Okay, Phi, welcome back to the show.
Thank you.
How's Phi's Ozempic journey going?
I was feeling so good, and I was just like, I think I can go off of it.
So I went off of it, and oh my God, the food noise came back.
Like, I can't even describe.
Have you seen that viral video of the girl that said the 160 thing?
Act your weight.
I'm over 160.
160?
I look lean, dude.
V came over to help me with Kai, which she's been doing so much, and I'm so grateful.
He's a very smiley baby.
He smiles at everyone.
I'm like, Kai, we're in a bad mood today.
And he's like...
He's just the joy of my whole life.
Everyone's asking how our friendship has evolved since leaving Bloom and me becoming a mom.
I'll be honest.
This is the Pursuit of Wellness podcast, and I'm your host, Mari Llewellyn.
Did you listen to Kylie yet?
I have not watched the whole episode, but I have been tuning in on TikTok.
I'm 15 minutes in.
I'm obsessed with Kylie Jenner.
I want to be her best friend.
Oh, she's such a girl.
She needed to do this sooner.
I know.
Because I think she's just been like unapproachable.
Yeah.
Just from social and like the way she came off.
Yeah.
And now I'm obsessed.
She is...
This is what Jake Shane said on the interview.
He was like you are like the prettiest, most popular girl in school that we're all kind of intimidated of.
But when we talk to you, you're like, I love your skirt.
I actually mean it.
She called Jake sexy.
She was like, you're a thirst trap.
I'm obsessed.
You saw that?
Like, that would have been my reaction.
Makes me wonder what else Kylie Jenner sees on Instagram.
You know?
I'm wondering if she's had a bloom.
She definitely has.
She has definitely seen a photo of you.
That's crazy.
Like, I can confirm that.
Like, for sure.
But I feel like she's, I feel like she's had an energy drink.
Yeah, probably.
Or at least, because we've worked with stars.
Right.
She definitely drinks them, I'm sure.
Yeah.
I'm obsessed.
She is like, if I could give someone a bloom, she would be my first choice.
I said this in a meeting the other day.
I was like, I need Kylie.
I think you could get her.
I think she just crossed the boundary from untouchable celebrity to like a girl's girl influencer who we can all kind of like, like we feel like we're friends with her.
Yeah.
That's how I felt listening even to the little clips.
I love her.
I really want to be her friend.
Okay, Fi, welcome back to the show.
Thank you.
I don't think I've been on in like A year?
No.
I mean, I've barely been on in a year.
Like, was the last time I came on my issue?
Your vagina issue?
Yeah.
That was last June.
That was literally almost a year ago.
We are fully recovered from that.
Guys, if you haven't listened to that episode, please go back.
That was the craziest thing that's ever happened to you.
Yeah.
Bartholomew's sis is no joke.
But she's gone.
She never came back.
But let it be known.
I actually did my first spin class again last weekend because I kind of thought I read that spin can kind of like irritate things down there.
Do you think that was the reason you got it?
No, I think there were other reasons.
Okay.
We don't have to go into this, but I think there were other reasons.
But I do think the spin like irritated it a little bit and I was doing it a lot.
But I spun the other day and I was totally fine.
I spun.
I spun.
Okay.
And the whole impetus of Fi being on the show today is so classic of where I'm at in my life right now because I'm just kind of in a disarray.
In general.
But Fi came over to help me with Kai, which she's been doing so much and I'm so grateful.
Obsessed with her baby.
Fi loves babies.
Ever since I met Fi, she's been like, I'm ready to be pregnant immediately.
Like, she loves babies.
She's so good with him.
She is...
Quite literally the only person that I like this is horrible for me to say, but like the only person I really trust, other than my nanny.
Well, thank you.
To have Guy.
I'm honored.
Like, Fi puts him down for naps.
She gives him bottles.
She burps him.
Like, you do the hard.
Well, I ask.
I'll, like, be at Mari's and she'll be like, like, and I'm like, no, I want to do it.
She's like grief share.
I'm like no, I want to do it.
She does the stuff that isn't fun and I'm like I love it.
Are you sure?
I told her I'm like cosplaying as a mom right now, until I can be a mom.
She like has Kai on her hip and is like walking around, but it's really cute because you and I have like spoken about Kai in a way forever, like since we met.
It's crazy.
I still look at him and I can't believe.
Can't believe.
He came out of you.
Can't believe.
Like I can't fathom that.
But he also looks just like me now.
Yeah.
He's getting more and more like me.
Also, wait guys, look.
If you're watching on video, my friend Taylor made this this morning.
Taylor made it.
Taylor made it.
It is so spot on.
Can we like zoom in on this?
Kai is Daniel Craig.
If you really.
Okay, so.
He really is.
My dad, when he was younger, like looked like Daniel Craig.
Times Colin Firth.
I think he still resembles him.
Yeah.
I see it.
I definitely see it.
Because I always say Kai looks a lot like your dad when he like smirks and smiles.
I'm like, oh my God, Mari, I see your dad.
I know.
Don't tell him that.
I mean, he'll never listen to this.
So we have no, we don't have to worry about that.
My favorite thing Kai does, you guys.
I don't think I've said this to you.
Tell me what.
He will have his passy in and he smiles like around his passy.
I know.
And it makes my ovaries explode.
I see it in my head.
And then like sometimes his passy falls out because he smiles so big.
And it's the cutest thing I've ever seen in my life.
He's a very sweet guy.
Smiley baby.
He is smiles at everyone.
We went to an art gallery the other day, literally smiling at all the women like, just like a little ham at the coffee shop.
Yeah.
He's a flirt.
Yeah.
And I like wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone.
And he's like.
And then he smiles at everyone.
I'm like, Kai, we're in a bad mood today.
And he's like.
Not the vibe.
You'd think he was like a Leo or something.
So.
What is his sign?
Sagittarius.
Oh.
They're very go with the flow.
I don't know much about sags.
Like, go with the flow, easygoing, like, not uptight, which is good for me.
I know I've only seen portions of it, but from what I've been around, he is a very happy baby.
Super happy.
He does escalate very quickly.
Like, if he's hungry, you're going to freaking know about it.
There's going to be some screaming, yeah.
He's just the joy of my whole life.
I mean...
But I've just, I don't know.
I know some babies can be like really like have colic, like, you know, be like really colicky.
He was colic, remember?
When he was like, oh, what's his little tongue thing?
You're right.
Tongue thing.
And he was like, the gas was pretty extreme.
Been there.
But like once we got past that, I was like, wow, this is amazing.
But now he's so happy.
I'm honestly blessed that we went through that at the beginning, because it has made everything feel so much easier from there.
Oh my God, Fi.
The nap yesterday that we screwed up.
Oopsie.
The worst night of his life.
Really?
It just... But he went to bed at 6.
No, Fi.
We fucked everything up.
Oh, no.
It's okay.
Yami was so pissed at me.
He didn't go to sleep that late.
So because we were... This is how crazy it is.
Why did he wake up when he woke up from that nap?
Because we were late on the nap.
He should have been asleep at 2.30.
Oh, and it was like 3.00.
So we fucked that up.
He woke up early, wouldn't nap.
He was supposed to nap for two hours and then the whole night was destroyed.
I was like, what are we going to do in Europe?
First you texted me and you were like, he's great.
He went to bed at six.
I was like, oh, perfect.
No.
Okay.
Well, oops.
Our bad.
I know.
We put him down and then we went back in and, like, he was just literally smiling.
We both tried for 20 minutes.
And, like, I was, like, bouncing him and he's just smiling at me.
And I'm, like, trying not to make eye contact with him.
So he, like, doesn't engage, but he's just smiling.
It's okay.
We tried our best.
So...
What's the update with you?
Like, we literally walked in the office in fees, like, wheeling and dealing on the phone.
I was on a call with a mortgage lender.
What?
Oh, my God.
I have a house under contract right now and I just had the inspection yesterday and it all came back very good.
Probably one of the shortest inspections I've ever had, which is, like, the best.
But a couple little things we're going to address with an amendment.
Okay.
And then hopefully get out of option and close it.
You're such a natural.
It's been so fun.
Like real estate, it's definitely like a roller coaster.
Lots of ups and downs.
There are periods where like, I feel like I have nothing going on and I'm doubting myself and like, why did I think this was a good idea?
And then there's times where like I have a million people like reaching out and things happening.
So you kind of just have to ride the waves and know that like when you're at a low, it'll come back.
But it's just been so fun, like getting to know all my clients and meet new people.
And like, I mean, you know me, but like I've literally become friends with all my clients.
I'm sure.
But I like have movie nights with them and like hang out with them and go to coffee and But that's kind of the tea, I think.
It's so fun.
With real estate.
Yeah.
And you get to meet people that normally maybe you would never come in contact with.
I don't know.
It's so fulfilling to me.
The family right now that we have under contract.
They just had a baby, kind of the same time as kai, like two weeks before, and they're just the sweetest couple and like getting to help them find a home.
That like they get to raise their baby in for the next couple years.
It's just like but that's like your talent is, like being this super friendly, like thank you, You're warm.
You make friends easily.
You're good at networking and connecting like it really is all your talents in one.
Yeah.
I mean, it's crazy.
I had never considered real estate like really ever.
And then once I got into it, it's like been like well, I can't believe I didn't do this sooner, kind of thing.
It's fun to watch you doing it.
It really is.
You're crushing it, you're so sweet, yeah.
But yeah, it's been fun, so i've been doing that.
Um, what else have i been doing?
Oh, my gosh, i have some glp updates.
I want to know like, what were they asking about, because you did a little q a box.
You want me to pull up the q a.
Yeah, let's just dive in, let's just see, and i'm sure updates will come.
But yeah, I have had a whole experience with GLPs since I was on last.
Let's talk about that for sure.
Because that's been interesting.
Oh, yeah.
How's Fee's Ozempic journey going?
Okay.
That was like the top question.
Let's dive in.
Yeah.
I actually have gotten a bunch of DMs like in the last couple of months being like are you still on it?
What are you doing?
Yeah.
I had been on it for like a year and a half up until December of last year.
And then I was feeling so good.
I was like, I feel like I've like gotten in a rhythm.
I had maintained a certain weight for months, like for like a year.
And I was just like...
I think I can go off of it.
Like in my head, I was like, I feel like my food noise is gone.
I feel like probably like my stomach shrunk.
So I probably won't be like binging and overeating.
So I went off of it and oh my God, the food noise came back.
With a vengeance, like I can't even describe the hunger that I felt.
And just to be like I don't want to get into like numbers necessarily, but like I basically gained back what I had lost over like a year and a half in two and a half months.
Yeah.
Which is insane.
Which also proved to me that, like there's other stuff going on than just because I was working out more than I had been the whole time I was on it at this point,
I had gotten back into weightlifting.
I was working out.
I was doing Pilates twice a week.
I was meal prepping.
And yet all this weight came back on that I was doing the exact same thing on it.
If not less and was not getting weight.
And now you're addressing like the gut issues that you think you have.
Yes.
I finally like got looked into.
I finally went to a gastro which, like I've been talking to Mari about literally ever since I met you, that I have had tummy issues.
Yeah.
So finally did that.
Got a ultrasound the other day waiting for those results.
I did a SIBO test.
Yeah, I did a SIBO test.
That all came back negative, which is good.
Glad I like don't have SIBO.
I always thought you had SIBO.
Me too, but no SIBO.
You should like drink this gross drink and sit and breathe.
It was like a SIBO breath test.
I don't know.
That's like the preliminary test of it, but that came back negative.
So did you feel like okay, when you were on the GLP-1 before?
I feel like you're doing this journey differently.
What did you realize from that to now and what are you doing differently?
Definitely.
Definitely.
That first time around, I think I.
It was just like the first time I had really experienced not having food noise.
And I think I may have dug into that a little too strong.
Yeah.
Was definitely not eating enough.
Um, wasn't working out enough.
I definitely lost quite a bit of muscle.
I experienced a bunch of hair loss, which like that is so common.
I see it everywhere now.
Girls just like, like I, had hair coming out in clumps which, speaking of, I am wearing extensions for the first time.
They're so beautiful.
They're clip-ins, you guys.
No one would have known.
I call them my Mormon wives, Clippins.
You look like a Utah girly.
But I'm trying to.
I've really been on like a hair health journey since all that.
Using like serums and like just really trying to take better care of my hair.
I'm on that journey, too.
You know, like my hair was like a big part of my identity.
Yeah.
And I was like, how is it like, of course, like I, like you know, lose weight and like finally feel like I'm, like you know, fitting better in my clothes and stuff?
And then like I'm going bald.
I'm like, OK, you can't have both.
But to be fair, I think you just weren't eating enough.
Yeah, I was definitely not eating enough in general.
I think if you were eating more, that wouldn't have happened.
And protein and all that.
So learned my lesson that time around.
All this to say, I actually met with my doctor this time around and talked to her.
And in between this, I read this book and I actually have this little excerpt from it because I was like I need to share about this.
So in between, when I went off of it and was trying for like the two and a half months to just get it under control myself, I listened to this audio book.
I actually saw it on the shelf at Target and I was like, what's that?
It's called Enough, Your Health, Your Weight and What It Is Like to Be Free.
And it's by Oprah and it's co-authored by this Yale obesity expert.
Dr. Anya.
Oprah's an advocate for GLP-1.
Yes.
Yeah.
Well, like if you look at Oprah over the last 30 years, her whole like on magazine covers.
It was like she's losing 60.
She's gained it.
She's losing.
And she like addresses that in the book.
And she's like my whole life has just been like for the world to see, like weight losses and weight gains.
And it has felt so out of my control.
But this Dr. Anya, I don't want to say her name wrong, but Jastraboth.
And the book frames obesity as a treatable disease rather than a personal failure or lack of willpower.
And it explains how modern medications can reduce intrusive food noise and lower your brain's set point to achieve lasting health.
Which, the whole book basically...
It like gave me the knowledge and also just like less... I think it was like willpower.
I always thought it was willpower.
And I always thought I just wasn't strong enough and that I was like weak and that I couldn't stick to something long enough.
Meanwhile...
I'm very type A. Yeah, you are.
Like, if I say I'm going to do something, I will do it.
That's true.
But this was the one area of my life that, like, I felt so out of control.
And it was so frustrating.
And it makes you Anyone that's dealt with like weight gain and stuff through their life, like or whatever just dealing with food, you know food, noise and image issues.
It is so consuming yes, all consuming but it also just really makes you like doubt yourself.
You like start to feel like you're going crazy yeah, and you're like, what am i doing wrong when you're working hard?
Yeah, i feel like i'm doing everything right.
Yeah, and i had times where i worked with trainers and got super drastic and like macro counted everything and did hours.
Remember when I used to go to the gym twice a day.
Yeah, when we lived in LA, I was at Gold's, I was lifting in the morning, I was doing 45 minutes of stair stepper a night and yeah, I saw results.
But like I was killing myself in the gym and that's not sustainable like, at least for me.
And so all that to say, this book kind of just gave me, Like it took a weight off my shoulders.
Yeah.
And I was like, oh.
Like, it's not in my control.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Which is hard for me because I do feel like I like to take responsibility for myself and my actions.
You do.
And I see, you know, I've seen other... kind of like wellness people online or TikToks and stuff.
And they're just like, you want to lose weight?
Just like put down the fork.
Like you're just eating too much and like hit the gym.
Like, have you seen that viral video?
Yes.
That's the 160 thing.
Act your weight.
I'm over 160.
I'm over 160.
Dude, 160, I look lean, dude.
Yeah.
That's lean for me.
160 is actually my really good goal.
That's my goal weight right now.
I look great, and I'm healthy, and I have hair on my head.
Same.
To you, that was crazy.
By the way, it's good that we say that.
Yeah.
I don't think people realize.
Yeah.
I'm 5'10".
Yeah.
You're what?
5'9"?
Yeah.
Like we're tall.
We're not like itsy bitsy gals.
Mm-hmm.
And we're women.
We have body... Like, we're not little teenage girls anymore that weigh... Like, and no shame.
Again, if you weigh that much, like Also, if you have muscle and you lift weights, you weigh more.
Yeah.
But everyone's body is just different and like I love how I look at 160.
That's actually currently the goal.
I love it yeah, I love it.
And that girl said you, you know, should hit the treadmill.
She's like get back on the treadmill.
I was like this effing idiot seriously, I should, I should do a stitch to that.
I know I saw Kendall did one.
I've seen a bunch Kelly Matthews.
I've seen a bunch of people respond what should I?
I should be like I should just post a video of myself and be like I'm.
You should do like you should bring it back like an old transformation photo and be like that's me at 160.
Yes.
Like the one where you're in the pink bikini on the beach in Hawaii.
Dude, I was 160 in that photo.
Yeah.
And I'm jacked.
I have a six pack.
Or Cabo.
They keep Cabo picking like the purple and orange bikini.
Not me knowing like every item Mario owns because I picked it all.
Oh, yeah.
And helped her pick me up.
And we were at Gold's Gym for hours.
Oh, my God.
Yeah.
So, yeah.
So, that has been my whole journey with that.
So, what are you doing now?
Okay.
Different.
So, yes.
So, I met with my doctor.
And actually the first thing I said to her I was like I was on a GLP through, like not a med spa, like a wellness practice here, but not my actual doctor.
And then I had gotten one online.
And I said, look like, what is your philosophy around weight loss and like using these?
And I didn't say anything.
How I felt?
I was just like what do you think?
And she was like it's like a lifelong tool, like you can't just get on it and get like lose the weight and then get off of it, like you have to stay on it.
And I was like thank you, because I felt like everyone else I had met with was like you'll lose the weight and use that as a tool and then make healthier life choices and then keep it off, Which for some people that might be the case.
But like you, you were.
I've watched you work your face off yeah, to get lean, and it was still a struggle for you.
Yeah and, like you know, I have friends who dabbled in it and lost seven to ten pounds like before their wedding.
Yeah, and they naturally just are leaner people.
Yeah, and yeah, I get it.
And like when I would talk about food noise to them and they're like what do you mean?
I'm like you don't wake up thinking about what you're going to eat, and then your next meal and your next meal, and go to sleep thinking about what you're going to eat.
Like, what do you mean?
And they're like, the only time I ever felt like that was when I was dieting too much.
And I, when you're restricting.
Yes.
But I, I'm one of those people that I don't think has food noise.
And, But I can relate in some ways.
Yeah, for sure.
Yeah, like, when you restrict too much, you're obviously going to have food.
Your body's, like, screaming for food.
It's because it's hungry, you know?
But I think beyond that, like, you know, it definitely runs in my family.
Like, it's just a thing.
It's been my whole life.
My whole life I've fixated on food.
It's been, like, a crutch for me.
And I'm lucky.
You know I've never really like gotten an issue with drinking or anything like that.
But food for me is a drug.
And unfortunately, you can't not eat food to live.
You have to eat food.
I met with my doctor, went through it all.
I got back on.
I'm actually trying triseptide, a compounded triseptide this time.
You know, have to pay out of pocket.
But to me, it's worth it.
And less.
Yes.
Yeah.
Yes.
I started.
Yeah, I've started really low.
I just upped my dose for the first time that I'm like kind of actually starting to feel it again.
Mm hmm.
But, you know, I was with Mari yesterday and I was saying, like, I know I need to be eating.
And, like, I packed hard-boiled eggs to her house.
And like anytime, I can just try to get protein, like if I am slightly hungry, like I'm going to go for protein first.
Yeah.
Even if it's, like, a literally, like, a bowl of ground beef or turkey or something.
I'm just trying to do that versus last time around.
You're being very intentional.
I would be like eat a piece of sourdough bread.
Yeah, you're like an uncrustable.
I do still love my uncrustables and i really need to work on that because that has been.
I've never had an uncrustable and i don't understand what they are.
It's an addiction.
At this point i'm like fully addicted.
Where do you buy those?
V AGB?
Amazon.
AGB.
Or Target.
Anywhere.
Like a grocery store.
They have high protein versions now.
Yeah.
And my favorite one, me and my boyfriend are hooked on them.
It's called like Up and Apple.
And it's peanut butter and like honey and like cinnamon apple butter or something.
That does sound good.
It is crack.
But they're literally like 320 calories.
What is the ingredients?
And they're 12... They're actually... It's literally bread and peanut butter.
Actually?
Yeah.
I'm sure there's like additives to make them last in your freezer.
But you know what I will say?
The fact that you have to keep them frozen...
Yeah, that's interesting.
And then thaw and then eat?
That's true.
That makes me feel a little better.
That's true.
If it was a PBJ that just sat on the counter all day and you could grab for it, I would not eat that.
You could be waking up and doing crack.
Yes.
And instead, I'm just addicted to Uncrustables.
I saw this crazy statistic though, that the NFL goes through like me, comparing myself to an NFL athlete, but that the NFL goes through like 50000 of them a season.
They do.
Pre-game.
Literally.
Literally.
I actually, okay, so all that to say, I've been eating them as a pre-workout snack.
Like I eat them 30 minutes before I go and lift.
And it has helped my lifts tremendously because I used to lift fasted.
You know what?
People do that before lifts.
They eat like a little Snickers bar or something.
Yeah, it's like, it's a, like maybe it's kind of like a dirty pre-workout.
Like I used to watch these gym bros.
I'd be like yeah, I eat a Rice Krispie Treat and like a handful of Sour Patch and I have like the best pump.
Everyone's asking about life as Auntie Fee and, like, your relationship with Kai and me.
It's been so fun.
Like, truly, he is just the cutest little baby.
He really is the cutest.
And I love seeing you be a mom.
Aw.
It has been really special.
It's, like...
It has been interesting to see Like you've.
I don't want to say you've changed, but like you've changed.
I know.
I'm a different person.
But, like, and not to say it's, like, for the better.
I agree.
Like, I think...
I think especially working in like the realm we're in.
Yeah.
Where like there's so much comparison or wasn't.
There's so much comparison and you're posting your life online.
I think it's so easy to get caught up in that and like what matters.
I know.
And what's important and like what things used to frustrate you or irritate you.
And now it's like...
I feel like you're so unbothered with stuff because you're just like I literally don't have the capacity nor care about that anymore.
No, I'm so unbothered.
Because, like, I'm a mom and, like, that's my priority and, like...
My stress tolerance is much higher now.
Yeah.
Like, I feel like, especially when you and I were working together, I would get so stressed about things that didn't matter.
And like, you know what?
We both did.
We both did.
We were just like so wrapped up in it.
When you get that wrapped up in it and like we also were grinding.
Yeah.
And when you put so much time and effort and are just like, go, go, go, go, go.
I did it to myself, which is such a funny, you know what?
I have moments in my life now that hit me.
Like I traveled alone the other day for my face laser, which we should talk about.
I haven't talked about it.
Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah.
It was just me and Greg with one little suitcase going to the airport.
And I was like, the fact that I used to get stressed out to travel.
This is a spa day.
I was like, I have one bag and I'm only responsible for me.
Kai isn't here.
Like, I was just like, this is a fucking spa.
Put stuff in perspective for sure.
I'm just sitting there like.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Which like you're obsessed with Kai and Kai's like the best thing ever.
But suddenly you're like, oh, what was I worrying about before?
Literally.
When me and Greg would go on a vacation and I was stressing out.
It makes me feel like it's just before you have kids, you're so... You're not like this.
You're an anomaly.
But it's almost a selfishness that you don't realize.
You're self-involved.
You're self-involved.
Because all you have to think about is yourself.
And you also think everyone's thinking about you and no one's thinking about you.
And I think after you have a baby, you look back and you're like dude yeah, you're no, and all I care about now is how he thinks of me, how he feels like it's just such a different, like my eyes are just yeah.
It's a crazy realization to have and I kind of Okay.
I had a bit of a spiral yesterday and thank God I had Fi with me.
I was going through it and I want to talk about it because I do think other moms probably have experienced this.
But when you first have your child, you have, and you know I don't really talk about my childhood in detail on the show
I never have, but I've touched on it.
Like, In a way, there's elements of my childhood that I love and I got to travel a lot and see different things.
But there's for sure things about it that I... would change and when i had kai i had a level of empathy because i was like wow this is really hard and um i don't know how my parents did this at the beginning when i didn't have as much help i was like this is crazy i can't believe they pulled this off yeah But then you also have moments where you feel a lot of emotion because you're looking at this like perfect child.
And Kai is, to me, perfect.
And he's smiling and he just appreciates life and he's so happy all the time and just like innocent.
Mm-hmm.
And I just had this overwhelming like anger yesterday of like how could you ever take a child and ruin their innocence or make them upset or just not want to be involved in their life?
Yeah, it makes you like think about your childhood and your parents differently and you, You get angry.
Yeah.
You get angry.
There's, like, empathy and anger.
I think motherhood is, like, the duality of so many things.
Yeah.
I can see how it brings up so much stuff from your own childhood that makes you question and wonder.
And you know, resent and get your.
Yeah, I could totally see that.
And it's, like, this mama bear instinct of, like... Yeah.
Anyone who... spends time with Kai should deserve to spend time with Kai.
Like, I believe that.
I want everyone around him to be positive and love him and give him the best energy possible.
And if anyone's coming around him with Anything negative, I'm like, I'll punch you.
Like, get back up.
You know what I'm saying?
Yeah.
Or, like, you just don't get to be around him.
Yeah.
Well, you realize, I mean, he is so young currently, but like, as babies get older, like you don't realize how much Well, now you'd probably do.
Like as a grown adult, you kind of think back and yeah, you were like a child and how they're like.
I remember vibes yes, and anger, and like feelings.
You know, I come from a divorced house too and like I remember at, you know, like my six seven, eight years old, being like Something's wrong.
Something's not great right now.
Yeah.
Like the energy in my house feels not good.
And what can I do as a child to fix it?
And you're so out of the loop and you're a kid and like, you know, as your parents don't want to... involve you in that which like you know if you're lucky you maybe don't see a lot of fights or whatnot but like I'm sure a lot of kids that have gone through that did I did and like it really like I think I know I've like blocked out a lot of it but sometimes I almost get like Visions of it.
And it's like, well, that's probably why you and I don't like conflict.
Yes.
And I'm terrified of telling people how I feel because I'm scared of what will happen next.
I'm scared they're going to leave.
And I'm like the fact that anyone would ever make a child feel that way.
I know.
I feel like when you have a child you just are like whoa.
I know.
On the flip side, though it is.
So, like you know, I think back to my parents and you know you can look at it one way, like when you have a kid and you're like oh, that's so selfish of them to like do to their kid.
Which I think I've had feelings like that.
But also they're just humans.
They're just humans.
And also I'm like I love my parents and they get along fine now, but like thank God they're not together.
Yeah.
Like I'm so happy for both of them that they're not together because I don't think they were right for each other.
And I'm like it would make my heart break even more if, up till this day, they were together just for me, and they were miserable.
Mm-hmm.
And they like weren't sleeping in the same bedroom, whatever.
Like, you know what I mean?
Like that would hurt me.
And I don't think that's a great example either.
So it is weird.
Like it's a weird level of being selfish for you and making decisions for you versus your child, which it sounds like you're saying like right now you just feel like everything, like you want to do everything for Kai.
Which I get.
I am, maybe to a fault, like obsessed with him, having a perfect life to compensate for, like what I didn't have.
Yeah.
But that's also not healthy and like I'll never be perfect.
Yeah.
Yeah.
And I have to wrap my head around that.
And also, to a certain extent, like I need to be able to suck up my personal feelings for him to have the type of life that I want him to have.
Yeah.
It's crazy.
I think also just also just like practicing, like being present.
Yeah.
And practicing, like, being grateful for stuff.
Yeah.
Like, we were talking about some stuff yesterday about him.
And I'm like, if you just, like, sat with that for 10 minutes and were like, he is so lucky.
Yeah.
Like, Kai is... He's healthy.
Gonna have an incredible life.
Yeah.
And, like...
We'll have a roof over his head and that little boy like, no matter what like and you know that that's like already such a blessing that a lot of people can't say.
His life is going to be so different than mine was.
And honestly, I could do a whole episode about this, but like it, it scares me, but it also makes me really happy.
Yeah.
But it's good to appreciate it and like you know, like acknowledge it and sit with it and like be aware of it.
Because, like I said, it's so easy to get caught up in just like wanting his life to be perfect and like well, what next?
Like, what can I do next to make his life more perfect?
And like just realize, like Like every day I'm like oh my God, he didn't do enough stimulation exercises today.
I think he's great.
We didn't practice sitting enough today.
He's doing great.
You know what I mean?
But all that to say, like what you just said, it's like the pressure on the internet now and the pressure like from other moms.
I can't even begin to imagine when I have a child one day trying to just like I swear like pick the right nipple for a bottle.
Oh.
And there's people on the internet being like, that is a bad nipple.
Your child's going to have a weird mouth deformity.
You're bad.
That's going to give them gas.
Or like, that's a bad material.
Like you should not be putting microplastics in your, and like, holy shit.
No, you can't.
Can I just feed my baby?
You can't get it right.
No.
Like you'll never do it right.
Or, you know, the right stroller.
God forbid you get a stroller and they're like, like, you're bad if you have help.
You're bad if you don't have help.
You're bad if you work.
You're bad if you don't work.
You're bad if there's nothing you can do.
And also, yeah, most of those people don't even have kids.
Like literally when people were commenting about my mother effing carrier, like how I sorry I just had a baby for the first time.
I used my carrier wrong.
I see a million people do it every day.
The carrier police came for me.
I'm like, do any of you actually have kids?
Which is one thing.
Like I get like if someone was saying it's dangerous, that's different.
But But, even like I can't I'm sorry I can't imagine getting on someone's like a stranger's video and being like hey, you're like what the fuck?
Also, don't you think I'm the most concerned?
And don't you think someone in like, someone in her life that she like, knows and cares, would like?
Like, I just, the audacity of people on the internet these days just like blows my actual mind.
I can promise you the mom parenting their kid cares way more about their kid's well-being than you do.
Yeah.
You know?
And also, like, it's your first time.
Yeah.
You're gonna make mistakes.
My God.
Right?
At least, you know.
But, like, he's fed.
He's sleeping.
He's happy.
Yes.
He's great.
Yes, ma'am.
You know?
Yes, ma'am.
Yeah, I... That's a whole...
A lot of people are asking if you're still with the boyfriend.
Oh, yes.
I asked him, I was like, can I talk about us?
And he was like, yeah.
He said, yeah?
Well, I'm not going to go into like detail detail, but we're great.
I'm going to go visit him next week.
Yeah, we've just been like great.
I'm obsessed with him.
He's obsessed with you too.
I've told him that.
I was like, should I?
He's a sweetie.
He's the best.
He's a sweetie.
Guys, he's like a, he's a gentleman.
He's just a man.
Country accent.
Like a real man.
I love the accent.
And I love it.
Yeah.
He calls me darling.
And I about died.
Wait, what did he used to call you that you told me that was so funny?
Oh, playgirl.
Playgirl.
When we first met, he started calling me Playgirl and like he sent me flowers for my birthday.
They said, happy birthday, Playgirl.
And I was like, what does Playgirl mean?
He says it's endearing.
I was like, that sounds like a side piece.
Like that sounds like you're like side.
He's like, oh, no, no, no.
I'm like, Playgirl.
He's interesting.
But no, I prefer darling over Playgirl.
That's cute.
Yeah, he's the best.
And they, like, love playing golf together, which is just... I mean, it's adorable.
I'm gonna bring my clubs on this trip.
Yeah, he, like, got me into golf and actually cared to, like, teach me stuff.
Mm-hmm.
Which was so fun and, like, great.
I'm like, oh, and it just...
The difference from dating someone that wants you to be around versus someone that finds every excuse to not spend time with you.
Like the fact that he golfed and he was like oh, like.
Instead, you know, I mean again, I let him go golf with his and do his guy time.
Cool.
Great.
I don't want to be in on that.
But the fact that unlike a lot of men who are like, oh, thank God my wife doesn't golf like fine.
I can spend eight hours with the boys and get like wasted like on the golf course, whatever.
He's like, oh, my gosh, like that'd be so fun for us to do together.
Like that we can spend more time together on my off days and like you can come golf with me.
That's how it should be.
You want me around?
No, it's so funny thinking about your life previously.
She's just, yeah.
It's not funny, obviously.
It's funny.
It's, yeah.
But I don't know.
I was talking to one of my girlfriends who's like been struggling with dating here in Austin and it's tough, but I just like keep trying to remind her you will not have to settle for the right person.
And you kind of just, like, you never know who's going to come along.
And you just got to keep trucking forward.
You never know.
And I never thought I'd meet Jay.
Like, the fact that we met is, like, kind of crazy.
How'd you meet again?
My friends introduced us.
But, like, he doesn't even live here most of the year, but he's from Texas.
And like it just just like all the layers and things that had to happen the way they did, and like His previous relationship in life and my like the fact that everything happened the way it did and timed out the way it did is like kind of crazy.
It is crazy.
We've ended up together.
But I saw Emma Leger talking about this.
She's like an influencer.
She just got engaged.
She just got engaged.
Central Park.
And she had just gone through this horrific breakup and like hated the guy and then met this guy way too early.
And she was like, I'm not ready.
Yeah.
Now they're engaged a year later.
Pretty amazing.
Girlies.
Take notes.
Take notes.
No, I'm kidding.
Yeah.
No, he knows.
I like tell him every day.
Her ring is, did you see it?
No.
It's gorgeous.
Champagne and yellow diamond, trois mois together.
Oh, yes, I did see a little bit.
She, like, designed it with him, though, I found out.
Like, he didn't... I was like, that's incredible taste if the guy picked that.
But, yeah, you can tell.
I'm, like, into... Now I'm into, like, cushion.
Cushion.
I love cushion.
Or even old mine.
What's that?
It's kind of like almost like an elongated cushion.
Like I like the longer cushion cut.
We should just go try them on.
Like, I know I'm obsessed.
We could go to Corman.
You were telling me about them.
The prices are a little bananas.
But just like for vibes.
Yeah.
For vibes.
For vibes.
Yeah.
I mean, really what we need to do is go to the New York Diamond District.
Yeah.
Or, like, the L.A.
Diamond District.
I want a new ring, too.
Mari.
Let me get one before you get another one.
You're right.
Sorry.
Hold your horses.
I want to be Victoria Beckham where I get a new one.
I'm a freak.
The saddest part, when Mari got her last engagement ring, I was like...
Fully in the trenches of my last relationship, like begging this man to propose to me.
Never happened.
Well, I bought my own.
But yeah.
But like I remember shopping for yours and I was just like well, you tried on a bunch too, i know, but i just think i was.
It was like a hard time for me.
I think i was in like the dark and again, like you bought your own, but whatever, i was just like god, like mari's getting this like gorgeous ring, and i'm over here like begging my ex to just like care about me, text you back.
That was yeah, he was really.
Yeah, it's okay, we don't have to.
Yeah, sorry about him, we don't, definitely don't.
We wish him the best rings.
Yeah, I would love to do that.
Jacob's going to be like, you're fucking crazy.
No, you're definitely not crazy.
No, no, no.
He likes to tease me.
You guys are like actively talking about it.
We talk about it all the time.
But like, honestly, I'm going to be so for real.
I've talked about it from day one, which I don't know if that's toxic.
But I also think you should talk about that.
When you know, you know.
Yeah.
And truly, that is such a feeling.
And I was telling him the other day, like, I can't imagine a day without him in it.
And him and I have talked.
I actually said this to him.
And he was like, yeah, you're right.
Him and I have talked every single day since the day we met.
Oh, my God.
Every single day.
He has never spent one day.
He has never ghosted me.
We do long distance.
This man is a way.
This man, we did long distance from two weeks of knowing each other.
Also, he's in, can I say what he's in?
Yeah.
He's in baseball, which means he works every single day.
He's on the go.
And this man.
So for all you girls who's the?
You know they're like making excuses for a man being like well, he's just busy with work.
And like, you know, he's got a lot on his plate.
Like.
My man literally found time to text me, good morning.
I hope you have a great day.
Checked in with me during the day.
Hey, I'm eating lunch.
Like, how's your day?
How was your showing?
Yeah.
Telling me good night.
Like, it's that simple.
But like, they have time.
And if they're saying they don't have time...
Move on.
We were talking about this yesterday.
I can't wait for Fi to have a baby one day, because my experience with having a husband that works a lot and is like a CEO and a co-founder and travels a ton can be very lonely and difficult and I'm like still managing that and I just think you're gonna relate to me probably totally um, And I can't wait to have a gal pal in mom life.
I mean, I've made some good mom friends.
Hopefully sooner than later.
I know.
It'll happen.
I'm excited.
Everyone's asking how our friendship has evolved since leaving Bloom and me becoming a mom.
I mean...
I mean, whenever I see you, I'm like, it feels the same.
The same.
It feels like we've picked up.
I think it feels better.
Me too.
I'll be honest.
Oh, no.
I'll give some tea.
Well, it's not really tea, but.
Mari's face is like, shut up.
Because you know they're going to get me in trouble.
No, no, no.
No, but you're always on your side.
Yeah, that also needs to stop you guys.
Like, me and Mari are best friends and, like, never peg us against each other.
We're always good.
But, like, when we, when I left, I don't even know now, a year and a half ago, like, whatever.
Yeah.
Mari and I had been okay.
Like you know, when you and your best friend spend every waking moment together for like, you're on a trip for a week and by the end you're like I want to fucking yeah, like.
Anyone.
Like, you and your... Like, that's, like, childhood.
Growing up, you go on a trip with your friend by the end, you're like, oh, my God.
Like, whatever.
But we don't ever talk to each other like that.
No, no, no.
We don't ever.
But, like, we spent every waking minute together, basically, for, like, four years.
And I think we can both say this now.
Like, we had kind of developed, like, a... codependency with each other, for sure.
That's valid.
Maybe not the healthiest codependency.
Yeah.
And I think...
We both just were so caught up in it.
And you know I had said to Mari and you this was like kind of why.
You know people were like why do you stop working there?
Like when Mari and I ultimately decided to part ways.
I had said to her, like you know, I would have never left.
Yeah, I know.
I would have never been the one to be like.
But that was part of the reason.
Yeah, which I am so grateful that you had the hard conversation with me and like were the one to kind of like instigated because it was time.
I know.
And I was ready to, like, kind of move on and do something myself.
I know.
But I would have never left because that's just me.
I know.
Which is something I know I need to, like, work on.
Like, I do it in romantic relationships, too.
I stick around way too long because I'm just, like, scared and, like, I'm, like...
I'd rather be in something that maybe isn't like right for then, like the unknown, because the unknown is scary.
But that was like the worst day of my life.
Honestly, I hated that so much.
And I think at the time I was like, in such a weird transition for myself.
I was like, I want to... You weren't pregnant yet and you were really struggling with all that.
Really struggling.
And I was like, I know when I do get pregnant, I don't want to work as much and I'm worried about...
Fee's career and what she's going to do with me.
Yeah.
Which I really appreciated because like we were going full force on this podcast.
Like I was booking Mari like crazy.
Like we were... It was insane.
It was dope, honestly.
It was.
And like we were traveling into London and New York and like all over doing all these interviews.
It was so cool.
Yeah.
But I appreciated that you kind of realized you were ready, you were about to take a step back and you didn't want me to be like well, what the fuck.
Like, I'm here, I'm grinding, and you, like, just are ready to break.
Like, what do you mean?
So, but, like, it was a little... It was hard.
Weird for a bit.
It was hard.
You know, like, I think...
When you're as close as we are, it's hard to not mix personal and work.
And it was like refiguring out our dynamic.
Yes.
Because we'd always, we'd never been friends without working together.
Which people always ask.
We worked together before we were best friends.
We weren't best friends first.
Yeah.
Yeah.
But I always knew, like even when we were working together, I'm like, this is my soul sister.
Oh, yeah.
And one day we're not going to be working, but we're still going to be best friends.
But we had to go through this like hard process.
But that's how we got so close.
It was like a breakup.
It was like a breakup.
It is.
But that's how we got so close.
And so, like, no regrets.
Like, I... You know, when it was happening, it was tough.
Yeah, it was.
And it was hard because I was like, well, shit.
I moved to Austin.
And I'm like... And I was like, what am I gonna do now?
And, like... You know.
I knew I like didn't really want to do like pursue like podcast, like like I don't know.
I was just kind of like I also and you again, I think, saw this.
I couldn't even see for myself.
I was like kind of lost of like who I was and my identity.
Yeah, I had just gone through a breakup yeah, that like I had moved here with him and like It was kind of like the final piece of my life, that like hadn't changed.
And I saw it – like once it all happened.
I was like it was – like if I had continued – if those things had changed and I had continued working with Mari and Bloom like I think I would have never been able to really like –
Move on and like work on my identity and like figure out who I was.
So you're so confident and independent now and like you're running a fucking real estate business and you have a boyfriend.
Which I really struggled with that before.
Like I, and I do think all of that had to kind of end and I had to like really take a break and like reset.
Yeah.
And my life is like totally 180 from then.
I'm with a new partner.
I'm very happy.
Yeah.
I have a job that I really enjoy that like I would have never even...
Thought about getting into if I had, you know, stayed working here.
And I remember you were thinking of being an assistant again.
And I was like, I just think you are, like, not that that's a bad job.
I just, you have so many talents and skills and, like, I don't know.
I think you, yeah, you've really...
But I think I gained a lot of that confidence and knowledge and all that stuff from working with you and Bloom and the podcast.
You were handling like a team of people with me.
I know.
It's crazy.
I think back to when I first started at Bloom.
And, like, just with Mari.
And I was just such a different person.
I know.
Like I was like a party girl LA, like 25-year-old, like not taking care of myself, like binge drinking every weekend yeah, and yeah, like so much change and my life reflected that.
You know what I mean.
Like the people I surrounded myself with, who I was dating, like it all reflected that and I am like tenfold happier now yeah, with my life now.
And it all kind of happened because I met you and I worked for Bloom.
I know I literally was talking to my personal trainer this morning.
I was like me and Fi were like Paris and Nicole.
Like there's no word for what we were like.
We would walk every room you were there with me.
Yeah.
And we were like everything together.
Tweedledee, Tweedledum.
Literally we did everything together.
Running around L.A.
Yeah. doing crazy things that we probably should not have been doing.
Like, why are we interviewing this person?
Like, you know what I mean?
Yeah.
Like the opportunities.
Yeah, it was.
But to be fair, we were really a powerful duo.
Like, I think people think it was me and Greg.
It was just really you and me the whole time tea, like two women handling shit with like a lot of bloomed stuff.
I know we were, we were no, but we were.
We really respect to greg yeah, especially the podcast wise, like we were freaking.
No, i mean, the reason this show became what it was yeah slash, you know, i picked out these chairs.
You did pick out and this coffee table and that bookshelf.
Yo, you did this by yourself and i had no idea what i was doing, so you would just do it by yourself.
I would walk in one day and you just did the studio.
I was like oh cool okay, you know, you're a very she's a very capable human, you guys.
But just from then to now honestly, i think having a kai and you being like this aunt figure is like really crazy.
I know it is.
It's also amazing original question because like yeah, the beautiful thing about fee is that i know she is gonna be happy to hang out, no matter what we're doing like oh yeah, on the couch changing a diaper, putting him down for a nap, like In some ways, like I feel like I can't just ask anyone to come do that with me, because not everyone wants to do that.
And that's fair.
Yeah.
But you're so like accepting of my new life and you don't make me feel bad about it.
And you're like, yeah, I want to do that with you.
Like bring Kai.
Like I'm like, OK, well, I have to leave in 20 minutes to eat his nap time.
You're like, great.
I'll come with you.
Yeah.
I'll put him down.
I'm like, what?
Yeah.
I have a couple friends who like my friend Taylor, who is in North Carolina, and I visited her a ton last season when me and Jacob first started dating.
And she had a baby girl who's like one and a half now, and that was like literally our dynamic.
Like I'd go hang out there all day and she'd be like okay, like want to go like walk to a park and get coffee, and then we have to go put her down for a nap, and then you and I can hang out and talk for an hour while she's napping, and then we have to do like that's what we do okay yeah, and I'm like great.
Like, that's, like, what true friendship.
I always say, like true friends are the ones when you guys are sitting on the ends of the couch and like you're both scrolling on your phone and you're like sharing.
You're, like, sending each other stuff.
And then, like, that's how I want to hang out.
Yeah.
Like, if I ask you to come over and hang out, I want to sit on the couch with you and like scroll and laugh at things and like show each other things, and then talk for a little bit.
That was us.
And then, like, go back to our... Like, that's hanging out.
Yeah.
If I feel like I need to be like engaged in a conversation and like I'm tired, absolutely I'm exhausted.
Also, I probably don't like you that much if I'm doing that honestly, like my social battery, like especially, like I mean you obviously do all this, but like in real estate and stuff, like i'm with clients and inspections and showing houses and like when i'm not doing that now i'm like couch i literally want to sit with my dog on the couch.
So fee comes over.
Like every sunday domingo my man, my nanny, called fee my sunday friend, my domingo friend, Amiga Domingo.
It makes me think of... Remember that Sabrina Carpenter and Marcelo Domingo?
That's me.
Oh, my God.
But Irina has no idea how deep our friendship goes.
So the fact that you're my Sunday friend is so funny.
But when Fi comes over on Sunday, it's like we're two mommies, just like she comes out from putting him down and we high five each other and we're like wow, that was a tough one.
Yeah oh, there was one time I like literally tried to put him down three separate times.
He's dead asleep in my arms.
I go to put him down like right, as I like pull my arm out from behind his head.
He cries Kai does not want to sleep.
I come out and then finally I'm asleep.
She's like, isn't that the best feeling?
Like the most rewarding feeling when he's asleep.
And I'm like, oh no, it's like life changing.
But it's a battle.
Like that kid does not want to sleep.
He's pissed.
Yeah.
He wants to play.
He wants to hang out.
He's yeah, that's his personality for sure.
But it's fun.
I like I can't wait till I get to do it one day.
But honestly, this has been such a good coping mechanism for me.
Even Jacob was like I'm really glad you're like doing that, because like getting your like baby time in without like actually having your own baby yet.
I am.
Yeah.
And it's good.
I needed that.
It's really fun.
Is Fi going to move to Charlotte?
Oh, yeah.
People keep thinking because like with my man's in North Carolina.
You know, I, my boyfriend is from Texas and he would love to keep his like roots in Texas.
He likes to be here in the off season.
Yeah.
And, like, this is where I'm building my business.
And I've kind of—we've come to the conclusion, again, we are not married yet.
We don't have kids yet.
Like, this will probably all change in the next couple years.
But like, while I am building my career, like I need to be here in Austin, at least in Texas, but like in Austin.
Mm-hmm.
And, yeah, like, I visit as much as I can.
And also with his career, this is the thing.
Like, he could go to another team next year and be in a completely different state.
Yeah.
So like, why would I, at least in my mindset?
I'm like, why would I pick up my entire life and go live somewhere which like literally, could change next year?
Mm-hmm.
And so kind of the plan is to just like keep our roots here always.
And then, like I said, like once we have kids and like that happens, like we'll see.
I will say it's a great place to have a baby.
Yeah.
I think in my head I always was like maybe we'll move back to the East Coast at some point, like Connecticut.
I don't even know.
But then when I had Kai and there's like a great new mom community here.
Oh, yeah.
Great schools.
I think Austin is an incredible place for young families.
It is.
There's like so much to do.
Like most part, I mean, it gets really hot in the summers, but like very great weather.
You can walk the trail.
Like you said, and oh my gosh, I feel like I'm not even a mom yet.
And I can already see like the groups of moms that do stuff and just like the little parks.
It's great.
It's a great place to raise kids.
It's amazing.
I told you I signed Kai up for gymnastics.
Gymnastics?
Did I not tell you?
Oh, wait, should we talk about our baby class that we're going to do?
Yeah, we'll talk about the baby class.
Yeah, I need to hear about gymnastics.
Wait, there's a place near Tarrytown that has, like, baby slash toddler gymnastics classes.
And it teaches them, like, it's good for their bodies.
Yeah, they, like, learn how to hang and, like, tumble.
And Kai's going to do it in September.
The baby cannot even crawl yet.
I know.
I know.
Well, he's already trying to crawl, though.
You see him, right?
Like he's using.
Yes.
He can sit.
He can tripod.
So the thing with Kai is, when you put him on his stomach and he's something he wants, he's like.
He's like swimming, or he'll use his head as leverage, which really is concerning for me.
Like I'll look over at him and he's face planting.
When is crawling like?
They say like eight months to 10 months, I think.
Okay.
But I think based on.
He might be a little sooner.
I think he's a little sooner.
So by the time I'm back from Colorado, I think he will be crawling.
Regardless, he'll probably be like the youngest in the class.
I'm going to visit Mari in Aspen.
Oh, my God.
I've never been to Aspen, you guys, ever.
I'm very excited.
We're going to hike.
We're going to go out for dinner.
I'm very excited.
We're going to go.
I mean, it's going to be a lot of Kai things, too.
Which is so fun.
We're going to go to the library.
The Aspen Library is so cute.
It's so beautiful.
And it pops off in the summer.
Yeah.
And it has like a little stream around it.
That's cute.
I love that.
Gardens.
I used to go to the library growing up.
Yeah.
That was like my dad's activity.
He would bring us to the public library next to my...
Old high school.
A few, maybe a month ago, I was like desperate for activities to do with Kai because I was like I want to go do things with him.
Took him to a library down the street.
We walked in.
He pooped his pants and then we left.
Yeah.
He wasn't good at Friday.
Yeah.
He was.
I was like, okay.
Something about a library like the books it's kind of like a Ross just makes you have to use the restroom.
Yeah.
Have you seen that?
Oh, I must be on like IBS constipated TikTok, because girls are like oh, I haven't pooped in like a week.
And they're like, girl, get yourself a Starbucks and go walk around Marshalls.
And you was like a thing.
Really?
Yeah.
Something about the light and the colors.
Yeah.
Yes.
I just immediately.
And we had to leave.
It's funny you say that, activities.
And random, Taylor Hasselhoff.
She sold me my house in L.A.
Yes, in L.A.
She lives in Nashville now, I think.
That's so weird.
But I know, so weird.
I still follow her.
Yeah.
And she's great.
And she's about to have a second baby, if not already had it.
But I saw her saying the other day, she has a little girl.
And she was saying, like...
Like the way to get through like that age and like toddler years is she's like activities.
Yeah.
Like we have a morning activity and an afternoon activity out of the house.
And she's like it keeps me sane.
Yeah.
I probably sound so creepy talking about her.
But like I saw her write this video and she was just like it's like we have nap time and whatever in the middle.
And I have a morning activity and afternoon.
She's like if I stay in the house.
She's like, first of all, the house turns into a literal, like, tornado.
Yes.
And she's like, and second of all, I just can't sit in the house all night.
No.
And I was like, my friend Taylor's like that, too.
She, like, always takes Beckett out.
I will say.
Like, gotta get out of the house.
That's, I think, why the, like, right now, Kai's at a really fun age, actually, to take him out.
Like you and I went out for coffee.
We went to an art gallery yesterday.
That was so fun.
He loved it.
I'm trying to go out more because when I have him for a full day and we don't leave the house, I'm struggling.
Like I feel like I'm in that show that like repeats itself the whole day.
Groundhog Day.
You have to.
Oh, my gosh.
You have to go out.
Yeah.
You have to.
Yeah.
Or we, like, I'll, like, do a swimming activity with him.
Yeah.
But I cannot wait for activity age.
Yeah.
Hence the gymnastics.
It's almost there.
Soccer when he's two.
Oh, my gosh.
Halloween.
I'm so excited for Halloween.
Guys, I'm over beef.
Yeah.
No, we're doing baseball for sure.
I just like my friend Taylor's having a boy next and I got him little baseball outfits with like little baseballs all over it that say like let's play ball.
Let's play ball.
I was showing them to Jacob and I was like, I cannot handle this.
He's like, you can't.
Dude, I mean.
I was like, look at the little baseball shorts.
Even seeing Kai, imagine like seeing him smile, I freak out.
Imagine seeing him like running around with other kids.
I know.
And his little hair, the way it's parted to the side.
Oh, yes.
So cute, you guys.
Also, like I was telling Marley the other day, I was changing him and I was like I am so in love and obsessed with this baby and he is not even mine.
I was like, I it like literally makes me sick to think about when I have a child.
She's like, oh, no, you're like never.
You're going to be sick.
I'm going to be.
Yeah.
You're going to be sick.
Yeah.
It's crazy.
I can't even describe it.
The fact that I feel that way about other people's children.
I just cannot fathom how I'm going to feel about my own.
I know.
It just makes me that much more excited.
I know.
You're going to be a freak like me.
I really am, yeah.
We're going to be freaks.
That's okay.
It's okay.
I love it.
It's fun to hang out with other freak mommies.
Yeah.
I mean, I think we're all probably freaks.
I mean, everyone's obsessed with their child.
I know.
I know.
It's to a degree I can't even describe.
Okay, we should probably wrap it here.
I feel like we've been talking for probably longer than it feels.
Our 20-minute segment about Uncrustables.
Did we miss anything?
Oh, I got a laser done.
I got CO2 laser.
Your face looks like it's pretty much almost healed now.
I know you probably have makeup on, but like.
Yeah, it takes.
So it is technically like healed, but you don't see the real full results for two to three months.
Because it like stimulates collagen.
So I still see like a little texture here in Dr. Chestnut.
He's coming on the show next week.
You look very glowy.
Thanks.
Oh, he is?
Yes, he's coming back on for part two.
Oh, I love that.
And he was like that texture will get better and better and better because of, like collagen and cell turnover.
But I'm really excited.
I mean, guys, my face.
You look very glowy.
Very glowy.
I looked absolutely bananas crazy.
Like, my gosh.
My mom saw a video and was like...
I, like, I guess, I mean, I didn't tell my mom you got that done.
She was like, what the fuck happened to Mari?
People were messaging me, like, did an accident happen?
Yeah, you looked like a burn victim.
I know.
Or, like, someone threw acid on your face.
Well, like, you basically are.
Like, that's kind of what they do to you.
Yeah, they burn your face off, yeah.
And I was making like TikTok videos.
I documented the whole thing if you want to go watch.
Oh, so just like the swelling.
Oh, my face was out to him.
My face was out.
People were commenting, didn't know this was you until you started talking.
I had some people, friends of mine send this to me.
They were like, oh my God, this is Mari.
But you know, I had more views than I've had in a long time.
I think people get a sick fascination of stuff like that.
I mean, other people that might be interested in the treatment, like, want to know.
Like, this is so toxic and this is the last place you should go look for anything like that.
But like whenever I have like a medical thing or anything, I immediately Or like I get a new medication.
TikTok.
TikTok immediately.
I know.
I want to see people talking about it, their experience, which I know this is like, probably bad, and I should be like listening to my doctor and not like strangers on the internet.
But...
It's like real life reviews.
And like I want to hear all the tea.
I want to know, you know, I was typing in CO2 laser day by day.
Like I wanted to see what was going on.
I feel like people on the Internet have like that's like especially on TikTok with GLPs.
Like there are people that fully have just like their whole TikTok is just like their experience and like their injection day, every day or like every week.
There's like peptide talk.
Yeah.
I'm on peptide talk, but they aren't really allowed to talk about them.
Yeah, because they're, yeah.
But a lot of them are selling it.
Yeah.
Which is like a, don't buy peptides from people on TikTok.
Yeah.
I don't think, yeah.
I do think there's a little bit of sketchy shit happening.
Yes, definitely happening over there.
So try to go to your doctor.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Well, Fi, it was so fun.
Love you so much.
Love you too.
I miss this.
Thanks for coming on.
We have the best chats.
Guys, make sure you subscribe.
Make sure you leave a comment.
Follow me on Instagram.
Follow Fi.
And if you're looking to buy, sell, or lease in Austin, give me a call.
Oh, my God.
Is that your slogan?
No.
I'm obsessed.
But you should.
Wait, what's a good thing with the word Fi?
You know what I do?
Like my last name's Addix yeah, like A-T-T-I-X, and my boyfriend literally thought my Instagram was like Fiona A-T-X, like Austin oh, which I was like that is a good play yes, but the only thing is, if I do like, logo or brand myself that way, then like I'm austin yeah, because you might want to sell in other places, but so i'll probably just keep like my name as like.
But yeah, if you're moving to austin and you're looking for a rental or you want to buy fee knows what she's doing, call her at your girl.
I'll leave her link in the description.
Thanks to buy a house.
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