i feel like without blush my face just looks more mature Hey.
Morning guys.
I'm so tired but I have to get ready because we're going on a road trip today.
My brother just got into med school in Calgary.
So we're helping him move in.
It's like a three-hour drive but we're leaving really early.
I'm using this cleanser from glow.
It's the apple enzyme foaming cleanser and I've never used an apple cleanser and it smells so good.
It has little exfoliating particles in it.
So it really feels like it's getting in there to cleanse my skin.
Oh I genuinely don't think I've ever done a get ready with me where I wasn't in a rush.
I'm always freaking in a rush.
And I think my issue is I set like 20 alarms but then I keep turning them off because I keep relying on the next one.
We are sleeping over at his new apartment tonight.
I was supposed to do this last night but I was so tired.
This bag is from...
This bag's from Subdude.
Thankfully, my makeup's already kind of popped from my New York trip.
I'm also bringing my road eye patches and my road pimple stickers.
I just finished packing my bags.
This one has all of my clothes.
This one has like, my laptop, my work stuff, camera gear, makeup and all that.
What is this?
I don't know what I'm gonna be doing.
I want to go to grad school, but I want to take a gap year before that.
So I don't know if I should get my own place, or if I should travel for a year because I've been wanting to go to a lot of places, or if I should just sublet an apartment in New York for like six months and then travel for another six months and then start school.
I don't know.
I think I'll know closer to the end of the summer.
Hi guys, I am finally back in my room.
Do you guys notice anything different about my face?
I feel like, without blush, my face just looks more mature.
I like it.
Look at all the clothes that i have on my couch right there and it gets worse guys, oh my god, i don't know how long this is gonna take me.
So i have this bag where i'm gonna put a bunch of my winter clothes and bring it down to the basement.
It's completely sunny, but it's raining.
Oh, it's the best.
Whee!
I recently bought these cute shorts from Hollister.
It's so cute.
I love the double buttons and the double pockets.
Oh my god, I have so many new pieces I bought.
I also got this from H&M.
It was like $5 because it was on sale.
Okay, I'm taking a little break because I feel dizzy.
This summer I've been trying to be more introspective, go on more nature walks and spend more time with my friends.
Do more wholesome activities.
Last year was such a busy year.
Even up until now, it's been such a busy year.
Finishing up school, graduation.
Oh my god.
I started reading this book again.
I already read it twice.
It's called Letters from a Stoic.
I also talk about Dostoevsky on my channel a lot.
One of my favorites is White Nights, but I don't know where I went.
I've been wanting to reread that.
My goal for the summer is to read five books.
I also want to plan my future because I want to go to grad school.
After I mentioned that in my videos, a lot of my friends reached out to me asking me for my plans.
Honestly, like, I don't have any plans.
I don't know what's going on in my life.
But I think that's what happens post-grad.
I'm trying to tell myself to calm down because post-grad is stressful for everyone and I get that, but I feel really blessed and lucky to have So many different options that I can take.
I know for a lot of people, like their only option is to go into the workplace.
But if that's your goal, that's awesome.
But if it's not your goal and that's the only option that you have, I also don't want you to feel too down about it, because right now is the time of our lives where like, everyone feels so confused about what we're doing.
Just remember that you always have time, like we're so young, like we always have time to figure stuff out.
I remember when i dropped out of science because i used to be a stem major My brother just went into med school.
I was also gonna go into med.
I used to be a part of the international baccalaureate program in high school.
My high school chem teacher actually pulled me aside and told me that I should consider going into the chem field, because my average throughout the three years was always 100 every year.
And I loved chemistry, but it's just university level of chemistry.
It was just a lot of lab work.
At the time i did want to do med, but my youtube career started blowing up, so then i was like, oh my god, is this the right choice?
Because chemistry is so different to what i would have been doing online.
But all this is to say, when I dropped out of school to decide what I wanted to do and I took a gap year, I felt so lost in life and I was crying every night.
It's fine if you feel lost.
I feel like the summertime is especially the time where a lot of people do feel bored and lost every day because we have to sit with ourselves for so much of our times.
Like obviously, like i'm traveling here and there, but i know for a lot of people, like traveling isn't an option, and it wasn't an option for me for the longest time as well, so i know how summers can feel.
Like i don't live in a big city as well, so like there are days when i'm just like laying in my bed and like not doing anything And all my friends have jobs.
So when I'm not traveling, all I'm doing is just hanging out with like two of my friends and just my parents and yeah, not doing much.
So...
I think we need to bring that type of lifestyle back.
Like I'm so sick of going onto YouTube and constantly seeing like New York City penthouse tours blow ups, glow ups, like self care.
Like I'm a part of the problem.
I know because I make so many of those videos and I enjoy making those videos because there's nothing to do in my hometown.
So, like shopping, pampering myself gives me an excuse to have fun while vlogging, but I also want to like film more vlogs where it's literally just more raw and just like me talking to you guys because I feel like we've lost the plot on YouTube.
I don't want everything to be perfect.
I want to connect and I want to be able to talk to you guys.
I want to read comments and I want to read comments of you guys being personal and vulnerable and just like a community.
So let's bring the plot back.
Even if you were to talk to me in person, like this is how I talk to you, like I can never get like one point across, because then my mind just goes to like point B C D E F, G.
I've been debating like where am I gonna live?
You know, like, do I want to stay here in Edmonton?
I live in Edmonton.
You probably don't know where Edmonton is.
Exactly.
I've always wanted to move to New York and that's why I've been going so often is because I've been looking into apartments.
But the thing is like I was just.
I don't know if I want to live in New York for a year straight because rent is so expensive.
Everything in New York is so expensive and I'm someone that loves to travel and I just feel like living in New York would really restrict that.
If it doesn't restrict me, then I would just be wasting money.
So I want to buy a house.
But then like my friends are like, why are you trying to settle down already?
And like they have a point too.
LA is still expensive, don't get me wrong.
The apartments for the same price, it's so much more spacious than New York.
And flights to New York from LA are so cheap.
Process of getting a visa for Canadian craters is so annoying.
Like you have to get a lawyer, a sponsor.
It's so annoying.
I'm just gonna listen to some music and chill and daydream a bit and then get back into cleaning.
I'm gonna finish watching James Bond while I clean.
I love the summer rain.
These are all my crystals.
I got all my winter clothes in here Alright speaking of rooms.
I now have a secondary room.
This is actually where my brother used to stay, but I currently have a desktop already in here.
So I'm kind of bored for like this Muji earthy tone vibe.
I'm thinking of including this in my back to school video, but let me know what type of vibe you guys think I should go for.
Like I could do something a bit more colorful like this.
But yeah, let me know what you guys think.
I got this hojicha latte.
This is like the only thing that i get from here.
We have a Heidi Lau one here.
I also went to a supermarket to just browse around with my parents.
I also needed new fitted sheets for my mattress.
I feel like i'm getting so old.
I get excited about the weirdest things like look at this blender yes.
Look at this ice cream maker yes, this actually smells really good.
But i did get this candle that smelled like mangoes and some new pens.
And then i met up with my friend at the gym.
He offered us free refreshers, so i got to try out the mixed berries one and she got the mangoes.
I think the mixed berries was a lot better.
And i got a green protein smoothie for my pre-workout drink because i was low-key hungry.
We're here for yoga.
My friend gifted me these rose under eye patches and they look like bananas.
I'm feeling really fresh today.
We did hot yoga, so I was sweating a lot and the showers after hot yoga has hit the most.
I prepared all my veggies.
I have some bok choy, baby napas, and enoki mushrooms.
This is the soup base.
This makes three to five portions, so I'm only gonna use half because I'm making it for my mom and I.
Okay, I've measured out 100 grams, because the whole thing was 200.
For the beef, I got some rib eye slice rolls.
I love these bean curd rolls as well.
It on, we're gonna let it boil for like a minute or two and it should be ready.
I also bought these sliced noodles, but this goes in after we eat all the veggies and meat.
For the dipping sauce, i got some peanut flavored sauce as well as hoisin sauce.
I'm so hungry.
It looks so good.
My friend and I we're gonna go watch the movie back rooms at the movie theater.
I've been wanting to watch that movie since it first came out.
So I'm really excited I might go pick up bubble tea if I've time.
Could I get the passion fruit green tea?
It's already 9.5, I'm already so late to the plane.
