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[Finding Humanity Through Vulnerability: A Cellist's Journey with Long COVID]-[How music helped me live through long COVID | Joshua Roman]

TED Talks Daily · B1 · 2025-04-19

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The Silent Struggle of Long COVID

In this deeply moving TED Talk, cellist and composer Joshua Roman opens up about his harrowing journey with long COVID, a chronic condition affecting over 400 million people globally. Roman describes the onset of his illness in January 2021, detailing how a simple task like walking up stairs could leave him incapacitated, "unable to continue or even to lift myself to a sitting position." His daily life has been fundamentally altered by symptoms such as "dysautonomia," which disrupts his nervous system's regulation, and a debilitating "brain fog" that hindered his ability to process information, forcing him to abandon driving and complex cognitive tasks.

From Perfectionism to Stagnation

Before his diagnosis, Roman lived his life through a "gig mentality," constantly seeking external validation and maintaining a rigorous practice routine that spanned over 30 years. He admits to being a "perfectionist," driven by an obsessive need to "play every note in tune" and ensure every phrase was "clear and powerful." However, the physical toll of long COVID shattered this identity. Unable to maintain his demanding standards, he eventually "put my cello in its case and I left it there," succumbing to a period of "dark soul searching" where he lost hope that his music still mattered.

Embracing Vulnerability and Connection

The turning point arrived when a friend invited him to play at a small gathering. Despite his reluctance, the act of playing the cello—feeling the "sheer physicality of making sound"—reconnected him with the instrument in a way he hadn't experienced in years. He realized that his long-held focus on "giving to others" through his career had caused him to neglect his own need for "nourishment and connection."

This shift in perspective allowed him to break through his creative blocks. While he initially struggled to write an "epic piece," he eventually learned to "follow rather than dictate the sound." This led to the creation of his composition titled Immunity, an "unabashedly joyful" piece that emerged not from force, but from letting go of the need for control.

Redefining Success

Roman concludes his talk by acknowledging that he is "not who I was before I caught COVID." Rather than hiding his struggle, he has chosen to confront his vulnerabilities and dismantle the "deeply ingrained habits" that prioritized perfection. By embracing his current limitations, he has found a new path where music is no longer about flawless execution, but about "humanity." His story serves as a powerful testament to the idea that true connection—both with oneself and with others—only flourishes when we are willing to be open, vulnerable, and honest about our human experience.

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