The people that make it.
Do not let their own or other people's excuses get in the way of what they are deciding is possible.
So when I see people like that and I see journeys like that and I see stories like that, it wakes something in me up.
It shows me that I have no excuse.
Why would I not believe that anything is possible when people are actively showing me that it is, and people are actively making their dreams come true every single day?
Why would I be an exception to that?
A conclusion that I've come to is sometimes you just don't want it that bad.
We love to romanticize that final result, but we don't like to romanticize the journey there.
I just want you to know that you have a little bit more creative liberty and freedom that I think the world wants you to realize.
There are always going to be a million reasons why you can't do something, but it's up to you to start looking at the reasons why you can.
The more you validate these excuses, the more that you find validation for these excuses, the more that you fuel these excuses, the more that that is your reality, the more that is the path you're going to go down, because that's what you believe to be true.
Guys, I think there's a deer.
There's a deer somewhere.
Hi everybody, and welcome back to another episode of flowering philosophies.
I am your host anaya, and today i am coming to you from the creek.
I've told you guys before i have a forest behind my house and, to be honest with you it it's kind of mysterious forest, not a creepy forest, but I have encountered so many different creatures back here.
There's constantly deer passing through, there are foxes.
The owl every night sings its song and I just heard it cooing, even though it's only like 2 or 3 pm, so I
I have kind of a fear of owls and birds in general, but living here has actually helped me a lot with that fear and just learning to trust and create this sort of relationship between me and birds.
And now I've honestly found them to be very symbolic and spiritual creatures really, but The owl still intimidates me.
I have such beautiful spring flowers that I am working with today.
It's not spring yet.
I know that we are just on the cusp of beginning spring.
As you can see, a lot of things are pretty barren around me it's not as lush and green as that spring summer time but today is the first really warm day we've had here in a while it's it's very very warm like a spring or summer day and so i've just been getting in the spirit i'm so excited for spring and that is what inspired the florals that we are working with today we are working with hyacinths which always remind me of animal crossing if you're an animal crosser If you're an Animal Crossing fan or player, you know these.
You know Hyacinths.
Honestly it sounds kind of funny but I feel like I love nature and flowers and animals so much.
But I think I honestly got a lot of my knowledge through video games growing up.
Like, I loved the Harvest Moon series, as I've told you guys before.
I'm a huge Stardew Valley fan.
I love Animal Crossing and I just feel like I've learned so much about harvesting and seasons and which flowers grow when, and all of all this stuff through my favorite games.
And so hyacinths always remind me of animal crossing and they smell so good.
I wish you guys could smell just the most delicious, yummy spring flower.
It honestly feels like you could eat them.
I know that's kind of a weird thing to say, but look at these bulbs at the bottom, like they're just so satisfying.
And then, of course, we have the classic spring flower that we all know and love tulips.
I was reading this passage in this poetry book that I have about Istanbul and she was talking about the tulips of Istanbul and how they got there originally, where they're native to.
I don't remember all the information but I just remember reading about tulips and Istanbul, Turkey.
Tulips are a classic spring favorite, so I'm really excited to watch these open over the next few days and they match our hyacinths perfectly.
And then i don't know exactly what type of branch this is, but it is a pink flowering, beautiful branch.
They add so much structure to the arrangement and it's so fun to watch them flower after i've made the arrangement and just like throughout the week, seeing this whole thing transform.
Oh, it's so beautiful.
And that's why i call the show flowering philosophies, because i don't know everything, and clearly you guys don't either.
If you're coming to listen to me, i don't know everything.
I've never claimed to.
I have always been one to introspect and create my own philosophies in order to move through this life, and i feel as though they're always evolving and changing.
And oh, there's a wasp.
Sorry guys, i have a severe fear.
You think.
Oh, she's sitting in nature.
Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god.
I actually can't.
And i forgot about how smelly these flowers were.
Of course they're gonna come for us, I'll be okay.
I just I don't know why the wasps really freaked me out.
I write a lot of poetry about wasps, like they come up a lot in my storytelling.
For some reason they just symbolize, like
I always think of them as women I don't know if I read that somewhere like whatever, I always think of wasps as female and like they have something to tell me, or like they have so much wisdom and they're so like.
Sharp with it.
I don't know how to explain it, But I just I see wasps in such a way that I'm also intimidated by.
So now you guys are just learning, intimidated by the owls, the wasps.
But, like I said, I'm a guest.
I hope they can just respect that I'm here for a little bit and Anyways, I feel as though my philosophies about life are constantly evolving and changing and flowering.
They are continuing to unfurl as I get older and continue to go through more experiences and make sense of this life.
So That's why my show and my YouTube and everything is so inspired by this idea of flowering philosophies.
They're not set in stone.
My interpretation of nature, of human nature, of our minds, of our experiences, of our feelings, our emotions, and these things are constantly evolving and ever-changing.
They're never static.
So just a little explanation behind my podcast name, if you're ever wondering.
Today I wanted to tell you guys something, and it might sound a little bit harsh, okay?
But I'm gonna call you out for a second.
I hope you can stick with me and really stick it out with me.
You know what?
Let's sit here.
It's a conversation.
Let's talk about this.
Let's think about this.
I'm gonna be going over quite a few points, so don't get too defensive right away.
I'm here to tell you that you just don't want it that bad.
You don't.
And you may be sitting there saying, yes, I do.
That's my dream.
I do want this thing so badly, but this keeps getting in the way.
This keeps getting in the way.
This is why I can't do it.
This is why I can't do it.
Right.
So I am not denying your circumstances.
I don't know your circumstances.
Sometimes it is difficult to sit down and talk about these introspective topics because these are broad ideas and I can't make them fit to everybody's situation.
I don't know your personal details.
I don't know what you've been through.
I don't know your history, your trauma.
Oh, a butterfly just flew past my face when I said that.
I don't know.
I don't know.
But I do know that there is a universal similarity and that we do all experience similar feelings at one point or another, and that we do understand what this life experience is like.
We are all going through it.
We're all on this journey together.
It may look a little different, but I know this channel has proven to me how we all can universally connect, and my favorite artwork has shown me that, and creating art has shown me that.
I don't know your circumstances.
I'm not here to invalidate you.
I'm not here to invalidate what you have been through.
I don't have a right to speak on that.
All I can speak on is my personal experience and what I have been telling myself and what I have been understanding to be true.
Sometimes we say we want something, but we actually don't want it that bad.
Because if we wanted it, we would have it.
And how do I know this?
I have witnessed whether that is personally or a miraculous story, something historical, something now in modern day pop culture people who had no reason to get to where they have gone, people who have come from undeniably difficult circumstances, people who have come from impossible circumstances, from environments where their dream should not have come true.
It logically did not make sense.
But something got them from point A to point B, Even if point A was miserable or isolated, or they were impoverished or coming from something that might have been so different from where they wanted to go.
Yet they did it anyways.
So when I see people like that and I see journeys like that and I see stories like that, it wakes something in me up.
It shows me that I have no excuse.
What is my excuse?
What am I doing?
Why Would I not believe that anything is possible when people are actively showing me that it is, and people are actively making their dreams come true every single day?
Why would I be an exception to that?
A conclusion that I've come to is sometimes you just don't want it that bad.
We love to romanticize that final result, but we don't like to romanticize the journey there.
And we become obsessed with excuses.
And like I said, I'm speaking on my behalf.
If you're a fan of my poetry, you know that I have a line in the second poem in my collection where I say I am an expert at limiting myself.
By building blockages, with every excuse I can find meticulously welding them together.
In my mind.
It's an artistry I have refined and can teach to thousands at a time.
Just quoting myself.
That is from a poem I wrote called Looking Fear in the Eye.
I am an expert at finding excuses in places that they don't even exist.
I am so good at coming up with excuses as to why I can't accomplish something, or why I can't achieve it, or why I can't even begin the road there.
I am here to let you know that you might just not want it that bad, and how to come to terms with that and how to maybe dismantle some fear or dismantle some of these excuses that you've made and have put in your own way.
And the reason why excuses are very, very tricky and sneaky is because we produce them yes, but then we validate them through everything in our life experience.
Right, maybe we don't even come up with the excuse ourselves, but we believe in the excuse, we believe in the blockage, because other people are telling us oh, you can't do it oh, that's not realistic.
Look at your life.
You think you're gonna make it from there to go there, like other people like.
To help you validate this excuse, Your surroundings, your physical reality might be something that validates your excuses.
There are a lot of different elements that can fuel our excuses and make them very real.
Or feel very real, at least.
I think it's a very abstract idea to sit here and say nothing is real because yeah, when you don't have money in your bank account or you live in a house that's falling apart, that feels pretty real okay.
That feels real.
But whenever I do allude to the idea of nothing is real, I guess what I'm trying to say is we decide what to focus on and what to validate as our reality.
I'm not saying we should just live in la-la delusion land all the time, but I just want you to know that you have a little bit more creative liberty and freedom that I think the world wants you to realize.
Your circumstances are something that you can't ignore.
I'm not telling you to ignore them.
But I guess it goes back to thinking about that childlike joy that we feel when we're kids.
You know, you see children, no matter what the environment.
They could be on a beautiful playground, they could be in a city of warfare, but they will find that magic, that joy, each other.
They will find something to play with, they will find something within their imagination and bring it to life and entertain themselves with it.
I think that's sort of what I'm trying to tap into here is it's hard to look past the excuses that we have made and that the world has made for us, but sometimes we need to tap into that little bit of Hmm, could I imagine a different reality for myself?
Could I imagine things going my way?
Could I imagine creating change?
Could I imagine changing my life?
What feelings can I evoke within my own mind and therefore experience?
I'm not saying that our mind can change everything in our external reality overnight, but I know for a fact that anybody who has come from circumstances that they did not want to be in forever has had to create the change in their mind first, has had to believe that it's possible first, in order to figure out what that next step is, in order to figure out how to bring change to their life or the people around them or their physical circumstances.
You have to believe that it's possible first.
You have to picture it in your mind first.
You have to replace the slot in your brain that is usually used for excuses.
And you have to start replacing it with why you can do it.
There are always going to be excuses.
There are always going to be a million reasons why you can't do something, but it's up to you to start looking at the reasons why you can, how you can.
There is always that opposite side.
We just don't like to look at it, we don't like to focus on it because i promise you, it might not feel great, but it's easier to sit in misery and complacency, to settle, to settle for what other people are telling us, people who are older than us.
Giving us that warning of life is too hard, you can't pursue, that you need to take it the safe way, right?
People have a million opinions.
Therefore, there are going to be a million excuses.
We can live in the possibility of things not working out and live in that fear and that belief system, or we can create a new one.
Whatever you believe, that is your reality.
If you believe that, Oh yeah, you know what?
That makes a lot of sense.
That's probably why this thing isn't going to work out.
Then that is going to be your reality.
The more you validate these excuses, the more that you find validation for these excuses, the more that you fuel these excuses, the more that that is your reality, the more that is the path you're going to go down, because that's what you believe to be true.
Guys, I think there's a deer.
There's a deer somewhere.
Oh, I can't do that yet because I don't have this, or I don't think it's gonna work out for me because I come from this type of background, or I could never do that, because I just am not brave enough.
These are things that you are announcing to be true.
Things that yes, you could be validating from your external reality, from other people's stories, from other people's opinions, but you are making them true when you speak them out loud, when you insert them into your experience.
I'm here to tell you that, yes, you can do that for the rest of your life.
Or you can change that hypothetical.
You can change that belief system, even if it's strange, even if it feels odd to believe in yourself instead of immediately shutting yourself down or shutting an idea down.
Maybe you're more accustomed to that.
Maybe that's how your mind has worked your whole life.
So it feels delusional and strange to actually blindly believe, believe that something grand that you're thinking about could come to reality or that you could live the life of your dreams.
Maybe that feels outlandish and strange to you based on where you've been at, but it is just as outlandish and strange to believe that you can't do anything, that you are not capable of anything, than to believe that you absolutely can, that anything you want is possible.
We're human beings.
We can create anything.
Look at what we have accomplished as human beings.
Look at things that should not be possible, yet they are.
I don't care if you want to look at examples of modern medicine, of rocket science, of airplane machinery, of technology.
What have we done?
Do you see what we can do?
And you're telling me you can't even believe in yourself?
To take a risk?
No more excuses, guys.
No more.
Don't live in a life of excuses that other people have handed to you and that you've crafted yourself.
My dad grew up in a country very, very different from the one I did.
And he could have stayed there his whole life.
People were telling him, yeah, this is what's going to happen.
You can't accomplish this.
You can't do that.
You have to stay here.
Do what this person you see doing is doing.
You need to follow this role model.
You need to do this.
You need to do that.
But he didn't do that.
He took a risk.
Did it come with hardship?
Yes.
Did it come with uncertainty?
Of course.
Did it have to be fueled by a little bit of blind faith and delusion?
Yes.
I would not be sitting here today if that risk was not taken.
The people that make it.
Do not let their own or other people's excuses get in the way of what they are deciding is possible.
And I wrote down in my notes here something about Connor's story.
I'm sure, unless you've been living under a rock, you have heard about Heated Rivalry, because it has been a international success.
The two actors that star in that show have kind of become quote-unquote overnight stars or an overnight success.
I use quotations because I don't exactly think that it's overnight.
I think yes, sometimes that step of people discovering you and you shooting to fame could take place in a short period of time.
Building your craft and getting yourself in the right place at the right time.
That is not overnight.
These boys were servers not that long ago, pursuing their acting, not letting excuses get in the way.
I can't speak for them, I don't know them personally yet.
But what if they had lived off of excuses?
What if they said oh, I'm just a server, so I could never be the face of Louis Vuitton or, you know, no one in my family has done this before, so I can't book the most successful television show.
What if they lived in excuses?
Imagine what doors would have immediately been closed on what is possible for them.
Because they stayed open to possibility.
Despite circumstances, despite levels of fame or recognition, something so big was able to be possible.
Like it just fascinates me so much because this show was not supposed to be an international success.
It was supposed to be a small Canadian show.
The creator of the show was not living in excuses.
Like you know, he wanted, I'm pretty sure I don't know everything, but I think he wanted to film it in the United States.
And then they had all of these rules and regulations about how much he was able to show and this and that.
And he wanted to do his show the way that he wanted to do it.
So he took it to Canada with a smaller budget.
He didn't say okay, I have a small budget.
I can't create something that's as amazing as all these Hollywood creations.
No, he didn't do that.
He lived true to his art, the story he wanted to tell what he wanted to make here, and he did it with no idea that it was going to be the success that it was.
You can literally create excuses from nothing, but most of the time there is a reason for you to have that excuse.
You can validate it through anything, through budgets.
There's somebody telling you that you can't do this, can't do that, never seeing somebody that looks like you doing what you want to do.
Right, there are so many ways we can find excuses, but the people and it's not just heated rivalry okay.
I know I'm just obsessed with that show and giving you these examples.
It's anything that has become a huge success.
Yes, maybe there's luck and things that play into it the right place at the right time but that would not be possible without people believing that it could be possible and not being limited by the excuses that are so easy to make.
Oh yeah, so the reason i literally just went on such a tangent there.
But i remember listening to a connor story interview like right, whenever all of the major success was happening, and they asked him like how does it feel?
This is so crazy, like everyone on the outside being like wow crazy, crazy.
And he was calm and collected and he was like it is insane and i'm so grateful.
But also this was the reality i was living in before all of this happened and he's not preaching and preaching about your mindset and manifestation and all these things.
Get that out of here.
Simplify it and realize sometimes you just need to be living as though what you want is possible.
Nobody made him do that.
He wanted that.
Excuses did not exist.
He was living as that actor.
Play that character the way that he did, to shapeshift, to transform, to be the actor with the body he has, with the face he has, with the interest in linguistics right.
He wanted that.
He wanted that success.
He was living in that reality because he was practicing his craft.
He was that actor.
What do you have to offer?
Okay, that's my next thing is you're saying you want this, you want that, dah, dah, dah.
Are you ready for it?
Are you prepared?
Sorry, but why are you telling me you want this thing?
And if somebody handed it to you tomorrow, you would probably throw it back in their face.
We reject things that we are not ready for.
If we are not living in our reality, as though we are ready for that success, that we feel that success in our hearts, that we are passionate about what we have set our mind on and we are that and we are embodying that in any way that we can, we're gonna reject it.
We're not gonna feel ready for it.
We're gonna feel so shocked, so surprised, so uncomfortable if that million dollars was just handed to us, if that overnight success was just handed to us.
We're not embodying that yet.
Maybe you just don't want it that bad.
Don't tell me you want it that bad, but you're not ready to be given it.
If somebody were to grant your wishes and your dreams?
Right now, it's easy for you to say yes, oh my gosh, I would love that.
I would love for my reality to be changed.
But I can guarantee you that you would not know what to do with it unless you are living, as though that is possible right now.
Don't shut the door on a possibility before even treating yourself and your life as though it can be possible one day.
If you're making that excuse, if you are speaking that into reality, you are shutting a door that you didn't even attempt opening.
And you know what?
I'm not trying to make you feel guilty, okay?
It's okay to not want that thing so badly sometimes.
Sometimes it takes us years and years and years to figure out, hmm, you know what?
Maybe I don't want that.
Maybe I was telling myself that I wanted that, but I don't actually want to live the life that it takes to get there.
And that's okay.
You don't have to want that thing so badly.
Maybe you want a different version of that thing, or you want it in a way that you haven't seen it done before.
That's okay.
But let's take some accountability here and realize that you know what, maybe I haven't been acting as though that thing I want is possible, or that I am capable of that, or maybe I just don't believe I'm capable of that.
How can I work on my belief system here?
How can I start to do tiny things to get me ready for that next step or that big risk, or believing that it's possible?
There is always something that we can be doing.
And maybe part of the work here is realizing that you don't want that thing so badly.
So maybe that can set you free and you can start looking at whatever you do want.
When we want something.
We have to be okay with realizing it's not always going to be comfortable getting there.
There is a journey.
There is a journey and it's not always going to be easy and it's not always going to be what we've seen done before, and it's not always going to feel like it makes sense and you're not always going to get support.
That's why I make these videos.
That's why I make this podcast is because I want to be that voice for you if nobody else is telling you these things.
I want to be that one reminder to get you to realize that you can change your reality and maybe you just need that one voice, or that one reminder or that one sign, because I know what that feels like and I needed those voices.
I needed those signs.
I needed that support.
We are on this journey together.
If there is something that you want, there are a million ways to be working towards it, even if it's not physical, always something that we can be doing up here and around us.
I wrote this down.
I said and this was a long time ago and then i saw tyler the creator say it on like the marty supreme carpet and i was like okay well, that that's proof that successful people live by this.
I wrote i only let myself see what's possible, not what i am lacking, And that's not easy.
Like I said, this journey, it's not always easy, not always comfortable.
Sometimes we have to force ourselves to make these mental shifts so that we can start making the physical ones but start making the mental shift.
Start seeing what is possible, not what you are lacking, not what's in your way, but what is going your way.
What can go your way?
Where is it possible?
What is possible?
There are a million ways to pursue what it is you want, even if it's just your mindset.
There are so many ways that we can enrich our knowledge before we even take any action.
Just by enriching your mind, that is a huge action.
A big thing that I always want to highlight on this channel is working through our emotions.
Feeling things, understanding things is a lot of work.
And a lot of the time, it's the majority of the work is getting over those mental hurdles, those insecurities, things that maybe have been generationally passed down to us that we are letting go of.
A lot of this is mental and that's a lot of the journey.
A lot of the physical action becomes very easy and seamless and almost falls right into place when our mind is in the right place.
So I don't want to hear any more excuses.
If something is not working for you, try another way.
There's always another way.
And I have been woken up a little bit by watching other people that have had way less material resources and privileges than I do doing things that I'm telling myself are not possible.
If we all believed in ourselves, then, you know, the world would be a different place.
So I understand why it's difficult, why it's hard and why things are continued to be put into place that discourage us further, that highlight so much darkness.
It's really hard not to feel bogged down by our own insecurity, our own levels of discouragement, let alone whenever we pay attention to the injustice in the world and the darkness, and almost this like inherent evil, that exists within our world, within humanity even.
It's hard not to stay focused on that.
It's hard not to get lost in that.
But we don't have to.
There is always another way.
There is always light.
There is always a possibility.
And we get to decide what possibility we are going to believe in.
We get to widen our perspectives.
We get to look at what is possible in the face of doubt and insecurity.
We have the choice.
And all I want to do is remind you of that.
When human beings want something, they get it, they create it, they find a way.
So ask yourself, Do you want it that bad?
Are you willing to do what it takes?
Are you willing to change your life?
Are you willing to do things differently from everybody around you, from the ones who came before you?
Are you willing to believe that another reality is possible?
Are you willing to come back to that, even in the face of difficulty and discouragement from yourself and others?
Do you want it that bad? it puts a lot into perspective for me because a lot of the time i just want to be comfortable and i just want to do things that are familiar and i don't want to be scared i don't want to have doubt i don't want to have uncertainty i don't want to push myself into discomfort or new experiences or put myself out into the world reach out to others like i i don't have that natural tendency i don't like doing it but i have done it And I will continue to do it even when it's embarrassing, even when I look stupid or cringe or I fail.
I don't care.
I'm going to keep going.
I'm going to do what it takes.
And maybe I won't always do it perfectly.
And maybe it takes me a long time to come to certain conclusions about the things that I really want.
But I'm going to keep asking myself these questions and I'm going to keep considering these things and I'm going to keep moving.
Even if I feel like I can't take the biggest leap of action tomorrow, I can continue to sit with myself, to sit with these feelings, to understand where these limitations might be coming from and to get excited about my dream to find others to look up to, to enjoy my craft or my hobbies, these little things that might not feel like they're contributing towards what I want, but they are.
Little things, like I said, we can always do something, even if it's small.
I promise you, it matters.
And I am proud of you for the work that you're doing.
Anyway, you guys, thank you for sitting and creating this arrangement with me outside in the forest.
I am very, very grateful for your company and to have this conversation with you is such a blessing.
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