I have a date tonight, guys.
Here's the thing.
I don't wanna say I've been off the market for a while, but I was emotionally unavailable.
I was just in this phase where I hated, this is gonna sound harsh, I hated men.
I felt like, you know what, I'm done dating forever.
And I feel like I'm just going to be single and adopt children.
But that lasted just a couple months and now here we are.
Not all men are bad, just some.
So last week I was asked for a date and I'll kind of fill you guys in on that later in the video.
But I thought I would film myself getting ready.
Dates are scary, okay?
I feel like nobody not one freaking person, can tell me that they've been on a first date and they have had zero nerves for it okay.
It just comes with the territory.
I usually talk to my friends when I'm getting ready for a first date and I debrief with them and I get ready and they kind of hype me up.
I don't have that today.
Instead, I have you guys.
I've been using the Living Proof Shampoo and Conditioner.
This has been a staple for me.
I am going to wash my body with the Olay Body Wash and I do want to exfoliate today, so I'm going to be using my exfoliant.
I got this at Ulta.
I'm not gonna do anything crazy for skincare, but I am gonna start out by exfoliating.
This is the Kate Somerville Liquid Exfoliant.
I heard that using a liquid exfoliant is better and more gentle on your skin than using a grainy exfoliant.
Since I'm gonna be putting on makeup in a titch, I am just gonna put on a little bit of face oil.
Okay, I'm just gonna roll the product into my skin.
Does the roller actually do anything?
That's up for debate.
So I'm starting on my hair by prepping it with this Bumble and Bumble Invisible Oil.
This is not only heat protected, but a detangler.
I'm trying to think of the first date that I've ever been on.
I think the first date was when I was in high school.
I went out with this boy that I was quite in love with.
I think I was like 14 or 15 maybe.
I do remember that he had just turned 16, because he was a little bit older than me and he had his license.
So he picked me up from my house, which I thought was so cool.
And our date was at Noodles and Company.
I don't think it was fun.
I don't really remember.
I have a picture of it though.
Oh my God, I literally have a picture of me with him.
I also like to flip my head down so that way I get a little bit more volume.
It's gonna look weird, but.
My hair is done.
It has a pretty good amount of volume, I would say.
We can use this time to chat about boys, girls, dating, and how it's a rough life out there.
I'm starting out my makeup with my Charlotte Tilbury primer, something I've learned about dating since having started college.
There were some points when I would be talking to someone and I felt like oh, maybe if I give it another day and I try again, I'll start to like them more.
And I just tried to like force myself to like them just because I felt like I should.
If you don't like somebody, you shouldn't try to like force feelings.
It's not beneficial for either party.
I'm using my Ilia skin tint, by the way.
You guys know that I really prefer, like tinted moisturizers over foundations because they're just lighter weight.
I heard that.
Yeah, you can come in.
Yeah, makeup pause, i'm gonna pick out my outfit now.
I know just the dress.
Oh wait, that's and that feels a little much.
The date is.
I feel like i should have explained this already.
Basically, we're going to be getting dinner and drinks in the circle, which is basically like where all the restaurants are.
You're chopping kind of dressy.
I haven't told them who this is, because i wanted to tell them on camera.
Oh god, why at least.
So I just realized I didn't explain how I met this man.
We met in a class together this semester.
I don't really talk to him that often, but we had a group project.
And then in the group project, he asked me out a date.
I like this.
I like it.
I think you should save it for a date for something that's worth it.
I like it, but I feel like it might be a little too fancy for the restaurant.
Nine out of ten.
Okay, so nine out of ten.
Same top, different bottom.
Oh, I like this.
This is cute.
That's better.
This is more like casual.
Yes.
It's a high score.
9.9.
I hurt my attitude problem.
I think I would scare him away.
And I think that's exactly what you should be doing.
But I think that's what we want to do.
Yes!
You can't make someone love you, but you can make them fear you.
So true.
Oh, this is what Sydney wears on every first date.
I like this because it's not so dressy.
I think this is the winner.
I can't process anything.
I think I might whack my head too hard on the ground.
Thank you guys for your hug.
Date time!
We believe in you, Sim.
Thanks guys, I'll let you know how it goes.
Can't wait for the debrief.
Anyways, back to my makeup.
I'm gonna put on some concealer.
I have been using the Kosas concealer.
As you guys can tell, I just love that I have this little guy joining us today.
I'm going to quickly set my foundation and concealer with my Laura Mercier powder.
A lot of powders can really look cakey on my skin and this one does not.
This one just blurs my skin.
I think something that I've learned as I've gotten older in regards to dating is that you have to be completely content in yourself prior to entering any sort of relationship.
There's just so much more of an urge for codependency when you're not content with your own life and your own goals and your own passions and your own friendships.
You can't love someone else if you can't love yourself, which I know is oversaid, but it's very true.
I am, by the way, using right now the Hoola bronzer, bringing this one back.
It's a good 2016 product.
Okay, I'm going to put on some blush now.
I'm using my Rare Beauty blush, of course.
I think the second thing in terms of relationships that I've realized if the relationship is difficult, meaning things are complicated, you're not really sure where that person stands with you or you're getting mixed signals.
There's like red flags popping up.
Sometimes they look orange or pink, but they are red.
A healthy relationship, there shouldn't be confusion.
There shouldn't be questions.
It shouldn't be difficult.
It should be easy.
If I get mixed signals now, I will dip immediately.
I'm going in with some highlight now.
This is the Future Dew by Glossier.
It's also really important to be able to have fun in your own company.
I will specifically make time for just myself throughout the week to paint or to play piano, just so that I can spend time with myself and remember how to have fun on my own.
I recently got this jumbo pen from NYX.
I like using this on my inner corners because it really brightens them up.
This is my favorite lipstick recently.
This is the NARS lipstick in the shade Dulce Vida.
Last thing, I'm gonna do my brows.
I like to brush them up with this got to be glued styling gel.
This is a massive bottle, but it is the best because it really does keep my eyebrows in place all day.
You can meet so many amazing people in your life and not everyone is meant to stay in your life forever.
That's something that gives me a lot of peace of mind if something doesn't work out or doesn't end the way that I hoped it did.
Just knowing that people come into your life for seasons sometimes.
Anyways, my makeup is done now.
I feel like I might change my shirt.
Since I'm doing the all red theme, I wanna stick with it and I'm gonna put on this red heart necklace.
I'm getting nervous now.
I'm throwing on my shoes.
These are, wait, where are they?
Okay, false alarm, I found the boots.
I'm wearing these ones, they're just these short black ones.
Wait, this is super cute.
This is cute.
I'm happy with this.
So this is my final fit overview.
You guys kind of already saw it, but obviously my red top, necklace, jacket.
I love these jeans.
These are Revice jeans and I just love the cut inwards.
This is when I get really nervous and I want to back out, but I don't because it's rude.
I always have to like freaking tell myself, no backing out.
You look good.
There's nothing to lose.
That's the three things I say to myself.
Gonna update you guys tomorrow for sure.
Wish me luck, guys.
Love you, see you in the morning.
So it's three nights later.
I'm just getting to the debrief part.
I'm so sorry.
The day actually went really well.
We had a lot more in common than i thought we would.
I don't know if there will be a second date, but like if it was up to me, if he's watching this, i'm extremely embarrassed, but I would go out with you again.
Anyways, that's all for my birthday video.
Thanks for watching, guys.
Bye, guys.
