clothes on and...
I have some bad news.
It looks like I didn't make any progress.
Things are looking worse before they get better.
This is all of my laundry on the floor.
My floor is clean, I promise.
So not only do I have to fold all those clothes, but I also have to do the dreaded task of putting my fitted sheet on my bed.
I would rather do anything else than put my fitted sheet on my bed.
Like I'd rather run a marathon.
Better late than never.
I have food in my teeth.
Whenever I clean my room, it always takes at least triple the time than I originally estimate.
I don't know if I just have like a bad gauge of time or if I'm just like hopefully optimistic, but it looks so much better.
I already feel so much more at peace.
Like there's just no better feeling than a clean room.
I just want to sit in my room and stare at it.
I'm such a visual person.
Like I need to have my space clean in order for my mind to feel clean.
I already feel like 10 times better.
I think I just want to chill the rest of the night.
I feel like I was pretty productive.
As I was cleaning, I kind of gathered this bag together.
I get sent so much stuff.
I literally, it feels like Christmas for me every day.
I'm the luckiest girl in the world.
And I just know that someone else out there deserves this 10 times more than me.
I don't need any more stuff as much as I love Mario Badescu.
So I thought, you know what?
Why don't I just pick one of you guys to give this to?
I won't go through everything, but some highlights.
Face spray, Mario Badescu, face cleanser, their neck cream, niacinamide cream, hyaluronic moisturizer, eye cream.
Just a few of the things.
To enter, I just want to make it easy.
Comment below the best piece of advice you've ever received.
I am really asking that because I'm curious.
Also write your Instagram handles so that way I can message you and pick the winner.
Anyways, I'm really here because I figured it was time to do another advice session.
You guys know the drill.
If you follow me on Instagram and message me, I pick someone and it's totally anonymous.
I never say who sent me the DM and I just kind of like do my best to like help answer it or just like give my
I specifically wanted to answer this question because it's been something I've been really honestly like struggling with.
As some of you guys know, I'm from Minnesota and I didn't initially decide to like move away.
To get away from My family are friends.
It was more of a consequence of just where I wanted to live was not by them.
I haven't lived by my family in six years now.
I was in California and now I'm living in New York.
I thought it would get easier as I got older.
And to be honest, It has not.
I don't know why.
I thought it would get easier, but every time I leave them, like after a visit, I feel like for the next two, three days.
I am really, really sad.
It takes me like a good week to kind of get out of that funk.
I think whenever I find myself feeling like anxious about it and sad about not being close to them.
I remember, first of all, that I can FaceTime and I'm so grateful that FaceTime exists.
I think about like 30 years ago when that wasn't an option.
I also try to remind myself to feel grateful for the fact that I miss my family, because I know there's a lot of people who don't have good relationships with their family members and I'm so lucky to be in the position to miss them.
It just means that I love them and I have such a great relationship with them.
So I found it's a bit more of my perspective.
And I think the biggest thing too, is whenever I leave them or we separate, I try to already have the next trip planned to see them.
So that way it's a little bit less hard because I know exactly when I'm going to see them next.
But yeah, i mean to be honest, sometimes it's hard and i'm not gonna like pretend that it's totally easy, because it's definitely not for me.
I have plenty of nights where i like honestly get so sad and i just miss being close to them.
I also feel like weirdly guilty for leaving my family.
I don't know if anyone relates to that.
The older I get, I just feel wrong for not living by them.
My family doesn't make me feel like that.
They support me living my life, but I don't know.
I feel so guilty about it.
On that note, I'm gonna do some skincare.
Well, I just did skincare, but I'm gonna put on my red light mask.
And I think I'm gonna watch the game.
Just a cute little.
I just want a cute little cozy night for myself alone.
This is me looking absolutely insane in my red light mask.
I watched the Minnesota Timberwolves is honestly just like such a nice, relaxing way to end my reset.
I'm sorry guys, you already know what i'm about to say.
I forgot to do an outro.
I just wanted to say love you guys, thanks so much for watching and, if you've like, supported my jewelry brand, ophelia.
I just wanted to say thank you so much.
It means the world and i just love you guys and i feel so grateful.
I'll see you in my next vlog.
Bye guys, Thank you.
